So me and her got into a fight because she smokes and isn't taking into consideration that I don't want her to anymore because I'm worried about her health condition...  She is taking it too far and has been ignoring me since then,  I asked her what we are a few hits after and she still had yet to rely or even read it...  So I assume that we are done..  She going home schooled anyways so I won't be able to see her even if we are still dating.. 
Then my friend likes me and I'm pretty sure I like her too but I don't know if that's true...  Ugh...  I hate myself...  What's depressing is that I really lover her..  What I think is my ex..  She was one of my best friends in the beginning...  And now we are nothing..  So yeah...  I don't know what to do...  I'm not sure what to say..  She was the only thing keeling me sane..  And now I feel so lonely and cold...  And I realize that she could probably of cheated on me but I still love her..  And I always will...  I'm just not sure what to do...  Honestly.. 
I honestly need to stop thinking about her and think about something else.. 
I need help...  I love her soo much..  And this could of never happened if I just didn't tell her stop smoking...  Damn..  I hate life so much...