(An alternate dream)

Star Pov
I smiled as I watched the stars with Marco. His warm hands holding onto my small soft ones. Hearing him laugh and pointing out each star like it was some game. I looked at him as if this was real and that I did pull through but in all reality it's not.

I picture a world where I never had this condition, or even changed the way I am? I was still myself and I managed to make friends along the way. The only thing I would change is when I first looked into your loving eyes.

So light and brown that I could everything through those eyes. Your smile as you look at me and your face having the most beautiful mark I ever seen on a guy. The way you look and act when your around me makes me feel good.

Only in this version you barely know I exist. You don't even glance up at me or even lift your head away from something that has you distracted. Noticing the way your friends acted around and you didn't care?

I was still looking like a nerd that not even one guy would give me their time. Until you ran into me..it was noon and we were the only ones in the library and a couple books were about to hit my head. But I never felt the pain or even get a chance to even protect myself.

But there you were, covering me with your body as the books were sprawled all over the floor. My heart flutters and my cheek turn pink as you look right into blue eyes. Seeing though mocha eyes send tranquility into my soul.

The way you took the pain and used it against yourself. But one question was yet to remain? Why did you do it? Did you feel pity for me or you think I couldn't handle the pain? I couldn't move and I didn't move but you did..you moved away and put the books back and I stood there confused and dazed that I forgot to 'Thank you' properly. I was nervous and completely shocked and I needed answers.

"Why did you protect me?" Straight forward and no time to back down. The look in your eyes sent shivers down my back and made me feel flustered up. You looked at me with a smirk and small laugh "You would've bumped your head, those books were hard covers, anyone could have done the same?"

But would anyone really risk it to save a person like me? A reject that everyone misses or don't even care? I  was stumped and couldnt think of the right word choice. Should I say 'Not true' or 'Maybe' or just stay quiet and move away? You waited patiently for me to answer and I yet had words to form

"You don't have to answer, your welcome" you went back to whatever you were doing and I slowly backed away. Why was I this nervous or even acting like this in front of you? You could have any girl but yet you don't seek anyone really? Why? Is it because it's a waste of time or do you not wish to find one? All these questions but yet none have been answered.

Looking through our high school years we ended up together? Funny how from that moment we grew closer..we struggled with challenges but we always pulled through which I loved. You sweet and caring personality always put a smile on my face but then again it freezes.

This is the life I wanted..

You didn't even know who I was until she introduced me to you..even then you felt like you knew me your whole life? All I see is me disappearing into nothing but a faded memory. Now I feel like I'm going to make you suffer when I'm no longer there..just a memory you once had will never be true again?

You loved me..you treated me like a gentle flower. You made love with me and you could've done this with anyone else but you chose me? A girl who's dying and can barely walk it hold themself up. A girl who used to pick little fights with you but didn't even stop trying.

I just wish I had the opportunity to be your childhood best friend like Janna..maybe then you and I could be close but would you see me the same way She looked at you? A chance to be together forever or as long as you decide to go? The future and present are two different things but will it still be the same outcome?

A/n Hey guys so updated a quick part next part will be Star's surgery and after that the finale? I'm actually kinda excited lol anyways hope you enjoyed.