Lance sat in his room as Allura, Pidge, lotor and hunk slept in the living room from watching a movie, he held a picture frame in his hand as hours went by, he heard movement outside his door and looked up seeing lotor.

"Your awake still?" Lance asked hiding the picture under his blanket.

"You know I've never been a good sleeper," Lotor said softly.

"Are the others asleep? It's been quiet for a while," lance crossed his legs putting his hands in his lap.

"Yes, they're all asleep," he nodded gently but noticed lance was fidgeting with his hands. "May I?"

Lance nodded scooting on his bed as Lotor sat with him, he looked at the picture frame under the blanket. Lance sighed pulling it out and held it in his lap.

"My sister gave me a box, from when I lived with her and..." lance handed him the frame. Lotors heart dropped a little.

It was a picture of six children, two older boys and older girl, two that were a bit younger, and the youngest. They were all in a yard, the youngest girl clinging onto the youngest boy, holding the baby of the family and his other arm wrapped around his twin sisters shoulder. Their older siblings behind them. Everyone smiling so much their eyes were almost closed.

"That's Chloe, I was fourteen, she was six," lance mumbled.

"That's Rachel, Luis, marco, and Veronica," he pointed to each as Lotor looked at them softly.

"You all look so happy," Lotor whispered.

"We were, it was the last day of school so we all were playing in the yard, chloe, marco and Veronica surprise attacked us with water guns when Luis, Rachel and I got home," lance rested his head on Lotors shoulder as he looked at the picture sadly.

"I miss that," he choked a little.

"I miss her still," lances eyes watered looking at the little girl.

"She's your family, it's okay to miss her," Lotor wrapped his arm around lance to comfort him.

"I haven't seen her face in over three years and just looking at the pictures, I feel guilty again, that she never got to see her next birthday, that she's not growing up," lance covered his mouth and Lotor set the picture aside and held his exe lover close.

"It's not your fault, you would never mean to hurt someone you love, your a good person lance," Lotor whispered in his ear. Lance leaned against his chest as their legs were wrapped around each other.

"I'm afraid I'm going to lose everyone I love," lance sighed while Lotor rested his head on top. It was just so natural feeling to rely on each other and be physically affectionate.

"You won't, Veronica is safe with the garrison," Lotor gulped a little.

"I almost lost you," he closed his eyes.

"But you didn't," the galra squeezed his arm a little.

"I miss you too Lo, it's weird because of what happened, because that wasn't you but it was and now your back to who I love... and it just feels like when we're around each other things just fall back into place naturally, is that weird?" Lance looked up at him as Lotor sat up more.

"I've been trying to be better for you, doing everything I can so I never be that person again before, but I do know somewhere inside of me... that thing I was in that battle is still here," Lotor gulped a little as he was honest, he was so scared that he might go crazy again.

"I know, it's already been a month since that happened too... but I think we all have a breaking point like that," lance sat up as well,
pulling himself off of Lotor.

Lotor watched him calmly as the sight of lance made him feel like he was floating, being this close made his skin tingle. He knew no one else would ever make him feel like this, there was something about lance that made Lotor feel complete.

"I can't believe it's only been a month, and in two more voltron will be launching," Lotor looked at him gently.

"Yea, back in space.. with voltron," lance sighed disappointed.

"Lance..." Lotor touched his knee.

"Yea?" He looked up at Lotor confused.

"I still am deeply in love with you lance, insane or not, I don't want anyone else but you my love," Lotor said with hope in his soul as lances blue eyes stared at his.

"I know you don't trust me and I know it'll take time but I just need you to know I love you, I'm never going to lie to you and my feelings are never going to change, I-" "stop talking," lance leaning close to his face.

Lotor felt like he couldn't breathe with how close lance was, leaned over as his hand traced over Lotors scar on his face.

"And kiss me," he whispered, Lotor pressed his lips against lances immediately as lance pulled himself on the hybrids lap, holding on the back of his neck to kiss him deeply.

"You and your stupid words Amor," lance breathed as Lotor was in a trance when lance kissed him.

"What can I say? I'm charming," Lotor grinned holding his waist to push him to the side so they could roll over on the bed.

Lance gasped but Lotor covered his mouth hearing movement from outside in the living room. Lance pushed his hand off and kissed him again pulling Lotor down with him.

"If they wake up..." Lotor groaned.

"They can tattle to Shiro later," lance smiled up at Lotor who towered over him.

"Stars, I love you," Lotor looked down at him as if he's found where he belonged, comforting and safe with the man he wanted to cherish. His long hair made a curtain around them, feeling like isolation from the world.

"I love you too Lotor," lance smiled pulling him down to kiss him desperately

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The two laid in bed as the sun was just barely coming up, the sky was lightening in the distance. Neither of them slept as they laid together.

The two laid on their sides facing each other as their hands were clasped together between them. Lance had a gentle gaze as he reached over to tuck Lotors hair behind his ear, Lotor kept his hand close and kissed his palm slowly.

"You look beautiful in the rising suns light," Lotor whispered as he pulled Lance closer by his waist.

Lance blushed deeply looking away, he's never gotten used to being called beautiful.

"Are you alright?" Lotor sat up as the blanket fell to his waist showing him shirtless in the bed. His lavender skin glowed with the light shining on his back.

"I'm fine," lance sighed sitting up as well. Lotor leaned against the headboard and offered open arms.

"GAC for your thoughts?" Lotor smiled awkwardly. Lance blushed more as he was unable to not smile at the gentle giant.

Lance giggled a little scooting into his arms as Lotors arm draped over his shoulder and their hands intertwined again on top of the blanket.

"Do you regret it? That we mightve gone a bit fast?" Lotor whispered in his ear.

"I never regret it," lance smiled resting his head back on Lotors shoulder.

"Then what troubles you?" The galra raised a confused brow.

"I'm still scared lo, I've been so scared since we've been back on earth, since the battle, I haven't felt safe in so long, I don't know what's wrong with me, my anxiety just won't stop," lance closed his eyes leaning closer into his touch.

"And as soon as I'm with you it goes away and I feel sane again, but why can't I feel like that on my own? What's wrong with me?" He whispered.

Lotor brushed his hair softly to comfort his lover, he understood that lance didn't want to rely on him to feel better. Maybe it was his fault as well feeling the same way with some situations, they were to relying on one another. It was a flaw of theirs...

"I don't want to hold you back, I want to see you grow as a person," Lotor wrapped both arms around lance as they buried their faces against the others shoulder.

Lance kept his eyes closed as he embraced his love tightly.

"But I can't let you go," Lotor whispered in his ear. Lance nodded keeping him close, it was their flaw but it wasn't something they were willing to get rid of.

"I don't think we should be in a relationship lo, everything is so fragile," lance admitted. Lotors chest hurt a little at that.

Lance could feel it, the heart break in his chest at the pain this caused. Lotors regret created his own heart break with the nauseating guilt.

"You're an addictive drug lance, I still need you in my life," Lotor pulled away and placed his forehead against lances.

"I never said I don't need you, I want you, we are going to fast, we just can't jump into things like this, no matter how good the sex is," lance smiled sadly, but he was successful to make Lotor smile.

"So it's not out the window?" Lotor chuckled pulling away to lay down again.

Land whistled innocently and they both laughed like they were young and dumb again. Lance leaned down and kissed his slowly and gently, making Lotor breathe slowly like this was his life source.

"Definitely not out the window handsome," lance purred.

"Then round two?" Lotor smirked deviously and lance laughed again blushing at the galra.