Janet Rivera's POV

"I really like the progress you made Kelly, I can already see a brave girl." The lady spoke with enthusiasm as her head turned around the whole bunch of people and finally landed on me.

"Janet, What progress have you made?" I gulped and tried to stay in contact with her but my mind kept drifting away as those voices in my head kept getting louder and louder. NO!

"I don't blame myself that she and my baby is dead, she died because she made me suffer and my baby got tangled along with it. It was the consequences to her action." I meant every word, for the past 3 months I have been blaming myself that she is dead and that I was the reason that I don't get to see my little bundle of joy. But I know, that I couldn't have avoided it and there is nothing I can do now to change it other than move on.

"That's very impressive, Janet." I kept my face neutral as the therapist kept talking and blabbering shit. Most of the changes in me are not caused by this therapist but by Dr. Renne as he helped me through it but he had to go back to his home country because of some family issues and I was stuck with this group therapy.

"How was it?" Nathan asked as he helped me up from my chair. I still haven't been able to walk properly after my legs were fractured bad. But as Nathan said 'Its a lot better' then yes I can drag myself and it is better.

"Shit. She makes me say the same thing again and again." I tell him as he chuckled and picked my up Bridal style, I gasped. "People are looking Nathan!!"

He didn't seem to care as he walked through the parking lot and placed me in the car. I rolled my eyes as he gave me a peck and went to the driver's side to start the car. The drive was silent as Nathan seemed like he was thinking about something, I didn't feel like ruining his thoughts so I kept listening to the soft humming of the radio while looking out the window watching the same road we take everyday.

"My love?" I hummed and turned to face him as he smiled and kept his eyes on the road. "Get ready tonight, the girls are in the house to help." I narrowed my eyes at him as he parked the car and quickly got out before I can even ask him 'why?'. He reached my side and gave me peck once again before picking me up to get in the house.

"Why all of a sudden?" I asked him. We have dates but mostly in the house. He got me flowers and gifts, even cooked for me, made me wear cute dresses, online shopping. It wasn't that he wouldn't let me out but I didn't want to go out. I felt people's gazes judging me for killing my own child and I couldn't take it.

"I just want you to go outside, a small step. It would be better for your health. Janet, I know you think this was your fault but trust me when I say this. You are the victim and I don't blame you nor does any of our friends, the people around you won't judge you for something you had no control over. " I bit my lip as I thought it over, I know I keep blaming myself and its getting hard to love myself but I want to try and not give up just like Nathan didn't give up on me.

"I want to work this out! I do but its hard too, I see them staring at me. It's hard to not imagine what my baby would look like, in my arms, in your arms. Its really sad that I won't be able to see my child even for once." I cried as Nathan hugged my body tighter in his arms. I broke down once again when I promised to not think about it. I couldn't hold my emotions once again and I let my mind drift off to my baby.

"My love, please think about me, I know its hard but I don't want you to get depressed about this. It would be a lot better to move past this, together." I nodded as he kissed my forehead making me smile. He helped me into the house and I was greeted by Bella and Valeria. They helped me dressing up and Lydia cooked delicious food for us. I smiled at the atmosphere around me, I couldn't have asked for more.

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"We will drop by someday else, have fun!" Bella yelled as she carefully walked out of the door with her huge belly. She was delighted with her child and her lover, she still haven't decided to get married and was happy on how things were going. I shouldn't but I have the desire to have a child and I had no idea how I will tell Nathan about it.

"Lydia can you take me to the living room to the pole?" She nodded her and helped me into the wheel chair. She strolled me into the room and towards the horizontal pole. Nathan installed it for me, so that I could practice walking instead of going to the physiotherapist. I held the cold pole and tried to stand up, Lydia offered to help but I held my hand out.

I took a few steps forward and smiled as my shaky legs reached the end of the pole. Just as I was about to walk back, my legs gave out and I braced myself to hit the floor but felt someone grasp my body in theirs. Looking up, I saw a proud Nathan grinning at me.

"Thats a big accomplishment." He placed my back on the wheel chair and kiss my cheek.

"I want to try more," I said with a sad smile, wishing that I could magically go back to being able to walk.

"With time you will be able to run. Now lets go have that dinner. Lydia you can take a leave for the night." He spoke and strolled me towards the main door.

"I will lock the house and leave." She said and went to the kitchen to finish her work. Nathan trusted her completely and left the house to her.

"My love, you look gorgeous! I could ravish you right now." Nathan flirted as he gave me a wink while he positioned me in the car seat. I blushed and turned to face the other way. I want him to but I also want a child with it. Nathan won't agree with it since my condition is weak.

"Should I take that as a yes?" He suggested and I quickly shook my head as he pouted and swiftly pecked my lips. Running towards his side, I tried to stop blush to appear on my face. He smirked as he sat and started the car with my face flushed.

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He took me to a restaurant and we ate all of my favorite dishes, drank some exotic wines and sweet dishes. He booked the full floor for me as he knew I felt anxious being with people but it was still over exaggerating of him to do this. He always says money is not a problem but I still get worried about it.

"Let's dance?" He asked as he held my hand with his right and roamed his left arm around my waist so that I could easily balance myself on him. I grasped his shoulder tightly so I don't fall. It wasn't that hard to hold on but I felt like a burden to him, he lightly swayed to the music as my heart started to beat fast.

"Are you comfortable?"

"Y-yes, are you?" I asked him return.

"Never been better." I could feel his smirk as he spun me around making me giggle. He stopped and stared directly in my eyes, I got nervous and laid my head on his shoulder as he chuckled lightly.

"My love?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you, no matter what happens, no matter the burden, no matter the problems or circumstances. Remember I will always, always love you." He whispered in my ear, soothing me as I hid myself into his shoulder. "I know we didn't start of that good, I wanted to get to know you before rushing into anything and getting you married with me. But believe or not Janet, I am glad how things are. I have you right now in my arms and that's all that matters. I am not happy with what happened to you, I will never be able to forgive myself for not seeing through things before but I am happy to have you with me. I will love you and make you feel the most important person in this world. If that's going to make you forgive me then I will gladly do it." Tears slipped down my eyes and hit his shirt. I couldn't find my voice as he continued.

"But I know I can make things different, I know you want to have a child. And I want it too, so badly but please try to understand when I say I want you to recover first and I will happily turn you into marshmallow." I chuckled as he kissed the nape of my neck and gently placed me back on the chair. "I want to make things right, so starting with. I want to let you know that you are the first ever girl who made me feel somewhat special about being able to live. To have someone waiting for you, someone to look after you, share all your problems without slight hesitation. For me that's you, always you. so-" He bend down on the floor on his knees as I stared at him confused, with tears that kept streaming down my face. He gazed at me lovingly as I titled my head waiting for him to continue.

"Will you marry me?" In an instant movement, he pulled out a beautiful simple yet elegant diamond ring. I kept staring at the ring and then back to him. I can't deny him, but I can't accept it. It's too much for me. I felt my heart clench as a sad smile appeared on Nathan's face. Without realizing it I choked out.

"Y-yes!" He immediately placed the ring on my ring finger and hugged me as if his life depended on it. I cried tears of joy for being able to find such a man, who would throw away everything so he could be with me.

"I love you so much!" He peppered kisses all over my face as he jumped around with me his arms in happiness. I couldn't ask for more. This is all I want, all of him.

The night was bright as the moon shone while we strolled around in the similar park we went many times. As we head back, his kisses got heated up and without realizing it, he started to devour me into bliss. The whole night I felt him the same way he felt me.

At that moment I didn't want the night to end.

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