Janet Rivera's POV

Slightly opening my eyes, I found myself in a very flashy white room. I felt a sting in my left arm, with tight cloth wrapped around my whole body. It pained badly, I felt like being in a enclosed room, I couldn't breathe. I tried to push the heavy blanket off me and tried to take out the stingy pin out of my arm but was stopped by a hand clasping my wrist making pain eject all over my body. There were voices all around the room but I couldn't understand any, as if all were blurred. My vision betrayed me and didn't wish to adjust the environment. I felt another sting and my eyes started to feel heavy once more, my knees gave out making me fall into the deep slumber.

Nathan Rivera's POV

I rubbed my eyes for the tenth time getting annoyed at every single person or thing around me. I decided to get Janet to home, since the last time she wasn't feeling well and tried to get out of there, creating a chaos. She would feel safer and comfy in our house. She was placed on our bed as I watched a nurse take care of her bruises and changed the bandages. I could do that easily but they didn't let me saying I wasn't feeling good and it will be hard for me. The thing is that it's worse for me and I should be the one helping her but they don't understand a thing. I am frustrated right now that I can't do anything.

"Mr. Rivera, her bandages are fixed and the medicine she need to eat is placed on the table with the timing on this list." She handed me the list as she took her bag and started walking out of the room.

"Won't you be looking after her all night?" She turns to face me with a look of confusion.

"Aren't you a doctor yourself, I think you would do a better job than me." She said and finally walked out. Well I am glad, she did. I wouldn't be able to handle her for long. I stepped towards my love as she laid asleep with the Propofol injected in her. I sat on the chair beside her and I took her delicate hand in mine, kissing it softly as if it might break.

"I am sorry, I thought I would be able to protect you but I couldn't do it." I licked my lips as I started talking to her as if she could hear me. "I wish I could just end this before it went too far, I wish I could do something to stop this but the what I truly wish for is that you never walked into the kitchen that day. I can't help myself blaming you. I was scared so, so much. I thought I would never be able to see you. and now the bruises I finally thought vanished have returned as if they belong there. THEY DON'T!" My hands started shaking as my tears fell non stop. I stood up and walked away from her.

She caused us pain and yet she lives! I want to kill her so badly! I held the railing of our balcony as I watched the starry sky remembering our first date, we danced below it. How wonderful that day was as I started falling deeply in love with her. I took a bottle of bourbon and gulped my sorrow as I watched the trees dancing with the wind, they are enjoying our downfall. I don't remember how long I sat in the cold, but long enough to make me catch a cold. As I went back I saw her sitting on the bed with her face blank and eyes staring at the wall. She looked like a person who was dead inside.

Walking towards her, I threw the bottle in the trash can making a loud thud as she faced me. Her eyes screamed fear as her fingers intertwined with each other making her look her a little prey.

"N- Nathan?" I sat right beside her as I knew she was getting scared by my lack of talking. I held up my hand to caress her cheek but stopped when she flinched. Its as if all the steps we took together came crumbling down as we fell right back to where we started.

"Are you afraid of me now?" I asked her as I cleared my throat. Her eyes softened as she shook her head to my question. I once again held my hand up and she let me caress her cheek. Scooting closer, I pulled her closer to me, being careful not to hurt her delicate body. Soon enough her sobs echoed around the room, her tears soaked my shirt, as she clutched it in a fist. She cried while gasping making a few tears slide down my cheeks.

"I lost- I lost it. I- I wouldn't have g-gone in there if I knew. You h- have to believe me, I wanted t- to be with you but-"

"Whatever happened we cannot stop it. Its gone..."

"How is she?" I asked Melanie, one of the doctors in the hospital.

"She is not good, as I said she got a hit in the head which will cause headache or a spinning sensation maybe even nausea, I wrote the medicine she need for that and those fractures needs a total of 2 months. She needs to be at bed rest till she is healed. She might also need a Physiotherapy for walking, I noticed that she tried to fight off and kept up with trying to walk and it made it worse. I will be giving her a drip ever day, she is too weak and," She stopped as I tried to take it all in. My eyes met hers with a look of pity as she tried to open her mouth to speak but couldn't.

"Whats wrong?" I asked her, hesitantly.

"Nathan, I am sorry for your loss. Your wife was 3 weeks pregnant. She had a lot of blood loss as the baby in her womb died 24 hours ago. The baby was gone before we could even save," I couldn't hear her anymore. I had no energy in me as I fell onto the ground and let the tears flow. The child she wanted so bad was gone, my child in my love's womb is gone. Our child is gone.

"You know?" She asked surprised.

"The doctor told me the baby couldn't survive because of the blood loss and you got hit as well., there was no chance. You couldn't do anything. But how did you know?" I asked her as she faced her teary eyes at me.

"A woman came and checked me there, she told me." I narrowed my eyes at her as I thought about it. I got a lead as I can easily find her and kill her without hesitation.

"Nathan? I am sorry. I had no idea of the child in me, if I did I would have never went with my aunt." I stood up from the bed as she sighed when I walked out of the room and out of the house. I needed air and right now being in the same room as her only me made feel suffocated.

"I am going out, guard the house." I told the guard and walked away.

Janet Rivera's POV

I cried at my foolishness, I lost my child and I am the only one to blame. Nathan hates me because of this. If only I was smart enough to leave at that moment then this wouldn't have happened. I tried to get up but couldn't. The stingy thing was attached to my wrist, I wanted to take it out but I know it will only harm me so I let it. I tried to get up from the bed but end up falling into the ground. It only made me cry harder. I wanted Nathan more than anything right now but I also know I don't deserve him after what I did.

I killed our child.

Nathan Rivera's POV

"Get every female doctor's profile working in this city now! I don't care if you are busy!" I yelled into the phone and cut the call as I stuffed the phone into my pocket. I was furious as hell! I won't feel good unless I get my hands on that woman, unless I see her getting tortured by my hands. I want her to lose the blood, my love had. I want her to die a slow and painful death. Till I am satisfied with what she did to our child.

It was snowing outside as my hands were freezing. Making my way towards the house I realized a important detail. Today was Christmas eve and I was out here, away from the one I love. I left her to suffer on her own, how stupid can I be. I saw a bakery store right at the corner, across the road.

As I walked into the bakery the smell of salt and crispy wood hit me, the bell chimed as a few people stared at me. I looked like hell but I didn't care much. An old lady smiled at me as I ordered a fruit cake since Janet couldn't eat sweets and a cup of coffee for myself. As I quietly stepped into the house I heated some milk for Janet and took the stuff into the room. The first thing I noticed was that she wasn't in her bed, I looked around to find her laying on the ground. I quickly placed the stuff over the table and ran towards her. Picking her up, I laid her on the bed. Checking her pulse, I felt her body which was cold as ice. I turned the heater on the blanket in high and draped it over her. Her body temperature started to go back to normal as I sat beside her on the bed and watched her sleep. It was already 3:15 as it was about to get morning soon. I leaned back on the chair with a pillow behind my head and closed my eyes. Janet was all over my mind as soon enough sleep took over me.

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"Nathan! NATHAN!! P- pleasee help me, s- she will kill me!" She cried pulling my leg, her dress torn, eyes puffy from crying and lips bleeding with bruises all over her. That woman had her in chains as she tried to drag Janet toward her. In a blink of an eye, I watched that bitch stab her multiple times as life escaped Janet's eyes while I stood there unable to move or say anything.

I gasped as I jerked awake looking around me to find myself on the chair in our bedroom. I faced the clock to find its 7:36, Janet was still sleeping as I stood up and took a quick shower. I had to give her medicine to her, but I also need to get some food for her. I took the milk I bought and dumped it in the sink. I got myself some breakfast and some fruits and yogurt for her.

She was awake when I walked in, I kept the food on the table as she eyed me for a while but when my eyes met hers, she looked away.

"Merry Christmas!" I muttered as she turned to face me.

"Its Christmas?" She asked, surprised as her eyes widened.

"Yes my dear it is. Time went by quick and we didn't realize. I brought some cake. Do you want some?" She lowered her gaze and shyly nodded her head, smiling to myself, I patted her head and stood up to grab the cake from the table. I cut it up and heated some more milk for her.

We both may have fallen back to step one and it must feel like we are losing but all I know is that I rather start again than lose her. I will be with her to start once again, feel those emotions again and go through everything together, step by step and that's because,

I love her.

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Hope you guys like it!! COMMENT GIRLS and Important message, its bad news.

I will be deleting this story on New Year and I will complete it by this Month. So if you want to re-read it then you got to do it before New Year. I cannot tell you all the reason because many of you won't understand but just know I want to be a better person.

Plus this won't be the end of my writing!! I AM STILL WRITING! Just not much Romance or mature content. My other stories are also deleted! I want to thank you all for liking my story so much! WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU ALL.

My new story is

"The Magic in You"

Its about a Princess born with Magic and how she had the responsibility of her country but will she be able to do it when she is cursed.

The details will be published next month if you all are interested.