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YUYAN sat cross-legged on her bed, pressing her lips together and fumbling with the hem of her shirt. She felt weird. The thought of Mark stealing her first kiss, without dating her for a second, left a bitter taste in her mouth.

This was not, what the twenty-year-old Chinese girl wanted. She wanted to go on cute dates, hold his hands, take Lovestagram pictures with her crush and show everyone on campus that she was the one, that stole Mark Lee's heart.

But here she was, feeling confused, after said boy stole her first kiss. She sighed. She didn't want to know how Renjun felt during this whole lunch date. She knew he asked her out on a date; as in a boy-meets-girl kinda date and not as friends because they were both Chinese.

Xiao Yuyan was't dumb. She was kinda stupid and oblivious, but she wasn't dumb. A sigh left her lips. „Renjun must have taken a lot of courage to ask me out", she sighed and laid down on her bed. She had kicked her phone far far away from her. She didn't want to see it or hear it. Mark proposition scared her.

Even if she liked him to the moon and back, sexting him without a relationship just seemed scary and wrong. She liked him—a lot. She really did, but she didn't want to be a notch in his bedpost. A sigh left her lips as she remembered the face of disgust Renjun had given her when they said goodbye.

She knew she fucked it up. She badly fucked it up. And if he didn't want to be her friend anymore, because of the douchbag behavior she put on, then she would understand. No one wants to be friends with a jerk. And Xiao Yuyan was the biggest jerk in the history of jerks.

She heard the pin code of the door being punched in and stood up from her bed, to greet Chunhei. Yuyan opened the door and saw Chunhei carry a massive picture frame into the flat. „What the heck?" Yuyan asked, rushing over to her best friend to help her carry the painting inside.

„Yuyan? You're already home?" Chunhei asked surprised and looked at the Chinese girl. „Was the date that bad?" The brunette lass asked and took off her cardigan and her tote bag. She turned to Yuyan. Her best friend was pale and her brown eyes seemed distant. Chunhei tilted her head. „What happened? Did he do something weird? Did he touch you without your consent?" The worry in Chunhei's voice made the guilt in Yuyan's body grow ten times bigger.

„No. Renjun was sweet. The sweetest and nicest human being I've ever seen", Yuyan bit her lip, „but I was a massive jerk. I invited Mark to eat hot pot with us." As Yuyan finished her sentence she saw Chunhei take a step back. „Say that again, Xiao Yuyan", she said—her voice sounding threatening.

Tears shot into Yuyan's eyes. „I asked Mark to come and eat with us. I got mad at Renjun for acting like a cock block on mine and Mark's date. I acted as if it was a date between me and Mark. I completely ignored Renjun." Yuyan looked at Chunhei. Her best friend was shaking her head. „After Renjun left, Mark stole my first kiss and asked me if I want to be his sexting partner." Yuyan finished her story—but Chunhei already looked disappointed and hurt.

„Are you serious, Yuyan?" She asked, her voice trembling. „How dumb can a person be? Huang Renjun clearly asked you out on a date because he was interested in you! And all you could think of is stupid Mark Lee!" Chunhei threw her arms in the air. „I can't believe you hurt an innocent person, that wanted to get to know you, because of your stupid childish crush on that notorious womanizer, Mark Lee!"

Yuyan angrily wiped the tears of her cheek. She knew that Chunhei's anger wasn't just because she was jealous. Seo Chunhei seemed overly disappointed in her best friends behavior.

Without a word Chunhei slipped back into her cardigan and took her tote bag. „Don't wait for me, Yuyan. I'll sleep with a friend of mine tonight." Chunhei slammed the door behind her and left Yuyan crying in their living room.

Yuyan grabbed the fabric over her chest and held tightly on to it, trying to calm down. Her heart was racing and the fear of making Chunhei mad was feeding the guilt in Yuyan's stomach. Why wasn't Chunhei on Yuyan's side? As her best friend, she should support her and comfort her... but Chunhei seemed genuinely mad at Yuyan for acting like a complete douchebag.

„Are you feeling better?" Lee Donghyuck asked, after cleaning the dishes in Renjun's dormitory. Renjun had taken a nap from this eventful afternoon and sighed, while cuddling onto his Moomin plushie. „To be honest, I don't know. I obviously got dumped by her... but a part of me wants to try again and try to win her heart... if that makes sense?"

„As much as I love you, Injun. I'd drop her. She was mean and invited this weird goalie to your date. I don't think you should fight for her." Renjun sighed. He knew Donghyuck was right. It wouldn't be okay to fight for someone who could easily cheat on him.

„It's just hard to love someone, who's already in love with someone else." - „I know, Injun. I know it's hard and it hurts knowing the girl you like is swooning over someone else. But it's not healthy. Let's not go down the same path you did in high school, okay?" Donghyuck sat down on the edge of Renjun's bed and patted his legs. „There are plenty of fish in the sea and I bet somewhere is a fish, that's just waiting for you." Renjun laughed and shook his head.

„Listen, Hyuck. I am really sorry for disturbing your date. I hope Noh Mira wasn't that mad at you." - „She was pretty chill. I haven't heard from her yet, but I bet she's still at the festival, having fun with the flowers." Donghyuck laughed. „Don't worry about Mira and I. I will always run to you, no matter where I am."

Renjun gagged. „Ew, that was way too cheesy, dude." Donghyuck laughed. „Now we have to find a way to un-love you", Donghyuck exclaimed. „Thankfully the crush on this Yuyan chick wasn't too big, so it'll be easier to un-crush you!" Donghyuck stood up. „I'm heading home, if that's fine by you." - „I'll be fine", Renjun smiled and Donghyuck walked over to the door. „If there's anything you need, you know—" - „You're just one call away. I know, Hyuck!"

The friends departed from one another and Renjun laid back in his bed. He pressed his Moomin tightly to his chest and sighed. It was obvious that Xiao Yuyan had a crush on Mark Lee. Renjun could see it in her eyes. She looked at him as if her life depended on it. Just like he was looking at Yuyan.

But Renjun also knew that Donghyuck was right. Where's the logic in keep liking someone, that could easily cheat on you? The Chinese lad sighed and looked at the ceiling. Un-loving someone... how'd you actually do that?

Sitting up, Renjun grabbed his phone and went to the only website, that could help him in finding answers: Google. „How to un-love someone?", he read, what he typed and gulped when the search machine found 3.4 million answers to his questions.

The first article Google showed was an article titled: 10 Effective Ways to un-love Someone Fast. Without any hesitation Renjun clicked on the article and started reading.

„Step 1: Assure yourself daily that there is no going back on your decision", Renjun read and nodded. This somehow made sense. Renjun looked over to his desk, where the pieces of the ripped painting he did of Yuyan was laying. He stood up, collected them and threw them away. There was no going back. It was time to move on.

Renjun looked back at his phone. „Step 2: Accept That Falling out of Love is a serious Affair", he read and tilted his head. „It was just a teeny-tiny crush anyways", he sighed and read the information the website gave him. „For it's better to push through into victory, albeit painfully, than to remain defeated as a result of heartbreak.", Renjun read and sighed. This will be the hardest part.

Trying to ban Yuyan from his thoughts, will be draining mentally and emotional energy. But Renjun knew it was the best way to move on. He had to push through, because it was worth the effort. The Chinese lad took a deep breath and nodded. „It's time to un-love you, Xiao Yuyan."