🌹"Feelings That Come Back,
Are Feelings That Never Leave!!"🌹

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Aashi's P.O.V.

I ran to my class with my heart beating rapidly against my chest. What did I do? I asked Kabir out! How could I do that? Where did these words just come out? Did I give my heart the lead and talk nonsense. I'm so doomed.

I whined and cried annoyingly. I hit my forehead multiple times out of frustration. I sat on my seat and hid my face by placing my head on my hands which were placed on the desk. You're such a fool Aashi. You sounded so desperate back there. Why did you do that? You, stupid, idiot girl.

"What happened?", Nia's voice made me look up. I hugged her and started whining again.

"I did the most idiotic thing ever", I replied.

"What do you mean?", She asked.

"I asked out Kabir. I asked him to give me one chance. Why am I so desperate?", I asked her and she smiled.

"Oh my baby is growing up", she pinched my cheeks and I just slapped her hand away.

"Shutup", I said and she chuckled.

"Tell me everything", she said and I narrated her whole thing. She listened to me patiently and just smiled in end.

"You didn't do anything wrong. You like him and if you want him to give you one chance there's nothing wrong in that", she said.

"What if he rejects my proposal?", I asked biting my nails.

"Then accept it. Don't be a loser. He's just someone you like, not love. If he doesn't agree then move on. Show him what he loses", Nia said patting my shoulder.

"You think?", I asked.

"C'mon. There are so many boys out there except Kabir. We'll find you one if he doesn't agree. He's just a crush of yours. Crush doesn't stay for long in heart, Love does. Crushes can't compete with true love ever", Nia said.

"Yeah I agree in that. Let's hope for the best", I said.

"Things will be fine", she assured me and I simply nodded. I buy her words. Maybe she's right. I like Kabir but if he doesn't like me back, I can't wait for him for too long.

My life isn't a romantic novel!!

The class ended one by one and I passed my day checking my mobile every now and then. I was waiting desperately for Kabir's text. Either positive or negative, he must text me his reply at least. I deserve that. I'm not worth his silence at all.

I walked towards my last period class when I saw Kabir standing in the corridor with a girl from my class. They're laughing and chatting and were having a great time. Jealousy fanned out across my heart. The girl was beautiful, she looked perfect standing next to him but she wasn't me. I'm his girlfriend.

Fake girlfriend, my heart whispered!!

But my feelings are real, I thought.

Kabir saw me. He didn't react. He looked away and started chatting with that girl animatedly again. I bowed down my head, kept my book next to my chest and walked past them without sparing a glance at them. Why? Because it hurts. I felt jealous and bad about seeing him with someone else. I don't mind him having fun or a good time with others as long as I've an assurance that he's gonna come back to me, that he too has feelings for me.

But he doesn't have anything for me. I'm friend zoned by him. My small bubble of hope is broken down by him. He ignored me. He'll break up with me. He doesn't want to give me one chance even. Am I that bad looking?

No, you're not. Don't judge yourself, my heart whispered!

You're right, I thought.

Whilst passing through notice board, I glanced at my own reflection. My dusky skin, oily greasy hair tied in a pony, my black thick-rimmed glasses over my nose, my makeup-free face and my dull eyes. What's so attractive in me that a guy like Kabir notice me? Looks matters. You might not be born beautiful but you can look decent.

I look horrid!!

Shaking my head vehemently and slapping back of my head for underestimating myself, I walked to the class. Why am I having this inferiority complex? Kabir says I'm his star. He meant it. He wasn't lying. He likes me enough to call me his friend. If he doesn't love me, then I must not deserve his feelings. He's not in my destiny.

Stop being a sad lovesick person!!

The college ended along with my last class and I walked out of college. Nia had already left for college. She bunked last two classes and went on a date with Jay. I'm happy for her but a selfish part of me wished that maybe someone could love me too.

I walked to the parking area. I was hoping to see Kabir but got no luck. I placed my bag in my scooty and wore my helmet. I was about to start my scooty but saw Kabir walking towards me rotating his bike keys in his index finger. He looked at me. I passed him a smile and he stood in front of me.

"Spooky. Are you ignoring me?", He asked.

"No. Why would I?", I asked.

You're the one who ignored me, I wanted to say but couldn't.

"Oh. I must have misunderstood then. I want to tell you something", he said. I nodded. My heart beat increased. I could hear it's lub dub sound ringing inside my ear. The anticipation of his upcoming words was just way too much overwhelming. I've a sudden adrenaline rush all over my body.

"I've thought a lot about your proposal. I thought about it all day", he said.

"So? What's your answer", I asked.

"I'm sorry", he said leaving a sigh and my expectations broke. Isn't its funny?

When a doctor says sorry for the patient, he always had a bad news to tell. Kabir was the doctor of my heart. His sorry had killed my heart.

"I'm sorry but I don't want to give you any chance", he said. He was all calm whilst saying so and my heart shattered a bit. It shattered into bits of pieces. I felt sad.

"Oh. Why? May I ask?", I asked looking at him.

"Because we just don't match", he said moving his hand between us.

"I thought you liked me", I said giving him a small smile.

"That I do. I like you as a friend. I used to have an attraction for you earlier but after we played this fake relationship thing, I realised you're a good friend. I'm not the one who can give you the love you deserve. I'm not worth you. I'm sorry", Kabir said placing his hand over mine. I removed my hand away from the gear and his grip, both.

"It's ok. Thanks for being honest with me. I appreciate it", I said.

I know it's me who doesn't deserve you, my heart whispered!!

"Can we be friends?", He asked.

"No", I replied looking in his eyes. I consoled my heart. It's ok. He's just a crush. You'll get over him. I have a good look at his face and then drove away. I know he kept looking at me until I disappeared.

Aahir's chapter ended, my heart whispered!!

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Kabir's P.O.V.

"Where are you?", I asked.

"I'm coming. On my way", Jay replied.

"I'm waiting for you in the parking area", I replied and hung up. My mind was a mess.

One chance! What does she mean by one chance? Is she really attracted to me? What did I do to make her like me? I never used any word of endearment. I never ever complimented her the way a boy who likes a girl does. I never said I Love her. Scratch that, I never said I Like her even. What makes her crushing on me?

Isn't this what I want since the starting? I wanted to make her fall for me and then I'd hurt her but things have changed now. I've got to know what an amazing girl she's. She doesn't deserve any sort of sadness. She's too good. Well, she might not be beautiful but she's a pure soul.

I was waiting for Jay but before him, Noor came. She parked her car and walked over to me with a smile on his face. Why can't Aashi be as pretty as Noor?

Wait a second. What am I even thinking?

"Kabir. Good morning", Noor said and hugged me. I hugged her back.

"Morning, Noor", I said and pulled away.

"I was looking for you only. I want to talk to you", she said.

"Go on", I asked.

Her smiling face turned into a serious face and she asked, "What's going on between you and my sister, Aashi?".

"What do you mean?", I asked.

"Don't act in front of me. I know you don't just date any girl just like that. And you falling for my sister is so not possible. So, what's the deal between you two?", She asked.

"Your sister Aashi is a nice person. We're good friends", I replied.

"And what about this relationship thing? Are you guys really dating? It has been two weeks since you're in a relationship. Are you really falling for her?", She asked.

"You're forgetting something. We made a bet", I said and her eyes widened.

"Shoot. What the heck? Are you really dating her for that bet?", She asked with wide eyes.

I sighed and then narrated her everything. I didn't tell her that Aashi sells drugs to save their cousin Priyanka but I did tell Noor, how I persuade Aashi to help me in pairing Dhurv and Ami.

"And now because she's a great friend of mine, I don't want to hurt her. I guess she has developed feelings for me", I said and Noor shook her head.

"You better not do anything with my sister. I know I made a bet and that was because I knew Aashi. If it wasn't for Dhruv, she had never agreed to be your girlfriend but she's my cousin, dammit. Kabir, you better break-up with her. Aashi doesn't joke about feelings. She's way too sensitive in these matters and if she likes you, she likes you. Simple. No other way around. It's better that you stop this drama before she gets hurt. She likes you, she'll get over you soon", Noor said and I nodded.

"I understand. You're right. I should stop seeing her", I said.

"Better tell her your answer today. I'm going out with some friends, so I'll talk to you at night", she said and I nodded.

"Ok. Bye", I said and she left after giving me a small nod.

After five minutes, Jay showed up. He was grinning from ear to ear. We shook hands and gave brotherly hug to each other.

"What's up?", He asked.

"You tell me. What's with the happy mood?", I asked.

"Well, I've a girlfriend. I Love her. And I'm going on a date with her. I am Happy", he said and I shook my head.

"Stop behaving like a lovesick dog", I said and his smile wiped away from his lips.

"What's with your bad mood?", He asked.

"Things happened", I said and then I told him everything. I told him about Priyanka and her ex-boyfriend and Aashi involving in it. I even told him about Aashi asking me for one chance.

"Did you make false promises to her?", He asked.

"What? No. We never lived like a couple. Aashi is stupid. I don't even know why is she liking me?", I said annoyingly.

"Well if it was for bet thing then you better break up with her soon. I also like Aashi and she's my girlfriend's best friend. If things between you two got ugly then everyone will be awkward", Jay suggested and I nodded.

"I know that. Fine, I'll break up with her", I said and then we both walked to the college.

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It was the last period and I bunked it. Jay had already left for his date with Nia. I was walking towards the canteen when a junior met me in my way. She was in Aashi and Nia's class.

"Good afternoon", she greeted me.

"Good afternoon, Sia", I replied and she smiled. She's one of the most chilled out junior and she's friendly too.

"How are you?", She asked.

"Amazing. You tell", I replied with a smile and she started telling me about her day. She told me about her upcoming assignments and started asking me for any help. I informed her a bit about the pattern. My eyes caught Aashi walking towards me. Our eyes met. I wanted to smile at her but I couldn't. I averted my gaze.

I thought when she'll pass by me, I'll greet her. But she had other plans. She walked past me without sparing any glance at me. I immediately excused myself and said a quick bye to Sia and ran after Aashi.

I saw her standing next to the notice board. She looked at herself in the glass frame and then muttered something. Seconds later, she shook her head and slapped the back of her head and taking fast steps, walked to her class.

I'll talk to her after college!!

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"I'm sorry. I'm not worth you", I finally spoke the dreaded words to her. There she was sitting on her scooty looking at me with a sad smile. She looked away but didn't speak anything.

I'm not a good person. I bet on you. You should not like me, my heart whispered.

Her silence was killing me. To kill the tension between us, I asked, "Can we be friends?".

She looked up at me and staring right into my eyes, she said, "No". With that much said, she left. She drove away and I kept looking at her until she disappeared.

I made the right decision, I thought!!

Then why am I not at peace, my heart whispered!!

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