My dearest Holly,

I have been writing these letters to you for a whole month now, and at first, I didn't know if this was a good idea or not but I just needed you to know how I felt this past month.

You always told me to write down my feelings, so I did. You told me to write down all the things I enjoyed about our days, and I did.

You didn't tell me I had to write these letters to myself though, so I decided to write them to you.

It's been a whole month and this is my last letter.

My last letter to you.

You can do whatever you want with these letters, I don't care. You don't even have to read them all, you can toss them out, but I needed to write my feelings down or I would never be able to express them.

This past month has been the best month in my entire life. I loved every second of it with you, you made it so I was able to see that there is so much more in life than we think.

You've helped me more than anyone ever has, even the hospital. They sucked at their job, and I was going to give up until you came into my life. You came into my life when I needed you the most and you helped me.

You saved me.

I could continue to write you letters, but eventually I'm sure you'll get sick of them. I wrote one every day of this month for you, so I feel like I can stop now.

Thirty-one letters for you, you're welcome.

Think of this as a birthday present. Maybe I'll write letters to you every day of every December, but we'll see;)

Anyway, I hope these letters find you and I hope they can make you feel better. I wish I could've given them to you as soon after I wrote them but I didn't want you to think I was weird and stop being my friend.

Actually, to be honest, I wasn't planning on giving these letters to you at all. I never thought I would be sitting here writing this and planning on giving them to you afterwards.

I hope I can see you again one day my prickly Holly.

I miss you so very much.

If it's better for you to be gone then I can live with that, I just hope you stay safe and don't ever forget what I told you on Christmas Eve. Remember that.

My Holly, you're the most amazing girl I've ever met, and I hope one day you can see it. I hope one day you see yourself as everyone else sees you.

Beautiful. Magnificent. Amazing. And you don't need to be 'normal' to be liked. You're perfect just the way you are, even if you can't do the things everyone else can do.

You're beautiful. You're my beautiful Holly.

Don't EVER let anyone bring you down. Don't EVER listen to the hate people have to say about you.

I don't want this letter to be super long, and if I keep writing, then it will be:)

But, I just wanted you to know that I love you. I love you my beautiful Holly, and I always have. I fell in love with you the moment I opened that door to see your cute face all awkward and embarrassed to be on my front porch. Cheeks and nose pink from the cold morning air.

The way you looked in that moment, the way you kept rambling about nonsense before you got to the point to why you were knocking on my door, I fell in love with you. You are beautiful. You are wonderful.

I love you so very much.

I'm sorry I never told you before, I was scared. But now you're gone and I don't know when I'll see you again, so I need to tell you now.

I hope you have a wonderful new year, and I hope it's full of so much happiness and laughter and joy. I hope your life is as amazing as you want it to be, and I hope you get to live every single amazing dream of yours.

Open that bakery you want! I know you can do it, your desserts are amazing. I'll be the very first customer you get:))

I really should stop writing this letter now, it's getting too long.

I love you Holly. Always will.

You have an amazing year ahead of you, go do amazing things.

Ps. Give Polar a big kiss for me, and tell him I miss him! Cuddle him tight for me♡

Lots of love,

Your Bunny