ok look I'm saying this because it true this is to you love<3 zRamon98 
I'm truly Sorry for like being ass there is no exucues for me taking my anger and yelling at you ....  your maybe right about me being scarred and everything but there was no right for me to be an bitch, I honestly didn't mean to yell there so much i wanna tell you but the thing is i am scarred to get to close to you and then loose you I don't want to loose you at all! There so much and your right about me looking at the positive that i should do that.  You help me though shit that i ever thought i would get though because of you I'm a little ok with who i am to be honest i know  i shouldn't be posting this because people might think i might do for this for attention I'm not this is the only way to let you know k,  I'm grounded from texting and talking on xbox for Awhile and btw I'm still am .  But u need to know that i mean  I shouldn't have broke like i love talking to you i always did and i do. I shouldn't have like broke but no one knew what was going on well couple of my "xbox friends" there like real friends to me but your so real to me like i know your going to serve soon and your in school but like i support it majorly but I don't want you to go that the selfish part of me but i know you mean the best and I LOVE THAT! But please don't be mad at me like you everthing to me (not in a creepy. Way). Like its damn it. I hate to amited this but u actlly know me and its a little bit scary letting someone in in so long after losing so many people that i thought. I could and i told things to and i was let vent to me.... see you let me vent to you and what if like something happens which it WONT !  But yea like I don't want you to get close cuz I'm. Scared that i would be disappointment and your just so happy positive u spread it nice. To hear that after hearing what i hear but "i know I'm not the center of the univers but can spin around me just the Same" - Hevy by linken park " and it dragging me down" but your so filled with hope it fun - and if you tell anyone I said that i will punch you. In your arm - jajajaja- XD but yea just please talk to me or something its killing me k!!!! D; please I'm sorry i cant stand you ever being mad at me. Please <3. Talk to me i wanna to know how you are and like everything what's new please I'm. Sorry i really am ! zRamon98

        - love, me ........zRamon98