Nick's POV.

There are certain mistakes I have made in my life, certain things that I am not proud of and can not take back even if I wanted to, but if I was given the chance to travel back in time, I'd go back to that day I decided to talk to Kayla during that stupid school field trip.

Maybe if I hadn't met her, my life would not be this miserable and maybe, just maybe, Allison and I would be a thing.

But this is not a sci-fi movie, it's real life and it sucks, I can not take back what happened back then, all I can do is sit here and wish all of it away.

"Give me." My mom lets her hand out on the kitchen counter, right next to the scrumbled eggs she made us for breakfast that I haven't touched, Adam has some science fair shit so he had to get out early.

"Excuse me?" I'm confused.

"Give me your phone and your car keys." She demands, taking a bite on an apple and chewing slowly.

"Why?" I'm now lost.

"Because you're grounded." She informs me.

Grounded? That word still exists? I can't remember the last time she grounded me or said the word grounded.

"I didn't do anything."

"Yes you did, I'm punishing you for breaking Allison's heart now hand them over." She extends her hand further to me and takes a second bite on her apple.

I lean back on the chair and sigh.

My mom has been pestering me about this Allison issue since the time she saw Allison rush out of my room, it's not my fault she misunderstood our relationship and our kiss.

If my mom is acting like this, I wonder how the rest are gonna react.

"I didn't break her heart, I just told her I didn't want to be more than friends." I defend myself for what it's worth.

"Don't argue with me, Nick." She says in a serious tone.

Screw my life. I pull out my phone and place it in her hand, she passes it to her left hand then returns the right hand infront of me again.

"I'm not giving you my car." I shake my head, dismissing the issue.

"Yes you are." She's serious.

"How am I supposed to get to school?"

"The bus." She says in a duh tone.

Allison takes the bus.

"Hell no, let me tell Jason to come pick me up atleast." I suggest.

I watch her unlock my phone and text Jason for me.

That should be illegal.

"Done, car keys please." She snaps her fingers, first Allison and now my car.

I officially lost everything I care about.

I kiss my key before giving it to her, she narrows her eyes at me then laughs lightly.

"I'm gonna go before you drive me nuts." She exits the kitchen.

I sit there in total silence for a good ten minutes until I hear Jason honk his car outside like a psychopath.

I need new friends, a new life too.

I pick my backpack from the floor, forcing myself up then dragging myself to the front door.

Jason parked on the street, as I near the car I notice that Miles is in the car as well, I get in the back seat and fist bump both of them.

"What's with the wrong face? Did a rat poop on your pillow this morning." Miles jokes, they both laugh at this awful joke.

This is why I need new friends.

I choose not to respond to this stupid joke for now, what's the use anyway.

Jason starts the engine and speeds the car, this reminds me of the time I took Allison out to far far away, I started speeding and she hitched her breath and gripped her seat then begged me to slow down, I wasn't even speeding that fast but looking at her face and how her whole body just froze in the moment I felt like I was. I had fun spending that entire day with her even though I was so nervous and hungover, I found it very impressive how she wasn't, she was calm and at ease, curious but still at ease. Like she was comfortable around me.

Why did I have to mess all of that up? When I started finding Allison interesting, I thought it was just sexual tension, I thought all I had to do was fuck her out of my mind and the stupid feeling would disappear but it only got stronger when I kissed her on the beach that night, I obsessed over it that entire night, the second time made it even worse and I did not want to think about what fucking her would do to me.

That kiss wasn't just a kiss, her mouth was everything I had ever imagined, she was pretty good at it for someone who had never kissed anyone before.

"Dude, are you as broken as Allison?" Miles turns to ask me.

"What?" I think I'm now hearing things.

"We know what happened between you two, why do you think I made the rat poop joke?" He points out.

I forgot how small this town is.

"Who told you about that?" I ask, leaning my head back.

"We were with Amanda when Allison called her, dude she sounded really upset." He informs me.

"I didn't mean to make her upset, I simply explained the situation to her but she didn't take it very well."

"Bro, you were her first kiss then you straight on called the kiss 'nothing' " He quotes, Jason stifles a laugh.

I don't want to talk about Allison anymore.

"I didn't call it nothing, I said it was just a kiss." I correct him.

Wait, I think I might have called it nothing at some point but that doesn't matter, the damage is already done.

"Same thing, bro." Miles laughs.

"You know what Miles, Fuck you and leave me the hell alone, if you know so much about girls and relationships why are you single?" I snap at him.

"Because I try to avoid this kind of shit from happening to me, bro why else?" He points out in a calm tone.

I've never seen this asshole angry.

"What do you guys think I should do?" I ask in a friendly tone, Jason pulls up in the parking lot and kills the engine, we get out of the car at the same time and start to walk towards the school entrance.

"I say there's plenty of fish in the sea." Jason answers my previous question, looking back at the girl who just walked passed us.

"Try to forget about her." Miles adds.

Pathetic Assholes, I stand in front of them, keeping my eyes between the two guys I call friends.

"So you're both saying I should just quit and forget her?" I ask, just to be clear on their shitty advice.

"Dude, Allison is a different breed, she's not like the other girls. That also means she's not gonna forgive you for what you did to her and let's face it, you were never gonna last two weeks with her." Miles rolls his eyes at me after saying the last part.

"And you were definitely never gonna tap that." Jason extends his hand to Pat my shoulder.

"And why not?" I shrug in questioning.

"You know what they say, Once a fuck boy, always a fuck boy." Jason sends a wink, pointing at me.

I think I was supposed to get some kind of a secret message from that wink but I didn't get it, it didn't reach me.

"I'm not a fuck boy, I've barely fucked anyone from this school unlike you two assholes who can't stare at a pair of boobs without thinking dirty." I point at both of them.

"Don't judge and it's not like you've never stared at Allison's boobs before or dreamt about fucking her, plus, we know what happens when we stare." Jason places his hand on my shoulder, I shove his hand away.

"What happens when we stare?" Miles asks Jason, sounding curious.

"I don't know about you guys but I definitely think about squeezing." He says with pride.

Miles and I groan and roll our eyes at the statement.

Why have I been hanging out with this lifeless asshole all this time, I can do better than this.

"Maybe I'll think about squeezing your sister next time I see her in that crop top." I comment to shut him up, his smile turns into a frown and he clenches his jaw, glaring at me.

He is over protective of Lilian, he literally doesn't allow any of us to talk about her in a sexual way and he somehow never found out about me sleeping with her once upon a time.

"What did you just say?" He steps closer to me.

"I think you heard me." I give a fake smile.

"If you dare touch my sister, I swear to-"

"I already did that, I fucked her right after you told me not to but I'd love to know what you are willing to do about it." I dare him, he clenches his fists on his sides, getting angrier and angrier each passing second.

Right now I don't give a shit if our friendship is floating on lava, he's an asshole and I've had enough of him, of assholes.

He fists my t-shirt with both his hands and looks me in the eye intensively.

"You fucked my sister!" He grits his teeth angrily.

"Is this what you are willing to do about it?" I look him directly in the eye, smirking. He shoves me then gives me a good punch on the cheek, the inside of my cheek crashes against my teeth, I feel warm liquid on the corner of my mouth, I wipe the blood using my thumb.

Nothing serious.

I don't hit him back because I know I won't stop until my knuckles get weak or until the principal gets here, I don't want to disappoint my mom by getting expelled or suspended for nearly killing an asshole on school property so lucky him.

"You done?" I ask.

He's about to throw another punch when Miles stops him.

"Calm down dude, school grounds." Miles reminds Jason, eyeing the people that are staring and whispering around us.

"Calm down? Are you serious? He slept with my sister, do you know how messed up that is?" Jason asks Miles.

"Maybe you should let her speak for herself because she literally threw herself at me, oh and she praised my dick and everything." I wink at him, walking backwards before turning around.

Today's Monday, my first class is gym, damnit Allison is in that class.

How am I supposed to do this one.

As I'm walking towards the location of my locker, I spot Amanda with a guy I don't recognize. They are in a deep conversation, she's smiling and blushing as she looks up at his tall figure. She looks happy.

Now that I've lost Allison, Miles and Jason, as well as my precious car, Amanda could be the only person I can talk to if she's not angry with me for breaking her best friend's heart.

"Hey." I greet both of them, shoving my hand in my pockets and looking at the tall blonde guy.

"Nick." Amanda chirps cheerfully, entwining our arms and grinning at me.

I guess she doesn't hate me.

"Amanda." I call her name.

"This is Noah, he's a new transfer student that I used to know when I was thirteen, Noah this is Nick, he goes to this school." She introduces us.

He goes to this school? Wow, that one left me feeling useless.

"Nice to meet you, dude." Says Noah in a deep musculine tone.

"Cool, can I borrow her for two seconds?" I begin to drag Amanda's arm.

"Sure?" I hear him reply unsurely, Amanda waves at the guy while she stumbles.

She turns her attention to me and sends a friendly glare, "Rude much?"

"Someone got rid of Jason pretty quickly." I look at her over my shoulder.

"I'm trying, Noah and I met at summer camp in Florida when I was thirteen, I had a little crush on him but of course he never noticed, I cried at the end of that summer because I thought I'd never see him again but looks like fate has its own- wait a second, why am I talking to my best friend's enemy?" She retrieves her arm from mine and starts to walk faster, leaving me a meter behind.

I roll my eyes.

"Can I please explain what happened?" I jog to catch up with her.

"You've got to be shitting me." She stops in her tracks, her eyes focused on something or rather someone.

I follow her gaze and it lands on Allison, she cut her long hair short to shoulder length and she's wearing a white sundress printed in daisies that stops right above her knees and if my eyes are not totally going blind, I'd say she's wearing a little makeup, and Carl the asshole is saying something that is currently making her laugh.

Good to know I didn't break her as bad as I thought I did.

"Wow." I exclaim, I knew she was pretty sexy but my imagination didn't do her Justice.

"Wow?" Amanda slightly lifts her eyebrows in questioning.

"What? She looks hot." I shrug.

"Tell me something Nick, when you look at her right now, do you see the nerdy girl next door that you met or do you see a girl who could be Sofia's new best friend?" She questions me, good question though.

I look back at Allison, she looks happy and cheerful but people don't just Change overnight and change always has a meaning to it.

"I don't know." I lie to Amanda, this conversation about me breaking Allison Parker is never going to end if I keep on listening and asking, she Clearly deserves to be with Carl the asshole and not me. I can't love her the way she has to be loved so I'm gonna take a step back even though it's going to be hard considering the fact that we live right next door to each other and we go to the same fucking school.

I have to let her go.

"She has become someone who she always feared of becoming, and you played a part in it, well you and her parents so congratulations Nick, you officially broke Allison Parker." She says sarcastically squeezing my shoulder.

She's right.

And fuck letting her go.