Warning: Self Harm, Attempted suicide

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        Sarah looked down at the floor. Mr Gold had dropped her off at the health center for those who seek professional help. During the whole ride they didn't spoke. She tried to, but he stopped her. He still was angry with her. At the therapist, she felt unwanted here. She felt she wasn't supposed to be here.

Finally a female therapist came to her, "Sarah Gold?"

Sarah stood up and the therapist led her in a long hallway. They finally came to a door and escorted her to a seat and shut the door.

"Alright, my name is Miss Patterson, you can call me Pam. Can you tell me a bit about yourself? Before we start the secession."

She sighed rubbing her knees, "I...I like to...I like to read. I also like dogs. I have a puppy at him and his name is Courage."

"Awe. What kind of a dog?"

"A lemon beagle."

"That's adorable."

"I also love hanging out with my father. Stepfather. I never had a good father growing up. Well that's kinda a lie, it's just in the beginning he was ok, we weren't close, but after awhile...he slowly changed. My stepdad and I...we are very close. That's one of the reasons why I didn't want to move out. I didn't want to leave him."

After awhile, the therapist finally asked her the question, "I read your paper that your father made of why you are here, it's a pretty scary and shocking past. You ok if I ask you to tell me how it all happened?"

"...on my birthday, I turned 14, but my father didn't care anymore about me, so...he...he brought these homeless children we didn't even know because they said it was their birthday too. Some I mean. Others were their friends. My mom and my father fought over this, and as for me, I just had enough with him that I packed my bag and left home. But I made a mistake. I got kidnapped. By...by The Joker and his henchmen. I found out he had his eyes on me four 10 years."

Patterson was writing the information down and she felt really bad for her. She was now getting scared and they just started.

Sarah then got the most heart wrenching part. The part The Joker hurt her, beat her, everything.

"My papa says I have to stop being afraid of this. How can I? It still haunts me. How can I forget?"

"Sadly you can't forget. It will still haunt you for the rest of your life."

"But how can I face it? I can't keep having it control my life anymore. Is there...medication people take for it to go away?"

"Not go away, or to forget, but makes you focus on your personal surroundings and not focused on the past so much. I can get you something to take. And it's probably for the best. I can tell you been through so much, Sarah."

She then did some paperwork on the computer to set up her medication and where she can pick it up at. They set up another time to meet, and Sarah left.

Sarah got a notification from her phone saying her medication was ready. She left the house to pick it up. While walking home she looked at the bottle. She was shaken up that she had to take pills now.

Every secession she went to didn't improve. She would be ask the same old things over and over. Her and father still didn't speak. He was still hurting. It broke her heart that Gold wouldn't dare talk to her or even look at her. Even when she tried to talk or apologize he would immediately leave.

Sarah laid in bed that night when Christina send a text to her.

"Sarah, sorry to wake you up, but...aren't you and Joker a couple?"

"We were ...but we are separated for the trial plus his ex is obsessed with him, why?"

"Well...I know Megan told me to not tell anyone, but...Megan told me and Brittany that she and Joker are talking to each other. She send photos of the letters and ...I think he likes her...like he did with you."

Sarah teared up, but it couldn't be true.

"It's romantic letters. Megan even said she has fallen for him. But she said 'don't tell Sarah. She'll just freak out, like a cry baby she is.' I don't know what's wrong with her, she would never talk bad about you. If she's talking bad like that about you...she maybe with all of us behind our backs. Has she ever texted you? About us?"

"No. She has never texted me. Only in group chat. I have tried talking to her, but she never responds to them."

"Seriously? She talks to us one on one all the time, but not you?"

"What is happening, Christina? I thought she was my friend! And her talking to Joker? She could be in danger. That's why we can't be together until The Joker is found guilty along with Harley and Gaston. Once they are punished, I told him I would talk to him again and explain why. I thought he got the memo when I looked at Harley telling him she is the reason why I can't be anywhere near him. I even called him to tell him, did he not believe me? She threatened my father when he was in the hospital. She threatened him if I didn't stay away from Joker...she would either kill me or send me to The Joker."

Christina was in shock hearing about this. How could a evil woman do such a terrible thing? And say those things to a father?

"Well...Sarah, Megan won't be in danger."

"What do you mean!?"

"She can't feel pain."

"Emotionally?"

"No...physically. The pain she went through when The Joker had her since she was 10, strengthen her. It made her immune to pain. She can't feel anything. Brittany and I thought she had a rare disease, but no, we went to the doctor with her and the doctor said she was healthy. She really does have super powers. So if Harley sees her or finds out Joker and Megan are talking, she wouldn't be able to hurt her."

"So...you actually let her talk to him?"

"Maybe for your safety?"

"You know how badly this hurts me, Christina!" Sarah texted, she started to cry, "I have to keep lying to my father I don't think about him. I have to lie to my own father and he hates it when I lie. I can't stop thinking about him. I know he will be a completely different person once The Joker is gone for good. And no more Harley. No more Gaston. This is actually killing me inside. Literally. My heart slows down when I can't be with him. I'm not lying. Since that day, when Lucilla died, I was dying seeing him as my father pulled me away. And the next day when I couldn't talk to him...it hurt. Everyday and every night I can't stop thinking about him."

Christina now felt bad for her. She really obviously cared for Joker...loved him.

"Do you want me to confront her?"

"If she cares about me and really is my friend she would understand how I feel..."

"I will talk to her then. She cares for you, I know she does."

The next day Sarah had went in again to talk to her therapist, but it was just the same thing over again. No more improvement. "I know you're going through a hard time, Sarah, but I can't help you if you don't tell me what's going on."

"I do tell you. You just keep asking me the same questions everytime I come here. 'How's your day?' 'How's your father?' 'Do you still have nightmares?' All I have...is nightmares and pain," she choked up, "there's a man that I love, the one who saved me...and I am hurt because...I can't be with him..."

"...well...we just will have to pick this up next week."

Sarah shook her head. She obviously wasn't listening to her. Why did she even bother coming here?

"Is the medication helping you?"

"It's not..."

"Sarah, all my clients that I had take the same kind of pills, they say it helps them, surely they have to be doing something for you."

"...can I just go?" Sarah was hurt now. She didn't want to come back. If was going to be like this, she decided to quit the sessions.

Her therapist sighed and nodded.

Sarah walked home down the street. She finally got to the house and went up to her bedroom. Her father was not home yet. It was still early in the day.

Suddenly she got a text...from Megan.

"Do a f*cking favor alright! Stay out of my life!You obviously don't care for our hero anymore. He told me you dumped him because you told him you didn't love him anymore and wished he came sooner to save us. You even blamed him for Lucilla's death. To be honest with you, I didn't like you, Sarah. You always cried all the time even in captivity. You whine, you bitch, and moan and keep saying you wanted to die. Well do everyone including your old man a favor, go kill yourself!"

Sarah was torn by this. She dropped the phone and broke down. She was so hurt by everything and everyone around her. No one obviously cared for her. Loved her. She then stood on her feet and screamed as she grabbed everything on her shelf and broke everything. She threw everything on the floor. She walked over the closet grabbing the clown mask of Arthur's and break it with her knee. She then grabbed the doll and threw him down the hallway. She then turned to her journal and ripped out the letters that Arthur gave her and tore them into shreds. She then stopped and dropped to her knees sobbing.

She pulled her legs up as she sobbed shaking. Courage heard her outside her room, but the door was shut. He whimpered and barked as he scratched the door wanting to comfort her.

Sarah opened on of her drawers of her nightstand and pulled out a pocket knife. Mr Gold gave it to her for self defense. But no she wasn't it using that for it. She pulled her shirt sleeve exposing her arm. She had knife marks. Cuts all over her arm on both arms. She promised herself and her father she wouldn't do it anymore, but it was too much. So she carefully set the blade on her skin. It felt super sharp as always. She then ran it across her arm quickly. Blood oozing out of her new wound and dropped onto the floor. She then switched over to the other arm and repeated the same action. But doing this...was not enough. Megan's voice yelling in her head rang. Her father mad at her for sleeping with Arthur, for lying to him. Her biological father yelling her for being a horrible daughter. The Joker even...doing the unspeakable things to her and even beating her.

Sarah stood up on her feet and dropped the knife.

Do us all a favor, go kill yourself!

Kill yourself...

No one loves you.

Sarah then walked towards her bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror.

Look at yourself! You're cry baby. You always cry. No one really cares how you feel. You're pathetic.

"Stop...stop it!!!" Sarah screamed and smashed her fist in the mirror.

Do everyone a favor, little bunny. I wouldn't hurt anymore if you just do it...

Her spine tingled hearing The Joker's voice in her head.

Your old man doesn't even love you anymore. He doesn't want you happy obviously. That other clown never loved you. You belong to me.

"S-stop. Stop it. You're not in my head. Get out of my head...," Sarah broke down shaking.

You don't want me to hurt you anymore, do you?

She was shaking and looked at her medication.

Do it.

Sarah then grabbed the bottle and opened it. She poured the pills out of a handful. More than she was prescribed to take.

Do it.

She looked the shattered mirror and then pour the pills in her mouth. She washed then down with water. She held her hands on the sink and looked herself back in the shattered mirror.

More...

She then poured more in and washed them down again. She was still hurt. "Just leave me-," suddenly she fell to the floor. She was shaking in pain. The pain was in her chest and stomach. She whined and whimpered. She noticed her skin was drawing pale. Her vision going bad. Her heart beating rapidly than normal it felt.

Suddenly the door opened, "SARAH!" It was Mr Gold. He noticed the pills scattered on the floor. He helped her up and helped her to the toilet and dug his finger down her throat until she gaged. She then vomit in the toilet. But once she finished, she fell motionless onto the marble floor.

"No no no, sweetheart!" Gold held her face and panicked.

She wasn't responding.

"Sarah!"

Nothing.

"Don't do this!!! Sarah, don't do this do me!!!"

Mr Gold pulled out his flip phone and dialed 9-1-1.

"9-1-1, what's the emergency?"

"Please, my daughter...she took too much of her medication and she passed out on the bathroom floor. I need an ambulance!!!" Mr Gold screamed.