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5 pounds and 8 ounces, blue eyes, black hair, quiet little whimpers, scrunched up nose, Arden's tired, but radiant smile. Those were the thoughts racing through JJ Maybank's mind as his daughter was finally placed into his arms without the nurses supervision. She was healthy, she was safe, they were both alive.

From the corner of his eye JJ could see Arden fast asleep, finally resting. The labour in itself had been rushed, panicked. Their daughter and Arden had needed to be raced up into surgery for an emergency c-section, so very different to what Arden had wanted for their birthing experience .... yet despite the fact she was six weeks premature, Logan Eden Maybank was completely healthy, just on the smaller side. Her lungs, heart, swallow all perfect.

His girls were safe, healthy and alive.

For the first time since the birth, JJ was alone with his daughter. The nurses had slipped away when they saw Arden beginning to drift off, urging JJ to call them if he needed any help.

JJ had been beginning to drift off, his hand tightly clasped in Arden's when he heard the quite whimpering from the tiny little cot beside Arden. He hadn't hesitated when he gently pried his hand from Arden's, moving towards the tiny little bundle tucked away.

Originally, since the birth had been so unexpected JJ had forced himself into overdrive, trying to get Arden and the baby to the hospital safely he hadn't even thought about new clothes for Arden or the baby after the birth. It was after a quick and short phone call to Kie, did the girl come running, brand new purchased clothes in her hands. She hadn't stayed long, quickly popping in to check on the new family before promising to come back tomorrow with the remaining pogues and Haven.

JJ awkwardly lifted his daughter into his arms, trying to quieten down the quite whimpers. Arden needed to sleep. She needed to rest. He could do this. After a few paces up and down the room, the whimpering began to cease, but instead of falling back asleep, Logan Maybank inquisitively looked up at her father with the same wide blue eyes as his own.

JJ smiled awkwardly down at the baby as he was once again left awe-struck with the resemblance she bore to him. His daughter was so much like her mother------ same eye shape, lip shape, hair colour and face shape but JJ could see himself in his daughter from the way her little tufts of black fell to her blue eyes all the way to Logan's nose which Arden had proclaimed all those months ago she shared with him from the 4D ultrasound of their daughter.

JJ was entranced by the little life in his arms who was cooing happily to herself, content. Logan was happy, she felt happy with him. He was her father.

JJ couldn't help the bout of insecurity he felt at thought. This little girl was completely dependent on him, hell Arden would probably need to depend on him in the upcoming weeks. His girls needed him now. JJ had no idea how to be a good father. The only example had was an abusing piece of shit. Who was to say JJ wouldn't end up Luke Maybank?

JJ blinked in surprise, his thoughts interrupted by a loud gurgle as Logan happily clutched her fathers thumb. "I'm being stupid aren't I jelly bean?" He questioned aloud, his daughter babbling happily to herself.

JJ smiled down at his daughter just as she yawned, staring up at JJ  in exhaustion. "I don't really know how to be a dad .... no---- Appa..." JJ began, deciding then and there his daughter would call him Appa. The word 'dad', the connotation behind that word didn't sit right with JJ. He refused to be anything like his father to this baby girl. JJ knew Arden's own father, her appa had meant the world to her, it seemed fitting that Seojun Kim would become the type of father JJ Maybank wanted to be like.

"I may not be the best at this," JJ trailed off while his blue met his daughters blue. It was then and there that JJ vowed to do better. He would do his best by his baby girl. She deserved better, she deserved loving parents, something him and Arden had never experienced.

"I may mistakes, I feel like I am already but unlike my dad and you're eomma's mother, we love you so much. I love you and will do my best by you."

JJ blinked in surprise as he felt Arden's hand reaching out to touch his arm from her perch on the bed. The exhaustion was evident on her face, but pure love shone from her face as she stared at her daughter and boyfriend.

"You're going to be the best Appa," Arden gently stated while JJ shot her a watery smile.

They would be okay ....

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