The Chapter 6





Naglakad lang ako pataas ng High school building. And still, people share issues and stories that were purely made up by idiots. And still, I don't give sht about it. why would I, anyway?



Andito na ako sa fourth floor, sa Seniors' floor.



And my heart began to race abnormally.



It gives me the same heartbeat everyday.






“Hoooy! Dito dito!”



Nagulat ako nung biglang lumabas si Lyra sa room ng IV-A. Natigilan siya at bigla kaming nagkatitigan. It was very awkward, actually. I haven't speak to her since.




“Hi T! Long time, no speak~” She smiled casually. I returned the smile, though it's odd.



Naglakad na ulit ako para lagpasan siya pero I did hear something.







“She missed you.”





That made my heart go wild.



The blissful feeling runs through my veins. This warm and soothing effect. I smiled instantly. I don't know. Nag-volunteer ang labi ko.





I didn't response and continue walking. But to my surprise I met Rica on my way. We stared for a whole minute then she shows her smile.



That made me question myself if I should do the same thing.




Naramdaman kong aalis na siya. . .





“Ri--”




Tumakbo na siya palayo. I did hear soft sobs.




We're still in pain, I guess?




“Bitter pa din e.” Nagulat ako ng makita si Lyra sa tabi ko habang iniiling niya ang ulo niya. “Isa ka ding heart breaker alam mo 'yun?”



“Heartbreaker?” I finally let out my voice.



“Yeah.”




Ha?



Ano daw?




Umalis na si Lyra matapos niyang tapikin ang balikat ko. I blankly think for a while before deciding to lead my way again. It's a weird morning.







Natapos ang first subject at nakakaroon na naman ako ng pakiramdam na gusto ko na namang mag-cut ng klase. Tss. Tumayo ako sa kinauupuan ko at nakita ko lang umiling si Khris. Alam na kasi niya kung bakit.




Naglakad ako pababa papunta sa vendo machine. I bought my coffee and sit on the very bench where I actually hang out everyday. It calms my heart and mind.



I smelled my coffee.




Heaven.





Natauhan ako nung makakita ako ng teacher papalapit kaya naman tumayo na ako at umakyat pabalik ng building. Pero mas pinili kong lagpasan ang floor namin at umakyat pa para makarating sa rooftop. Still drinking my coffee.



Sumandal ako sa pader at tinitigan ang langit.



It was blue as it is.



The clouds move freely with the air.



I wish I could move like them.



For I'm behind bars of nothingness, right now.



It kills me.





I closed my eyes while after finishing my coffee. Humming of I don't know song until I can't feel my surroundings right now. For this moment I feel lightness and peace.



I opened my eyes. Pero nagulat ako ng madilim parin ang nakikita ko. Kinusot kusot ko ang mga mata ko hanggang sa makakita ako ng liwanag.



I saw someone beside the railings.



The wind blew her hair away from her face pero napapikit ako kaya di ko nagawang makita ang mata niya.



I tried to stand up pero pakiramdam ko may mabigat na nakatuon sakin kaya di ko nagawa.



Pinilit ko. . .




Pero naramdaman kong may humawak sa mukha ko.




I froze.




I didn't move. My head still facing my lap, being unable to see her face. Narealize ko nalang na nasa tinatakluban na niya ang mata ko.






“W--”



“Shh..”




Dug.Dug.Dugdug.



“N-Ngayon lang.” She said. “I just want to stare at you. Please.”



She begged like it matters life and death.



Wala akong nagawa.



*NW: I Miss You by Avril



“Nana. . . na na na nana. . ” She started singing. I felt goosebumps. “I miss you. . . miss you so bad.. I don't forget you, oh it's so sad. . . I hope you can hear me, I remember it clearly.”



The hair on my nape stood up.




And I felt entering, second heaven.



Like there's cloud tenth existing.



“The day you slipped away. . .was the day I found it won't be the same.”



I twitched when I felt eargasm while hearing her voice again.



That angelic voice.



Hindi pa rin nagbabago.




That voice I've been longing for so long.




I moved my hands to reached her hand from my eyes. I can feel her stiffness but I didn't move my hands away. I just . . . I just want to feel her.




“The day you slipped away. . . was the day I found it won't be the same.” She intertwined her free hand to mine. “I . . . miss you.”




She sighed after her song. Para bang may ibig sabihin ang bawal pagbuntong hininga niya at salita. Nararamdam  ako ng sakit at lungkot. Naramdaman ko ang pag-init ng mukha ko.




“I miss you, Travis.”



Ramdam ko ang paglayo ng kamay niya sa mga mata ko. Pero natakot ako. Ayokong imulat ang mga mata ko. A--ayoko.



And there was ecstacy again.







We kissed again like it was the first time.




It took not so long.



She let go.



Bigla siyang lumayo at binitawan ang kamay ko.









“Te-teka. . .” I opened my eyes and see darkness.





Narealize ko na nakahiga na ako ngayon.



How did I get into this?



Tumayo ako at biglang may nahulog na panyo mula sa mukha ko.




A handkerchief with embroidered initials on it. . .




“NLily.”




So it was a dream after all?




But was the kiss a dream too?





Yung puso ko. Para akong nasu-suffocate.






I should clear this now.





I miss her badly.