☘︎ | [ THE SINNER  ]
what are you,if not a sin
that's been sinned countless times ?

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THEY say mankind has certainly been taught by words and actions,yet it has most of all been taught by sin.

Sin was what had bound Lee Jaein's  life so it came to no surprise for her that she had been so eager to be drenched in the cold rain drops.Her eyes fixated on the plainly painted house she once could call her own .

The girl leaned against the cold, damp wall, her heart racing as she scanned the gate for any sign of her mother. Just as a familiar silhouette stepped out from the doorway, the rain cascading around her like a curtain.

The woman pulled the umbrella closer, shielding her face, yet even from a distance, the curve of her shoulders and the way she walked felt unmistakably familiar.Jaein knew with certainty that the figure before her was not just anyone—it was her mother, the one she had been longing for.

“If you're here to apologise, I can only get amused by how shameless you are,Lee Jaein” — The icy timbre of her voice sliced through the air like a winter wind, crisp and expansive. But the words, it seemed, were placed so achingly hollow,Jaein wished nothing but death.

“ Why don't you ever listen to me,Mother ? Is it that hard—?”

“ You killed someone if not by blood then soul Jaein,you let them crumble into pieces and killing has no justified reason,so please Lee Jaein.Get out of my sight,I beg you.”

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OPENING her eyes to a night bound by the silence with the cold tangling the breeze in a love song,she sighed. Why had memories been so vivid, what bad would it do to the universe if it didn't?

Lee Jaein crumbled the papers that marked the days before her supposed death, it's a malignant tumor in the heart,you have only a few months to live, the doctor said as if the woman didn't know already she was to wither, to crumble exactly how she let someone.

A silence accompanied her to figure out the mind which laid a heaviness she had certainly expected the sea she stood by to drown.

Now Jaein stood in Busan, somewhere she waited to figure out a piece of her mind.

By the seashore that was all too unfamiliar.

“ You seem so at peace when playing the violin.”

She remembers those words by someone now long gone, back then a smile tugging her lips. It was when she had as if held a smile like a stain on her face. For she was what one would call a planet, her eyes shining in every moment that felt like light .

But what reminscises her of the violin now is death. The violin strings long broken away just as the home she dared not enter.

Home to Jaein was a sacred place. A place within where the hearts could be at peace and Jaein in such words was homeless .

To her,home in what seemed true,was where lived a grieving woman and her husband who accompanied her, and there she was,the guilt ridden child and a past too closely captured to wonder.

She wondered if the city ever loved her and that was maybe the answer to why it had handled her into such a suffocating embrace .

Thus,Lee Jaein decided to run away, away to somewhere beside the sea where one would never see within her.Somewhere she could live carelessly.

And that was everything that's bound to happen ,wasn't  it ?.

AUTHOR'S NOTE / ☘︎ : Everyone finally the wait is over , tell me how you feel heh . I KNOW I was supposed to publish yesterday but I got surprisingly busy. It's short because it's the volume intro . Asking for your very forgiveness 🙏🏻.