When I am overwhelmed,
There it goes again,
The smile on my lips,
Mask of pretend,
I can never comprehend,
The sharp inhale,
My lips fragile and pale,
Staring myself in the mirror,
It can't any more clearer,
I am a monster,
In my head lives an imposter,
Whispering softly in my deaf ears,
"You lost her,"
So many roads to cross,
All of my hope is drained and tossed,
In this hell bound,
I am overwhelmed