Cassie | Hotel

Ever since Marcella left, I've been a mess. Im not even gonna lie. Ive been crying almost constantly and snapping on people. I haven't heard from Marcella and I'm pretty sure Im not going to. She has every right to be mad at me.

There was a knock on my room door.

Me: Go away.

I took a swing from the alcohol bottle and drukenly looked at the bottom of the bottle.

Danielle: Cassie open this door.

Me: No. Im out of alcohol. Go get me some more.

I threw the bottle down and tried to get up but couldnt.

Me: Danielle my legs stopped working!

Danielle: Oh my God , shes drunk.

Me: I am not drunk mr.

Next thing I knew my door opened and Danielle entered.

Me: You have magic!

She rolled her eys and grabbed my by my shirt.

Me: No. Stop that.

Danielle: You wanna get Marcella back? Stop being a sulky little bitch and get your fucking act together! Your in here drinking when you have a interview in two damn hours to be exact. You keep on and your going to destroy your damn career. Is that what you want!?

My lip began quivering and I bursted out in tears.

Me: You yelled at me!

Her eyes widened and she grabbed the alcohol bottle and threw it at the wall.

Danielle: Damn it Cassie!

I began crying harder and she yanked me up by my arm.

Me: Your gonna beat me!

She dragged me into the bathtoom and left me on the floor.

Me: Your gonna drown me!

I began crawling away but she grabbed me by my legs and began to take my clothes off.

Me: Rape!

She covered my mouth and picked me up with me in nothing but my bra and panties and dropped/threw me in the tub. I gasped once I felt the coldness. I was jolted awake real fast.

Me: Ooh!

Danielle: Your gonna sober your drunk ass up real fast before this gotndamn interview. If your gonna try and get Marcella back, your not off to a very good start. Now sit in this damn tub and do not move.

I did as she said and sat in the freezing cold water. I was really sleepy but I couldnt go to sleep seeing as I was too cold.

I sighed and just decided to sit back againstthe cold tub.

Me: What am I doing with my life?

Fucking it iup is what Im doing. I love Marcella and I fucked up. I should've never slept around on her. I need to make it right.

Me: But how?

Danielle: How what?

I looked at Danielle who stood in the doorway.

Me: How can I make it right to Marcella. I hurt her.

Danielle: Just because you messed up doesnt mean you can't make it right. It'll take some time and alot of work but its possible. Marcella loves you, you still have a shot. Dont blow it.

She handed placed a towel on the counter.

Danielle: Take a shower then cone eat. We're leaving after the interview.

Me: Where are we going?

Danielle: California.

Me: What about Marcella?

Danielle: Multitask. You still have a career. Your being casted for a movie.

Me: Really? What movie?

Danielle: You'll see. Dont be too long. You dont want your food to be cold.

I nodded and she closed the bathtoom door. I laid my head back and let out a silent sob. I'm such a fuckup.

After my mini crying attack, I took a shower. I threw on a long shirt and went out to the kitchen. I sat at the table and began to eat my Cookout. I grabbed my phone and scrolled through my instagram feed. I stopped at a picture of Marcella. I swear my heart broke reading the caption.

Bcurlzzz : Even though my heart is aching , I can still force a smile 💓

I debated if I should like the picture or not but it seemed like my thumb had a mind of its own because I liked it. I sighed and locked my phone.

|Interview Studio|

I walked inside of studio with Danielle.

Danielle: If they asked about Marcella you dont have to say anything.

Me: No. I wanna answer them. I caused all of this. They have the right to ask me questions.

Danielle: Are you sure?

Me: Yeah. Im positive.

A stageman came up to us.

Stageman: Cassie. The show is about to start so yiu can just wait backstage by the couch and snack table.

Me: Okay.

I sat on the couch and tweeted.

Cassie : If anybody wants to know why I did what I did , watch The Marja Show in 10 minutes.

I locked my phone and handed it to Danielle.

Me: Should I reach out to her first?

Danielle: Yes but not instantly. She needs time and space.

Me: Giving her time and space could equal her being in a whole new relationship.

Danielle: I dont think she would get into a relationship right away. Her trust is broken. You need to give her time and space. She has to heal Cas.

I nodded.

Me: Yeah. Your right. Just time and soace then reach out. Maybe about 2 weeks?

Danielle: Yeah something like that

Me: Okay.

I sighed and closed my eyes. I have the worst headache ever.

??: Cassie, your on.

I sighed and stood up. I walked out and smiled at the crowd. I smiled at Marja and gave her a hug.

Marja: Ah. Hey Cassie.

Me: Hi Marja.

I sat down in a tall chair as she took her chair.

Marja: How are you today?

Me: Um. I dont really have a answer to that.

I laughed softly making Marja smile.

Marja: Im sorry.

Me: Its okay.

Marja: I hear your being casted in a movie. Did they tell you what movie?

I sighed.

Me: Nope. All I know is it's going to be in California.

Marja: Well maybe I could tell you?

Me: Actually I would like that.

She laughed.

Marja: I know and I would tell you but I kind of promised your manager.

I looked offstage at Danielle and mouthed "You asshole" which made her smile at me and blow a kiss.

Me: Yeah my manager is a big pain in the ass, but I love her.

Marja: Awe sweet. Well are you excited about the movie though?

Me: Actually I am. Most of the movies I've been in were really good and fun to shoot.

Marja: Okay well that's good.

I nodded.

Marja: Okay well what's this on social media about you at the VMA's?

I sighed and looked down at my lap.

Me: The VMA's was the worst night of my life but it should've been the best. I mean I had my girlfriend there, I got a award. I had a great time until somebody I slept with awhile ago decided to ruin everything.

Marja: Lindsay right?

Me: Yeah her.

Marja: So why did she do it?

Me: I dont know. I guess because I never would've dated her.

Marja: What about your girlfriend?

Me: Ex. She um, she broke up with me.

Marja: Im sorry to hear that.

Me: Its okay. I new it was gonna happen someday.

Marja: So what did you sleep around on your girlfriend?

Me: She was in a different city. A different state and I had needs. I knew it was wrong but I couldn't help myself.

Marja: Have you spoken to her?

Me: No. I've just been giving her some space. I know she's not gonna answer me any time soon.

Marja: Do you think she'd just get into another relationship?

Me: I hope not but I honestly dont know.

She nodded and changed the subject which I was grateful for because I think I would've began crying.

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Chapter 19

Just a filler in that's unedited.