(Monday, 7pm~ Endou and Kazemaru's home)

(Kazemaru)
"Ugh! Again, seriously?" Endou grumbled when his phone rung for the fourth time tonight, he picked it up frustratedly and answered "What? I already told you no...For the last time, I am married...No...That was ages ago though. Why didn't you tell me all of this then? Oh don't give me that, you were nothing but-that never happened!..." he went on like that for a few more minutes before he finally hung up. It was pretty obvious who he was talking to - Natsumi. Oh Natsumi. She used to be fine when we were younger, to be honest I always found her a little pretentious and snobby, but she got nicer over time. But now... well, let's just say we have issues.

That's just the way things are now. She hates me and I hate her, and Endou's stuck in the middle of all this shit. I keep telling him to just block her number or something but he always says that's too extreme. Too extreme my ass- the woman's a nightmare! She calls him constantly and tries to convince my husband I'm no good for him.
I don't even get why she's so obsessed with him.
She could have anyone she wants and yet she chooses Mamoru? When I found out they had dated I just- it didn't seem right at all. If anything I expected he'd go for someone like Aki. I mean, there's nothing particularly...special about him...

I mean, except from the fact that he has an amazing personality, and a great smile, and you have to admire his stubborn attitude of never giving up, and the fact that he cares so much about everyone around him-whether they're his friends or not, and I mean, he looks good too-sure he was cute when he was younger but now he's just hot, and he's good in bed too.

But still!

I don't get it. There's only two possibilities; either Endou has somehow managed to seduce the mighty Natsumi so much that she's fallen madly in love with him and lost all sense of reasoning, or, she's doing this just to spite me. I think the latter sounds more likely.

But why though?
'You know why.'

What have I done to deserve all of this?!
'She was heartbroken, totally heartbroken.'

It's not my fault that Mamoru chose me in the end, not her.

My husband crashed out on the sofa defeatedly, pulling me out of my thoughts. I sat down next to him, leaning on his shoulder. He sighed wearily and I couldn't help but feel a little bad for him; he never used to be like this, he was always so happy, a fun-loving goofball. But he'd changed thanks to this whole Natsumi problem.
I miss the old Endou Mamoru....

I felt him pull on my ponytail gently and I looked up at him oddly. "Oh sorry I was just remembering back to when we were kids, you used to have short hair and it looked really good on you." he said staring at nothing in particular.

I grabbed my ponytail back "So you don't think I look nice like this anymore?" I replied rather defensively.
"Huh? Oh no, you looked cute at the time, but now you look...perfect. I really hope you never change Kaze." he said and I began to feel relieved again.
'See? Take that Natsumi, Endou thinks I'm perfect!'
'Wow, so mature. Seriously dude, get over yourself, you're a grown man.'

I sighed inwardly, I was acting a little bit like jealous teenager. 'Grow up Kaze, stop being petty, it doesn't suit you.' I shook my head at my thoughts and instead just focused on my husband. He looked so good with his hair all messy like that, I reached over and ran my hand through it before leaning over and giving him a peck on the lips. He kissed back before I parted from him, going back to stroking his hair.

He sighed loudly and tilted his head back. "This really sucks."
I leaned over to him, resting my head on his shoulder "I know, I wish she'd just leave us alone, she's being such a bitch about it."
I felt my husband stir a little, he moved away from me and I stared up at him. "Hey." His voice was stern, like he was angry at me, I raised an eyebrow about to say something but he cut me off.
"Don't call her a bitch. She's not a bitch."
I blinked.
He straightened up "That's not nice Kaze, you shouldn't say stuff like that you know."
I laughed incredulously "You're not serious, don't you remember all the things she's called me? She's not a sweet innocent girl anymore Mamoru." I couldn't believe he was siding with her.

"I know you two don't get along, but she's not a bad person Ichirouta."
I rolled my eyes. "Don't make me laugh."
"She's not as bad as you make her out to be you know, we were all friends once, she helped me out with a lot of things- she helped me get my first proper job."
"You always say that-why do you always say that? I helped you get your current job Endou, that's not how you rank your friends. Besides if she's really 'not as bad as I say she is' then please explain to me how trying to break a married couple up makes her a good person? Try and explain that to me!" I replied, trying not to lose my temper in front of him- I was getting pretty close to that.

"She's not going to steal me away Kaze, we're married and nothing's going to change that. I love you."
"It didn't stop you before..." I mumbled.
He sighed heavily, his hair bouncing as he did so "Please don't do this Kaze, you know I love you."
"You told her the same thing." I whispered. His face twisted in guilt, but the hurt on his face was obvious too, I looked away.
It was always so hard to be mad with him, and now it's worse 'It's not his fault, it's just how his personality is- he can't ever give up on people, he'll always see the good in people, you know that.' "You're so stubborn."
Endou just stared at me for a moment before huffing and laying back down. I followed suit, laying next to him, my gaze firmly stuck on the ceiling. Neither of us spoke.

I wanted to say something, I'm sure he did too, but it was probably better that we didn't speak- we'd most likely only end up fighting.

"She probably thinks we're no good for each other, that we shouldn't have gotten married when we did." Endou whispered, breaking the silence. I tensed up. "You were the one who-" I stopped to take in a breath, I turned to face him but he couldn't meet my gaze. "-You didn't have to ask me to marry you when you did Endou."
I thought back to how my parents had acted when I told them the news, I had only just finished university after all. We're were only 21. "You sure you don't want to wait a little while son? You're both still very young."
"Have you really thought about this properly? I'm only saying you shouldn't rush into an important decision like this." Their faces. They were trying to be happy for me but...even on our wedding day, they didn't look like they were happy for me- they looked scared for me...
Gouenji said we were rushing it, that it would only end badly 'He's not exactly one to talk though, with his track record...'
"You didn't have to say yes." He countered coldly. I caught his gaze, those warm brown eyes of his had changed dramatically, I shook my head, a sad laugh escaping my lips "It's not like I had a choice..."

He moved towards me swiftly, grabbing both my hands in his own, staring deeply into my eyes. "I never forced you to marry me Kaze, you could have just said no!" He pleaded but I just scoffed at him, letting out another strained laugh "Really Endou? You think it was that simple?" I shook my head in disbelief "You have absolutely no idea..."
His arms fell limp and his head dropped, the hands that held mine suddenly felt so cold and unwelcome. I let out a shaky breath 'Don't you dare cry.' "We both knew what the alternative meant Endou, we know what would've happened if I'd said no to you." I mumbled. He looked back up at me, eyes swimming with so many different emotions "I don't understand Kaze."

My breath hitched in my throat, I had to be strong I couldn't let myself break. "Don't say that, don't act like that Endou- you know what I mean." I cried, turning my face away from him, I couldn't let him see.
I felt his hand on my face, his soft skin next to mine, it was so comforting. "Ichirouta, please, I don't understand. What does this have to do with Natsumi?"

"For fuck sake Endou." I whispered, getting up. His arm lingered in the air for a moment, before dropping back down into his lap. I couldn't meet his eyes, I knew if I did I would just fall under his spell again. It was always like that, whenever we would fight, which was often, he'd always manage to win me over again just because of who he was. It wasn't fair. I heard him stand up and walk over to me, he embraced me tightly but I couldn't hug him back, it would be too painful. My throat felt dry, I couldn't speak even though I wanted to so desperately.
"I hate all this fighting, all this shit with Natsumi. I just wish you two would stop it, it's making us both so miserable."
He always gets his way in the end, I always came back to him no matter what he did to me, no matter what he'd said. Because he's Endou- no one can say no to him.
It's not fair.

"This is all such a mess. I don't want to lose someone like Natsumi, she's a wonderful person, she doesn't deserve all this." He continued.
"So I deserve it then?" I croaked out. 'You do deserve it Kazemaru.'
'Unlike her you're a bad person, Endou deserves someone way better than you.'
"No, of course not." He said tiredly. "I just hate all of this, I don't want to have to choose between the both of you." He turned my head so I was facing him, a sad smile adorned his face. He stroked my cheek as I leaned into his touch, he spoke softly, I closed my eyes just listening to the gentle lull of his voice. "You know I love you both."
'Am I not enough for you, do I not make you happy enough?'

His phone rang. He looked at the screen before smiling softly "It's Gouenji. Do you mind?"
"No...go ahead." I muttered, completely exhausted. He pulled away from me with a smile before leaving the living room, I just stood there.
I need to calm down. Maybe some music will help. I walked shakily over to the radio and turned it on. The room was filled with soft, sad music, those words, that voice so sad, so longing, so anguished...

Impossible to live with you, but I know, I could never live without
You
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love with anyone but you
You make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me live, you make me die,
For you
You make me sing, you make me sad, you make me glad, you make me mad,
For you
I love you, hate you, love you, hate you
But I'll want you till the world stops turning
For whatever you do
I never, never, never want to be in love with anyone but you

I don't want to lose him, I couldn't bear it. I just love him so much...I rubbed my wedding ring obsessively- this isn't what I wanted, I never wanted it to happen like this.

I remembered, remembered what he'd said to me, all those years ago.
How he'd treated me.
Everything he'd done.
How he played me around, over and over again.
How weak I was.
How angry I was.
How much of an idiot I was.

I couldn't breathe.

I shakily walked upstairs, going into our bedroom and slamming the door behind me. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I slumped down against the door unable to get my breathing under control. What was wrong with me?
After everything that happened I was only starting to question now? I'm supposed to be stronger than this, I just can't lose; not now, not to him not to her. I need control. I looked down at my hands, shocked to see small teardrops on them, I touched my cheek- when did I start crying? My wedding ring was gone. Where was my ring, did I take it off?

More tears rolled down my cheek as my breath quickened. This is bad this is very bad.
"Kazemaru? Hey Kazemaru?!" I heard Endou yell from downstairs, followed by the sound of his footsteps clambering up the stairs. I pressed my back closer to the door.