>>>He Knows<<<

I've never been one to hold any secret from my boyfriend for too long. Just this once.

He's not happy about two things:

1. I've kept a huge secret from him.

2. Someone knew before him.

Okay, so the second one, totally ridiculous. Why wouldn't I tell another trust worthy person, my twin sister to be exact, of something big weighing on my shoulders? To be truthful, I trust my sister more than my boyfriend, it's as simple as that.

I mean we arrived as one on this earth and he, well, we met 3 years ago. Okay, maybe I wasn't totally fair to him but I needed....yes, again, Time.

Time to think, collect myself and make decisions. I'm still young and everything seems big, not giving me a break, at least there were no witnesses to watch me drown within me. It's scary when something as huge as my secret, will no longer be one in a few months and I won't share my life alone, not that I've ever done that. Lizzy, my pretty older sister by 2 minutes says everything will be okay, even my boyfriend Matt, who got over the initial shock and came barrelling through my door.

He told me that he's here for me, that we are in this together.

I love him, I really do. I just think he's stupidly sweet to stick around and carry all the weight with me.

So he knows and I'm relieved.