I knew father would be disappointed but that's not the problem at hand. My current problem is the feeling of Theo and Matty's eyes on me. Drilling into me and it hurt because it felt like disappointment at its best. The worst feeling in the world is what I felt now in this moment of time. I hated the feeling I got when they looked at me but I couldn't nor would dare meet their eyes. Fearful of what the outcome would be, what their feelings are and what their eyes and face hold.

When the meeting was over I was the first one out of the room and back to my dorm through the secret entrance. The minute I entered my dorm I shut the door and locked it once then twice with a special spell I learned. I pulled out my computer and began doing what I did best, the things I learned from my father. I was taught to avoid conversations like the one I was bound to have with my mates. And to put myself into as much work as I possibly could to distract myself from the real issue.

I did some research and studying in between as well as homework and projects. But what I focused most on was my personal AI system that I was working on. I named it Owen, but it wasn't fully up and working just yet but it would be soon. I put all my focus into the project at hand and got so focused that I didn't even hear my door burst open. I was so engrossed in my own little world that I even ignored the people who came into the room.

"Ophelia, damn it answer us" Matteo was pissed

I looked over my shoulder and saw two pissed ofg mates of mine and u gulped down my nerves.

"Yes...?" I said

"What on earth do you think you're doing?" Theo asked

"I'm not sure what your talking about" I said

But honestly it wasn't a lie, he could have been talking about what happened back at the manor. Or he could be talking about me ignoring them and putting myself into my work.

"For one ignoring us" Theo said

"And two back at the manor" Matteo said

"I did what anyone would have, you of all people know that" I said

"He's my father of course I know what he's capable of, but you, your not supposed to be involved" he said

I was hurt by that statement, was I not good enough for him or Theo. Was I not strong enough to be one of them, was I not enough for them as a mate. All these things rushed through my head and nothing would stop them all except for their words.

"What is that supposed to mean huh?" I snapped

"Ophelia" Matteo said gently

"No, what does it mean Matteo? What exactly did you mean by that, because what I gathered by it means you not wanting me involved means everything, from being friends, being a death eater, being both of your mate, everything so what do you mean huh? Cause if what I think is correct then get the fuck out" I snapped

"Cara Mia we" Theo began

"Answer me damn it" I shouted tears in my eyes but I didn't dare let them fall not now

"It means you aren't supposed to be damn death eater, you...you deserve better Ophelia" Matteo snapped

"Yeah, well then I know where you stand? What about you Theo huh? Am I enough or do you feel how Matteo feels?" I asked

"Bella I don't think he" Theo said

"No get out both of you, and while your gone don't worry about me at all, I'm perfectly fine I was without you before I can easily do it again" I said and turned back to my computer

"Leave damn it, just leave" I shouted

With that the door shut and I couldn't take it anymore, I felt the room shake so I teleported myself somewhere else.

"Lia?" A familiar voice said as I dropped to my knees