Virgin. Karma was a fucking virgin. Holy goddamn shit.

I regretted my reaction to the news immediately. The expression on her face made it clear that she thought I wouldn't want to be with her or something. Not the case. Like...at all. Knowing that no other guy has fucked her only made me want her more. There was this screaming urge in my body to get inside of her as soon as possible, to make her mine.

Yeah, she was my girl, but this was different. So fucking different. I was never the possessive type before her. But then again, I never had something I was scared to lose. Now? Fuck. I never wanted anything more in my life than this girl. 

"What are you thinking right now?"

Karma's voice was soft, her tone curious. It pulled me from my thought train and I looked down at her. We were both still very naked, and after I carried her back to the bed, I stopped kissing her. She was looking up at me with so much emotion and passion in her eyes that I felt like I couldn't breathe. 

"Nathan? You okay?"

"Are you sure about this, Karma? About...me?" Stroking her cheek with my thumb, I waited for her answer. 

Which was an eyeroll. "What kind of question is that? Of course I'm sure." As if to prove a point, she rubbed her body against mine, causing a groan to slip past my lips. "I want you, Nathan. All of you. Right now. Tonight." 

Grabbing my face with both hands, she kissed the fuck outta me. Her tongue slipping inside, seeking. Owning. It was game over after that. Any restraint I had was gone. All doubts were shattered. 

I kissed her back with the same fierce need she gave me. Burying my hand in her hair, I pulled her body flush against mine before rolling us over so she was beneath me. I loved having her beneath me. Feeling her tits against my chest. Having my body positioned between her soft thighs. And fuck she was so incredibly soft. And warm. And wet. 

Deepening the kiss, I rubbed my dick against her pussy, making sure not to thrust inside her just yet since I didn't have a condom on. I just needed to feel her like this first. I wanted to know how the softest part of her felt against the hardest part of me. And it felt fucking good. Too good. For a split second, I actually considered not using a condom. The thought of coming inside her had me so fucking hard and I ground my dick against her again.

Karma moaned into my mouth, her nails digging into my shoulder as she arched up against me. "Nathan, please. Don't tease me." 

As much as I enjoyed the teasing and wanted to spend the whole night savoring the feel of her, the clock was against us. The last thing we needed was for my parents and Lanie to come back from dinner and catch us like this. 

Reaching over to my bedside table, I grabbed a condom and put it on. When I was back between her welcoming thighs, Karma smiled up at me. She was fucking beaming at me, and it made my chest ache. So much emotion was in those brown eyes of hers. So much trust. 

"I'm going to try not to hurt you," I said softly, pressing the tip of my dick right at her entrance. "Shit. I don't want—"

She leaned up and kissed me deep. I got lost to it instantly, closing my eyes and kissing her back. I was so into it that I barely noticed when she wrapped her right leg around my waist. I also didn't notice until it was too late that she had gripped my shoulders just before she thrusted her hips up, taking me all the way inside her. 

My head dropped into the hollow of her neck when I felt her pussy grip my dick. She was so fucking tight that I was on the verge of coming right then and there. Taking a deep shuddering breath, I lifted my head to meet her eyes. I didn't start fucking her yet, though. I didn't miss the way she gasped and winced from the pain. 

"You okay, baby?" My voice was rough, but who the fuck cared.  My eyes searched her face, trying to figure out how she was feeling and if she wanted me to continue.

There was that goddamn smile of hers again. Then when she rolled her hips against me, I cursed under my breath. 

"Don't hold back, Nathan. Make me your girl."

That's what did it. Because she was my fucking girl. Drawing my hips back, I thrusted into her. Over and over again, but not too fast. I wasn't fucking her in the back of a damn car, just trying to get off. Nope. This was all kinds of different. In a good way. 

The sensations were overwhelming. The feel of being inside her. The way she grabbed at my shoulders and tightened her legs around my waist. The way she moaned my name when I went deeper inside her. The way she kissed me deep as I continued to fuck her. 

No, this wasn't fucking. And that's what scared me. 

I'd been trying my best not to fall over the edge of that damn cliff that was falling in love with Karma. But there was no denying the truth anymore; because the second I entered her warm body, I pitched myself right over that damn edge. 

***

"We need a song." 

As I lay on my bed with Karma in my arms, I snorted with amusement at her statement. "A song?" 

She nodded against my chest. "Yeah. Couples have songs. We don't have one." 

Exhaling a deep breath, I replayed the past hour in my head. Being with Kama had been a revelation. It made me wonder what the fuck I'd been doing with my life for the past few years. It made me feel like a pussy, honestly. I'd always kept girls at arms length, not wanting to get close, because I didn't want to fall in love. 

With how I was feeling right now I had to wonder: who wouldn't want to feel this? I felt so fucking happy. I felt like everything in my life led me to this moment—to this girl. And I was so lucky to have her. That was something I was never going to forget or take for granted. 

"Nathan?"

Oh, right. She asked about us having a song. "You're wrong, gorgeous. We do have a song." 

She looked up at me with a frown. "No, we don't. What song?" 

"Remember our first date? When I snuck us into the carnival after hours?" 

"Yes."

I started stroking her hair as I stared at my bedroom ceiling, remembering the night in question vividly. That was when I started falling for her. When we were sitting on that Ferris wheel, and she smiled at me. I was a goner. Done for.

Then I heard that song. 

"I asked the guy who worked the ride to play music for us," I explained. "He put it on a random radio station, and when we got to the top, just before I kissed you, I heard it." 

"Heard what?" 

Anxiety crept its way up my spine. My breathing increased. Mouth got a little dry. I couldn't believe I was going to do this—actually do this in front of someone. But this was Karma. And she wasn't just anyone. 

Closing my eyes briefly, I cleared my throat...then started to sing. 

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Karma sat up in the bed and looked down at me with wide eyes. "You can sing? Nathan, you can sing." 

Embarrassed, I averted my eyes and shrugged a shoulder. "A little." 

"How have I never heard you sing before? Does Lanie know?"

"No. No one does. I've never sung in front of anyone before." I reached out and played with some of her dark hair that was draped over her shoulder. "It's no big deal. I just...I don't know. I wanted to do it for you." 

She must have sensed my unease, because she didn't pry anymore about my musical ability. "That was the song playing that night at the carnival."

"Yeah. It was. Something about it just hit home for me. It seemed like...like it was meant for us."

She lay back down beside me, resting her head in her hand. With a smile that said way more than I could handle right now she said softly, "Chasing Cars. By Snow Patrol. I think it fits us perfectly." 

When she pressed her lips against mine this time, there was no denying or fighting the truth anymore.

I was head-over-heels in love with Karma Fitzgerald. 

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I'm back!! So sorry that I've been gone so long. The past six weeks have been a rollercoaster. I appreciate all of your support and especially your patience. I'm finally out of my writing funk and hope to be updating more frequently. 

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