So, I know this is a scary topic. But I also know it's a realistic scary topic. I know some people get pushed so far past their limits that suicide seems to be their only option. I don't wanna be one of those totally non-understanding people who tell you to suck it up, cause that's how we all got into this depressing mess, right? So instead, I'm going to tell you some stories.

So I have a friend who told me a story about her friend. I don't know their name, but they did live in my neighborhood. Anyway, a couple months ago, he committed suicide in his house. I don't think any of his family was home, I don't know much, but I do know this;
My friend explained this better than I ever could, but here goes...

So, to explain this quickly, his family was angry. Not at God, not at whatever or whoever pushed him to his limit, not even themselves, but of their son/brother. They where angry he took his life, thinking everything would go on as usual. That his actions would not effect the way his mother acts at work, or around her other sons and husband that reminds her so much of her lost son. Or how his father breaks down and cries himself to sleep every night, screaming for his long lost son that he couldn't protect. Or how his siblings would live their lives, forever knowing their older/younger brother had committed suicide.
They where angry he didn't think it would effect anything. They where angry of his selfishness, how he didn't even try to reach out for help. Made a stupid mistake. And just like that, their world was turned upside down.

I may not have explained that the way I wanted to, but my main point is this; suicide affects anyone and everyone you make contact with in your life. It makes people blame themselves, hurt themselves, hate themselves, because they believe they hurt you. Because they believe the only reason you left was because of them and now they can't help. Maybe they did notice, but didn't say anything or was too busy with so,etching else, and you slipped away. Suicide affects more than yourself. So, so much more. I didn't even know this kid, and I am sad just to hear his story. I'm sorry if I was confusing. I hope you all understand.

I will post another suicide story next chapter. Love you all hope you have a great day 👍