It felt unreal. Everything felt unreal.

Days passed but you still couldn't believe what he had said to you. You didn't want to remember it but the memories were already absorbed into your mind and hurted you so bad.

While at first you still didn't know your feelings for him, after all these things you just realized that you were already falling for him, hard. And you got hit hard too.

JungKook hurted you so much and made you feel broken, but it was weird that you couldn't hate him. Every time you saw him with BTS on TV performances or interviews, and looked at his bright smiling face, you felt so hurtful. Little did you know that behind those bright smiles, he also hid a pain in his heart.

Few weeks went by and you felt like you were living an empty life, without any purpose or desire. But you knew that you couldn't live like this forever, you had to move on. So to make up your mind, you decided to take a little walk today. You spent some time wandering around the street, when suddenly you saw a bunch of people gathering in front of what looked like a newly opened shop.

You walked there to see what that was, and it turned out to be a new BTS pop up store. You step into the shop unknowingly, it was like your heart just told you to come in. You were looking around at some BTS merchandise there, when there were two girls coming beside you to look at some stuff too. They were chattering quite loud, so you just overheard their talk.

"Ya, look at this JK tiny tan ! It's so cute !"

"Yeah, I know, but I prefer this JK photocard. Damn why is he so handsome.. Can I have him as my boyfriend pleasee !!" 

"In your dream, girl." , "Hey, what do you think about the JK and IU dating rumor ?"

"Ah that's just a set up to promote their new single, you know."

"I thought so, there's no way they both really dating, the fans will go crazy and it can ruin their career !"

"Yeah, you're right. But hey do you know, I heard some rumors from the fansite that JK actually had a secret girlfriend."

"Really ? How do you know that ?"

"Some sasaeng posted the news on the fansite but then deleted it. She said JK secretly had a girlfriend that was just an ordinary person. I kinda forgot about her job, like a florist or a decorator, something like that. The fans on the site almost went crazy, you know, they asked for some evidence, but since the photos weren't so clear and there wasn't much other evidence, the fans thought it was just a hoax."

"Oh that's crazy, you think that's true ?"

"I dunno, sometimes sasaeng just gives us false news, right ? But of course I hope that's not true ! OMG I can't imagine JK oppa with a girl other than me ! I'll be so heartbroken !"

"Haha you wished ! But don't you remember Suga's oppa dating scandal a few years back ? No one suspected that the savage cold Suga would have a secret girlfriend, and with his own manager ! OMG I felt like I wanted to grab and pull her hair that time !"

"Ah yes of course, how can we forget that ? That was a very hard time for us ARMY...."

You stood there, stunned with everything you just heard.

Was that true ? Some sasaengs knew about you and JungKook ?

You rushed outside the shop and found some quiet place. You took your phone and typed in JungKook's fansite address on your browser search bar. You searched through their posts, and finally found an old post that might be the one that girls were talking about.

The pictures had already been deleted, but the news was still there, and yes what they said was true, it was about you and JungKook. You read through it until you read the comments section. Some comments said that it was just a hoax, but your eyes widened as you read many other hatred comments.

-no way, she's just fugly. how can she be with JK ?

-i wish you die, you ugly bitch !

-this is nonsense. JK is a superstar, he won't end up with that cheap slut !

-can u tell me where she lives ? i'll make sure she won't touch my JK oppa anymore !

-i think i know that flower shop... maybe i can go there and spying

-i wanna vomit. she's so ugleyyy… bet she's just good at bed ?

You couldn't go through all the comments as you weren't ready to read any cruel comments anymore. Wow, you knew that idols had some obsessed fans that could be toxic sometimes, but to have all these hatred towards you alone, that hit differently. You couldn't imagine what if the media caught you and JungKook, you wouldn't be able to handle the stress and hatred from his fans.

Maybe JungKook knew about this, so he ended his friendship with you ? To protect him and BTS ?

Or even, to protect you ?

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