Everything about her managed to make me smile.
Her laugh, her inability to be hurtful to anyone.
She cares about everyone, and I cared about her, and she didn't know that.

In till I decided to open my mouth.

She was my world, and when my mouth got in the way, it came crumbling down.  Everything that has been so meticulously built fell to pieces.
It started with a text, a few simple words, but it triggered everything.
I like someone.
Who did I like? I liked her, but I couldn't say that.
But those words caused a domino effect, knocking everything we built to pieces.
She pressed, she pursued the truth that I didn't want to say. Those words were sewn into my heart and my heart was glued to this beautiful creation that was her.
I held out, I wanted to get off the topic, but that would've made her angry.
I tried, I tried to hard, but eventually everything that wasn't ment to be said gets said.
I told her
I finally did it.
One of the biggest mistakes of my life.
I was like the pet at the pet store that never received love. The one that stayed on the shelf yearning for the love they couldn't receive. She was the love I wanted.
But she couldn't return those feelings, no matter how much I wished she could.
No more then a millisecond later, she replied.
I'm so sorry
Why was she sorry?
She was sorry because she was about to shatter my heart into pieces, as she knew it.
She picked up my heart, shot it with a gun full of lead, rolled a boulder over it, and stomped it into the ground.
She kept repeating the same words over and over.
I'm so sorry
I feel to my knees, I held in tears, picked up my broken heart, and looked into her eyes for a reason.
A reason why this had to happen?
Why she didn't feel the same?
But I knew why...
She was straight.
My 4.003% chance crumbled to dust, and blew away with the wind.
The next day was the hardest.
I had to see her face, I had to see her move on.
The pity on everyone's face was enough to cripple a man, let alone a women.
Some of them felt like I should get over it, she wasn't that important.
But they didn't know...
She was important to me...
With every fiber of my being, I had to force myself to move on.
She was the princess that was locked up in a tower, that I desperately wanted to save from all of her solitude.
I just wanted to be her prince.
But when I reached the top, she slammed the door of love in my face.
Why did I have to fall for her?
I wish I could be saved myself from the pain.

...too late now.