>>> The Little Things<<<

It's the little things that can make the most beautiful moments. Well I think.

Today Mathew took me out for lunch, it was just us too for the first time, in a long time. I was excited honestly because I feel that we had been robbed of our private time. Anyway, at the little diner( The Deimos eats) , It was during a time where you had suddenly kicked and because it always got Mathew excited, he had leaned his face close to my tummy and started talking to you. He said he would speak to you until you responded.

And when you kicked again, his eyes lit up in awe, he went speechless for a good 5 minutes. I call him dramatic at times but he just waves me off, not taking me seriously.

There was just something about watching him that made the rest of my afternoon, a good one. Watching him be that excited and talk about you as if he could almost see you, it made me fall in love with him more and really appreciate him being present with us. My trust levels for him taking care of you and giving you love, grew.

I don't see us turn out like my parents, who grew apart years later but I see a difference.

There is a level of understanding between Mathew and I, we respect each other and we are each other's greatest supporters. We actually love each other and being loved by Mathew is something so special.

I want you to experience it too.

You know, when I finally had time alone and was taking out my journal, I sat down and thought about my actual reason for doing this, writing to you.

At first I was letting everything out on paper but now, I want you to know me better, as a young girl going through a different journey in her life. My experience with you.

I want you to get to know me, through my words and understand me, the best way I would be able to make you understand.

I don't know if this makes sense but I think it does. What do you think?

What I am doing now may seem like such a small thing, but I think it's this small thing that will mark even a spot of me in you. A memory in which we shared together.

To me, it's the smallest things...