Chapter 9 : Desperation
Third Person's P.O.V :-
The history of one certain Park and Kim family in Busan, go way back.
Many say that years ago, that certain Kim family was actually the outcast of the society but the Parks showed them mercy and tried to help them with giving shelter to them in their house.
Ever since then the Kims were very grateful and spent their lives serving under the Park family.
And that tradition is still carried on to the present time.
The current head of the family was a 71 years old woman.
The Grandmother of Park Jimin, better known as the clan mistress.
Taehyung restlessly twisted in his berth and turned towards his left to see Jimin watching something on his phone, his airpods plugged in and the light from the phone screen flashing on his focused face.
Taehyung smiled looking at the anxious look slowly growing on Jimin's face, he must be watching some horror film, Taehyung assumed.
But on the other hand...
Taehyung's eyes slowly trailed upwards towards the upper berth over Jimin and there he was, Jeon Jungkook.
He was fast asleep on his berth, Taehyung sighed in relief, that was probably the effect of his new medicines.
However what terrified Taehyung was that Jungkook was asleep in a position from where it was very easy for him to see Taehyung yet Jimin wouldn't see him.
He fell asleep while watching Taehyung sleep.
Taehyung started to feel uneasy somehow, if it was back in their house in Seoul, he would be at ease but in Busan, the clan mistress took notice of every single small thing.
With Jungkook's growing intimacies lately, Taehyung couldn't help but stress about the whole deal.
'I just hope this tea ceremony gets over soon' Taehyung mentally prayed as he looked up at Jungkook with the corner of his eyes,'Please don't do something while we're there, Jungkook' Taehyung silently pleaded.
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"Tae? Can you wake Jungkook up? I'll take all these luggages to the exit door" Jimin requested as he grabbed the bags and opened the door.
"Sure, be careful on your way" Taehyung called out as he watched Jimin's form disappear from their private compartment.
Taehyung sighed and turned towards Jungkook only to get scared when he saw Jungkook staring back at him intensely from his spot.
"Yo-you're awake, get up, we're getting down on the next station" Taehyung said as he watched Jungkook sit up from his position and get down.
"Jungkook?" Taehyung called while Jungkook was reaching out for his backpack.
Jungkook looked back at him silently, waiting for Taehyung to speak again.
"Please don't do something while we're here in front of anyone" Taehyung pleaded while nervously biting down on his lips.
Jungkook stared at him for a few moments before speaking,"But what do I get in return?" He asked sternly.
"Wha-what?" Taehyung shuttered at Jungkook's question.
"You can't call it a negotiation unless both sides benefit from it" Jungkook whispered and smiled joyously as if he had Taehyung, exactly where he wanted,"So what do I get in return?"
Taehyung hated being in situations like these but he was at Busan now with the threat of the clan mistress finding out everything dancing in the back of his neck.
He wouldn't be able to live with himself if someone found out about his and Jungkook's relationship.
So Taehyung did the only thing he could think of.
"Whatever you'll want.." He whispered gulping the lump in his throat,"I'll do it, just don't do something in front of anyone, please" He begged looking up at Jungkook with pleading eyes.
"Alright, then" Jungkook said swinging his backpack over the shoulder and turning to face Taehyung fully,"Meet me tonight" He uttered, his tone influenced by hints of happiness.
Taehyung exhaled a deep breath, thousands of bad possible outcomes running through his mind.
He had no idea how to response to that request of Jungkook, he knew he wouldn't take the risk of sneaking into Jungkook's room while they were staying in the clan house.
That's it, Taehyung wanted to say no, he wanted to decline but one look at Jungkook face and he knew that Jungkook would behave recklessly if he said no.
"Ok-okay" Taehyung whispered in a defeated voice.
Soon both of them heard the announcement of the train approaching Busan and stepped outside the door to join Jimin beside the exit.
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"Finally, we're here!" Jimin said excitedly as he stood in front of the big wooden doors of his house and turned towards Taehyung,"Taehyung, aren't you excited to meet your family?" He asked, pumped up to the core.
Taehyung smiled thinking that he'd finally meet his family after almost 9 months,"Yes!" He said, almost a little overwhelmed.
Jimin was about to press the doorbell but he stopped in his tracks and turned towards Jungkook,"Kookie, my grandma is a bit strict, so if she behaves a little harshly, don't feel bad, yeah?" He requested, gently.
Jungkook gave a positive nod and Jimin turned around to finally press the doorbell.
Within moments the door opened and a lady in her early forties peeped out.
"Mom!" Taehyung greeted happily as he ran forward to engulf her in a bone crushing hug.
Taehyung's mother laughed a bit and hugged Taehyung back,"Oh my, you've grown taller, Tae, how have you been, sweetie?" She asked as she leaned away from Taehyung.
"I missed you, Mom" Taehyung answered sincerely as he felt himself getting emotional in her embrace.
"I missed you too, sweetie" She said and looked behind him to see Jimin and an unknown boy standing there with luggages.
"Young master, I hope your journey was pleasant" Taehyung's mother greeted Jimin.
"Mrs. Kim, you can just call me, Jimin" Jimin said blushing a little at the nickname,"And this is the friend, I talked about" He stated gesturing towards Jungkook.
"Ahh, hope you enjoy your stay here" Mrs. Kim smiled warmly at Jungkook and stepped back to look at both Taehyung and Jimin,"You guys should go and greet, Mistress, now, she's waiting for you" She said.
"Yes" Jimin and Taehyung said as Mrs. Kim led them towards the meeting room of the Clan mistress, Park Jihye.
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"Jimin, my dear grandson" Jihye greeted as the door slid open and the three of them entered.
"How have you been, grandma? It's been a while" Jimin asked as he sat down on his knees in front of her.
"It certainly has" Jihye acknowledged and turned to look at Taehyung who sat a bit behind Jimin, hands neatly folded in his lap his his head bowed down to face the floor.
"Park Taehyung" Jihye uttered and Taehyung flinched in his spot.
"Yes, Mistress?" He asked out, his voice was low and obedient.
"Have you been taking care of my grandson well during his stay in Seoul?" Jihye asked in a strict tone.
"I've been trying my best to please Young Master with everything I've got, Mistress, his well-being is my utmost priority" Taehyung whispered in a formal tone, still facing the ground obediently.
"Very well then" Jihye whispered in a pleased tone as her eyes fell over Jungkook,"Are you perhaps that friend Jimin told me about?" She asked, her eyes already judging him.
Jungkook gave a curt nod in answer, his face emotionless as he faced Jihye's judging eyes head on.
"Not much of a speaker? It's very unusual for Jimin to make such friends but I guess the time is changing" Jihye stated and turned to Jimin.
"It was a hustle coming here, wasn't it, Jimin? Why don't you go relax in your room while someone shows your friend his room in the guest quarter?" Jihye asked.
"Yeah that'll be great, Grandma, but I was wondering if my friend could stay with me, actually it's his first time out of Seoul" Jimin requested.
Jihye rose a questioning brow,"That's really unfortunate, well, then, I think, your friend should learn to live on his own while he stays here, we can't possibly separate a couple, now can we, Jimin?" She asked making Jimin hesitantly nod.
"Well, then, Minjun, escort Jimin to his bedroom and please show our guest his living quarters while I have a private chat with dear Taehyung here" Jihye said, indicating to the servant that was quietly sitting in the corner all this time.
Both Jimin and Jungkook were a little bit hesitate to leave Taehyung alone with Park Jihye but eventually they had to leave.
"Park Taehyung" Jihye spoke sternly.
"Yes, Mistress" Taehyung answered immediately.
"Who is this friend of Jimin? Is it the same person for whom Jimin came out to us as an homosexual male and refused to marry any woman from a reputed family?" Jihye asked, her voice strict and merciless.
'Yes..' Taehyung mentally thought,'That's exactly who he is'
If Taehyung wished, he could have removed Jungkook from his and Jimin's lives then and there with a simple 'yes' but he didn't.
Call him a fool for this but he believed that Jungkook needed to get better, of course, Jungkook's past traumas had nothing to do with him but Taehyung watched Jungkook when his mental health was in shatters.
Taehyung watched Jungkook at his lowest point and genuinely felt sorry for the boy, that's why he considered Jungkook's health more or less his responsibility.
And he would continue to care for the boy until the day Jungkook was good enough to function without his medicines.
"No, Mistress, he is just a close friend of Jimin who wished to tag along with us" Taehyung effortlessly lied through his mouth.
"Hmm, very well then" Jihye mused as she leaned back in her spot,"Taehyung, you know Jimin is my dearest grandson, right?" Jihye questioned.
"Yes, Mistress" Taehyung responded.
"To be honest with you, it was simply very disappointing to me that Jimin wouldn't be able give me a successor since he doesn't like girls" Jihye spoke as she sighed.
"He refused to marry any boy from a reputed clan that we chose for him as well, he was a really a difficult child to handle, refusing to marry and insistent over going to Seoul and living there instead" Jihye continued as Taehyung listened in a docile manner.
"Randomly declared that he was in love with another boy and pointed at you" Jihye stated and stared at Taehyung,"But we both know it wasn't you, right?"
"Yes, Mistress" Taehyung answered.
"Nonetheless both of you got paired up, actually I considered it good that he married you, who was raised in this house, knows how things work around here, rather than some lowly scum from the streets" Jihye said as she dragged out the tea tray from beside her and started to make herself some green tea while Taehyung kept on sitting in front of motionlessly.
"You're keeping him happy right?" Jihye asked as she glanced at Taehyung from the corner of her eyes,"Physically, I meant"
Taehyung flinched at that question.
Jihye glared at him,"You're not?!" She shrieked making Taehyung winced at the disgust in her voice.
"Park Taehyung, I gave you one job when you left to Seoul with Jimin and that was keep him happy in every way possible!" Jihye yelled as she hastily got up from her seat.
"I-I'm so so-sorry, Mistress, I-" Taehyung started to beg for forgiveness as he placed his head on Jihye's feet.
"My goodness! What were you thinking?! If you don't extinguish his physical needs it's obvious that he's gonna find that lowly boy again and replace you!" Jihye yelled, deeply let down by Taehyung.
"Don't tell me you're still a virgin" Jihye sighed as she massaged her templates.
Now Taehyung did use some toys on himself while he was in Seoul because there was no other way for him to sexually relieve himself other than jerking off.
But he never actually lost his virginity to someone.
But he knew telling that to Jihye would only anger her further so he decided to lie about that as well.
"I-...I'm not" Taehyung whimpered out from his position.
"Well, then, that's one good news" Jihye sighed and stepped away from Taehyung when an alarm on Taehyung's phone started to go off.
It was time to give Jungkook his nighttime medicines.
"What's that?" Jihye questioned immediately.
"It's m-my alarm, Mistress, la-lately Young Master has been needing a back massage before going to sleep, so I have set an alarm because he never really asks for it" Taehyung lied again.
He knew Jihye would grow suspicious if he said he needed to check up on Jungkook's medicine records and hoped Jimin wouldn't mind that Taehyung used his name.
"Oh? Is that so?" Jihye asked, her frown resolving into a pleased face,"Glad to see you're thoughtful and responsible, you may go now" She dismissed him quickly.
"Tha-thank you, Mistress" Taehyung bowed down again with quivering breaths and slowly stood up on his numb and wobbly legs and quietly left the meeting room.
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Currently, Taehyung was running towards the guest quarters in the dark, his feet coming in contact with the fresh grass and dirt as he did, the wind had picked up pace.
A storm was about to happen.
Thankfully there was no staff around the guest quarters with only one room lit up, making it easier for Taehyung.
The sliding doors of the front porch were opened making it easier for Taehyung to get in without having to go through the main entrance.
Taehyung quickly hopped onto the porch and rushed inside only to see Jungkook crouched down at one corner, carefully going through his stuffs in the suitcase.
Taehyung sighed in relief as he close his eyes and leaned forward to take desperate breaths with his hands resting on either sides of his waist.
"So you came?" Jungkook whispered as he finally pulled out his medicine box and looked up at Taehyung.
Taehyung stared at him for a few moments before he went and sat down beside Jungkook,"Of course, I had to come, who would arrange and keep track of your medicines otherwise?" He whispered, a pout adorning his lips as he took the box of medicine from Jungkook's hand and started to look through it.
"They didn't give you a fancy robe to wear?" Jungkook asked as he watched Taehyung carefully pulling out the correct medicines.
"It's probably sitting in Jimin's bedroom" Taehyung nonchalantly whispered and suddenly froze in his spot.
He slowly looked up to see Jungkook staring at him with a serious gaze,"You two will be sharing a room together?" Jungkook asked, face unreadable.
"Ye-yeah, we're married, we ha-have to share a ro-room" Taehyung shuttered staring at the medicine box waiting for Jungkook's response.
But he was only met with silence and Jungkook's silence was never a good thing.
"Here's the medicine" Taehyung softly mumbled under his breath, handing out the medicines as he reached out for the water bottle sitting over the table.
"Here" Pouring some water into a glass, Taehyung handed it to Jungkook while the other wordlessly took it.
Taehyung watched as Jungkook slowly put one pill into his mouth and tilted his head back to gulp some water, his eyes strained on Taehyung's face, not moving as he proceeded to do the same with the other medicines.
Apprehensively, Taehyung tore off his gaze and looked away from Jungkook,"I'll be leaving then" He said and got up only to be stopped by Jungkook in midway.
"Don't you remember you promised to meet me tonight? Why are you leaving?" Jungkook asked, his eyes bright and deep, almost staring at Taehyung's soul.
"I.." Taehyung trailed off as Jungkook stood up from his spot to stand in front of him.
"I'm not done with you" Jungkook said and yanked Taehyung forward till he was flushed against his chest.
"Jun-Jungkook.." Taehyung whispered nervously as Jungkook's arms wrapped around him, bringing him closer.
"Taehyung.." Jungkook mumbled his name in his ear as he flipped themselves over, now caging Taehyung on the wall of the room.
Taehyung shuddered as he felt Jungkook nuzzling his nose in the crook of his neck, warm breath ghosting over his collarbones.
"You unknowingly hurt me so much, Taehyung" Jungkook whispered as his hold grew tighter around Taehyung,"I just want you to love me for once, even if you're pretending, just for once" He said, almost like he was praying.
"Jungkook.." Taehyung tried to speak, tried to explain that he couldn't do what Jungkook wanted from him, that it was impossible for him but got cut off before he could even speak.
"You don't even smile at me anymore" Jungkook lamented,"Don't you realize how crazy I am when it comes to you, Taehyung, ever since I saw you that day" He said and lean back to stare at Taehyung's eyes.
"Thoughts of you have been driving me crazy" Jungkook said, almost on the verge of tears,"And I wanna have you in every possible way, so you can't just leave after making me like this" He accused Taehyung.
"Take responsibility for what you have done to me" He whispered as a tear slipped past his eyes.
Taehyung sniffed and looked down,"Do you think I'm doing it on purpose?" He whispered and looked up again,"I didn't mean to make you feel this way, I never intended, Jungkook, I'm a married man, I-I can't-" Taehyung cut himself off to inhale a deep breath.
"I don't wanna hear any of it! I just wanna be with you, can't you leave Jimin for me? I care about you more, Taehyung, I-I love you" Jungkook stated, tears streaming down his face.
Taehyung softly cupped Jungkook's face and looked up at him with tearful eyes and and bittersweet smile,"I'm sorry, Jungkook" He whispered and tried to smile.
"I-I can't le-let go you, Tae-Taehyung" Jungkook shuttered as his lower lip started to tremble.
"I'm so sorry" Taehyung kept on apologizing as Jungkook slowly leaned in and started crying on his shoulder.
After a few minutes, both of them were still in that same exact position, a dazed look over both of their faces.
"I just wanna be with you" Jungkook whispered finally breaking the silence as he placed a light kiss on Taehyung's neck.
Leaning back he looked at Taehyung before divine in for a kiss.
Taehyung didn't resist, he felt guilty for Jungkook's condition, this was the least he could do to grant Jungkook some comfort.
Or was he leading the poor boy on? Taehyung no longer had any idea about that situation.
Both of them part ways when they heard the loud sound of thunder outside.
"The rain is about to start, I have to leave" Taehyung whispered in a rush wanting to run back to Jimin's room before anyone could catch him outside the guest quarters.
"Stay with me, I'm scared all by myself" Jungkook insisted as he refused to let go of Taehyung.
Taehyung looked back at Jungkook with a pleading look,"I can't, I have to go" He said, slowly starting to panic.
"It hurts, Taehyung" Jungkook said giving a sad smile,"You wouldn't understand how I feel right now, you'd never understand" He mumbled and stepped back a little.
"I wish you were mine, I can only wish you were mine" Jungkook said weakly before he turned around and rushed inside the quarter.
Taehyung gulped the dry lump in his throat as his heart felt heavy with guilt.
It was getting late and Jimin must be worried about him.
With a lingering glance at the direction Jungkook disappeared off to, Taehyung jumped out of the porch and started running towards the direction he knew Jimin's room was located at.
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