Third Person's P.O.V :-

"Do you have a purpose?" Jungkook asked out as he looked up from the sketch book where he was dooling random patterns and designs.

"A purpose?" Taehyung questioned back, his eyes which were focused on the sketch book up until now flickered up to Jungkook's face,"Why are you suddenly asking that?" He asked as he stared at his lover, sitting on the hospital bed with broken ribs.

"Namjoon hyung told me purpose is what keeps a person alive, so I was wondering what your purpose was" Jungkook answered, providing more context into the conversation.

Taehyung just looked back at Jungkook and smiled. Indeed, a person needed a purpose to be alive and Taehyung was handed his purpose as soon as he came of the age to understand, five years old to be exact. It was drilled into his brain that he was supposed to be Jimin's Aide and help him run the family business when Jimin eventually inherited the title of the Clan Master and stay with him for life. He was supposed to be like Minjun, who stuck by the clan mistress's side like a loyal dog.

Later that purpose was modified and he was supposed to take care of Jimin's needs all his life as his husband while simultaneously keeping his duties as the future Clan Aide in his mind.

But here he was, sitting in the hospital room with Jungkook.

He had lost all of his rights to even step back inside the clan house anymore and tomorrow his divorce proceedings would start.

He had lost all of his purpose. He was nothing but a hopeless individual who kept on living because he couldn't die. A sense of failure had consumed him while he kept on flashing a sweet smile towards Jungkook's direction.

"I guess taking care of you now is my only purpose" He uttered while his hands rested on his lap, gripping each other tightly.

A slight blush appeared on Jungkook's face as he stared down at his sketchbook again and smiled,"It makes me happy to hear that, Taehyung" He said before pressing his lips together, wondering how he should convey the next few words that he wanted to say.

"I gave a similar answer a while ago when Namjoon hyung asked me what my purpose was" He softly whispered as he doodled a butterfly,"I said I just wanted to be with you but Namjoon hyung said we shouldn't limit ourselves to a person, I wanted to let you know that, because I know your purpose used to be Jimin and now you're making me your purpose" He added and looked up to observed Taehyung, who had a shocked expression on his face.

"I know it sounds rich coming from me but Namjoon hyung is a great doctor and even if it has been less than a week, I do feel hopeful about recovering that's why I try to take his advice to the heart" He stated, looking at Taehyung's face with a gentle gaze,"It makes me very happy to know that right now I'm your purpose but I think it'll make me happier if you had a greater purpose in life and amidst working towards that purpose you still chose to love me" He voiced out nervously.

Jungkook would be lying if he said he wasn't a bit afraid of Taehyung finding another purpose and forgetting about him. In the back of his mind, that's what he dreaded the most but he had been observing Taehyung for a week now and he looked anything but happy.

Sure, he smiled, hugged and kissed him but none of them were genuine, it was as if he was following directions. Up until now Jungkook thought it was because Taehyung felt lonely and alone in someone else's house but that melancholy lingered even when the two of them were together.

It frustrated Jungkook, he was starting to think Taehyung was slowly regretting choosing him until he had a conversation with Namjoon the previous night where the psychologist had let him know that instead of it being regret it could be the guilt swirling inside Taehyung. He might still be mourning the loss he had just experienced. It hadn't even been a week since then, Namjoon had asked Jungkook to be understanding towards Taehyung and offer him some space to cope first.

"You're hurt, I know you're hurt. Up until yesterday, I thought I could love you with all my heart and heal you but I realised that my love can only be as effective as a band aid and your wound is something that requires professional help" He uttered and forlornly watched Taehyung's eyes turn glassy.

"Jungkook..I.." Taehyung began, not knowing what he even wanted to convey,"It's..It's not like that, I'm fi-fine, really" He choked out and blinked back his tears.

"Just one session!" Jungkook urged desperately before deflating a bit, his eyes flashed a sense of emergency,"Just please go talk to Namjoon hyung one time, that's all I ask for..!" He whimpered and reached out his hand, silently begging Taehyung to take his hand within his own.

Taehyung saw the gesture and slowly reached out, intertwining their fingers together, he looked back up at Jungkook with his blurry vision,"Al..alright..I'll try to get in touch with Dr. Kim Namjoon  before I leave today" He softly whispered and tried to smile up at his lover.

Jungkook let out a shuddering breath and leaned down to kiss their intertwined hands,"Thank you.." He whispered as a tear escaped from his eyes,"Than-thank you so much..!" He uttered out with a struggle and tried to smile down at Taehyung.

Taehyung caressed Jungkook's hand which was already in his hold and tried his best to mirror Jungkook's expression to ease the atmosphere. Jungkook saw the attempted smile and tugged Taehyung's hand forward, silently asking him to come closer.

Taehyung caught on and got up from his seat. Jungkook brought their intertwined hands closer to his face and nuzzled into it,"Taehyung, lie down beside me, please? I won't do anything I promise, I just want to hold you close" He whispered while looking up at Taehyung with his big doe eyes, a little pout resting on his lips, unknown to his own knowledge.

Taehyung's other hand came up to softly cup Jungkook's face and caressed the cheek with his thumb,"Of course.." He slowly trailed off as he lowered his gaze and carefully dipped his knee on the hospital bed. Getting up on it, he looked at Jungkook for further directions, the later, in answer, just scooted back a little and patted the space beside him, indicating for Taehyung to sit there.

Wordlessly, Taehyung settled down on the desired spot and glanced at Jungkook for further directions.

Jungkook flashed him one of his bunny smiles and leaned in closer to rest his head on Taehyung's shoulder, sighing in content when no protests or any resistance came from Taehyung.

"I know you said that you wanted to wait a month to answer me properly but I'm a bit impatient and I want to move to nickname basis" He began and glanced up at Taehyung from his shoulder,"Can we please do that?" He requested sincerely, his thumb gently caressing Taehyung's knuckles.

"Nickname?" Taehyung asked as he looked at their feet which were slightly touching.

Jungkook nodded, now also, looking at their feet,"I can call you Tae and you can call me 'Jungkookie', 'Kookie', 'Jungkoo', anything" He suggested the different name ideas before a smile bloomed on his lips and he slowly pushed Taehyung back to lie down on the pillow and rested his own head on Taehyung's chest, snuggling close to him,"Or we can start off a little risky too, you can call me 'baby' too, I don't mind" He chirped the new idea and grinned like a child.

Taehyung wanted to stay focused on the topic but Jungkook's silly grin won him over and he found himself laughing slightly,"That is a wide variety of nicknames but I think I know what I want to call you" He whispered as his other hand came up to play with Jungkook's hair which have gotten a lot longer than it was roughly two weeks ago.

"Really? What is it?" Jungkook asked eagerly as he beamed up at Taehyung.

Taehyung softly pressed his finger bud against Jungkook's round nose which cutely crunched up at the touch and his bunny smile came back out in full display,"Koo" Taehyung whispered with a small smile,"Do you like it?" He inquired.

Jungkook settled his head more comfortably on Taehyung's chest and wrapped his arm around the other's waist,"I do, can you talk to me while using that nickname please?" He requested, just soaking in the comfort of being with the love of his life.

Taehyung took a few moments to think about it, wondering what he could say until the conversation he had earlier emerged in his mind again.

"What is your purpose, Koo? Have you found it?" He asked, not expecting anything in return.

Taehyung was honestly expecting Jungkook to say he was still looking for it so his shock is understandable when he heard the next few words that Jungkook uttered.

"I have" Jungkook hummed from Taehyung's torso, his ear pressed against the other's chest, listening to his heartbeat,"I want to go to college" He answered, wrapping one of his legs over Taehyung's knee which was the closest to him.

"Co-college?" Taehyung asked as he looked down at Jungkook snuggling on his chest, a little startled,"Why do you suddenly want to go to college? What brought this one?" He questioned.

"I realized I've always wanted to go" Jungkook whispered,"Before this entire thing with my father took place, I wanted to sit for college entrance test, get into a good college, graduate with a good degree and get a job, just really average things" He mushed out, the words were coming out easier this time around after confessing it to Namjoon earlier.

"But those average things were a big deal to me, I wanted to be independent and take my mom out of the slums, live in a good neighborhood, give her proper medical assistance but as you know it all kinda went downhill.." He said, snuggling a little closer, as if trying to hide himself within Taehyung.

"But I have you now, I know I have caused you all sorts of problems until now but I wish to be someone you can rely on, I don't want to stay in other people's houses our entire lives that's why after I put my father in jail, I want to go to college and study psychology" He said firmly, more to himself rather than Taehyung, as if strengthening his resolve.

"Psychology?" Taehyung asked out, once again rendered speechless by Jungkook's revelations,"I thought you'd choose a subject like art or literature" He faintly trailed off, feeling very uncertain. Jungkook was suddenly looking like a person he didn't know at all.

"I thought so too but Namjoon hyung said it would be beneficial to study psychology, that he'd help me study it and there are many job opportunities as well" Jungkook replied and looked up at Taehyung.

"Tae, I have decided, after I'm done with the litigation, I'll sit for CSAT, get into a good college, major in psychology, study to become a psychiatrist, I'll do an internship under Namjoon hyung and become independent" He spoke with determination,"I'll work hard to live up to my words, I can't wait around anymore, I want to get better and actively run towards my future, my future which includes you" He whispered the last part and leaned closer to Taehyung's face.

"You'll be with me throughout this, right, Tae? I'll be able to do all this, right? Please reassure me, I'm really nervous" He voiced out a little shakily, visibly anxious at the prospect of all the things he needed to do.

In answer, Taehyung just pulled him close by the nape and hugged him, rubbing soothing circles on his back,"You'll be able to do it, you're very strong, I trust you so trust yourself as well" He whispered as he stared at the wall on the other side of the room in a daze.

He was happy for Jungkook, happy that Jungkook knew what he wanted to do in life but somewhere in his heart, he was a bit envious. He wished he knew what he wanted to do as well.

No matter how hard he tried all he ever felt was emptiness. He had no purpose. He was just...living.
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Jin returned from the kitchen holding two cups of coffee and extended one out to Jimin, who had been sitting on the couch while just staring down at the floor a daze.

"Jimin" Jin called out, getting the other's attention and gesturing towards the extended cup, indicating for him to take it.

"O-oh, thanks, hyung, sorry for troubling you like this" Jimin quickly took the cup from Jin's hand with both of his hands and bowed a little as a token of thanks.

Jin just shrugged,"Don't apologize, it was Yoongi's idea anyway, besides I always make a lot of coffee so that's not a problem as well" He said as he sat down beside Jimin and sipped on his drink while Jimin just chose to silently nurse his cup.

Jin waited for a few moments but when the silence only prolonged further, he glanced at Jimin from the corner of his eyes, wondering why the other wasn't opening up yet.

"So.." Reluctantly, Jin began the conversation himself,"What are you nervous about?" He asked the question a bit awkwardly, being an introvert, having heart to heart conversation, at his age seemed a bit awkward to him.

Jimin looked at his reflection reflecting on the surface of the Americano and sighed,"I'm not nervous, hyung, I wanted to call off the divorce" He whispered, making Jin choke in the middle of sipping his coffee.

"What?!" He called out with wide eyes as he looked at Jimin,"Come again?!" He asked while wiping the corner of his mouth with the back of his sleeves.

Jimin finally looked towards Jin, his face still as sad as ever,"I stayed away from him for a week but I only missed him harder, it got so bad that I had to drink every hour of the day just to keep his thoughts away from my mind, I got angry at Yoongi hyung for telling me off earlier but he's right, I had indeed made a mess out of myself" He trailed off in a low voice.

Jin listened to Jimin's words and leaned back on the couch,"That damn Yoongi, he took you to the wrong person" Jin sighed out as he stared at the ceiling.

Jimin perked up at those words and looked over at Jin,"What do you mean?" He asked, now slowly bringing the coffee close to his lips to take a sip.

Jin rolled his head to the side and stared at him,"I never loved my wife, I never felt anything for her except duties and liabilities so I'm seriously not the person who's eligible to give you advice, Jimin" He answered nonchalantly and leaned away from the couch to drink his coffee.

Jimin stared at Jin's side profile with a conflicted expression, Jin's words sounded similar to Taehyung's situation.

"Did she love you?" Jimin found himself asking in spite of not wanting to go down that route. He knew he'd get emotional again if he delved too deep into it but still he couldn't stop himself.

Jin smiled at the question and shook his head,"I had a feeling you'd ask" He said and looked at Jimin,"She did, a lot, unfortunately" He answered and took another sip of his drink.

Jimin's gut started to tighten up,"So if she loved you then couldn't you love her back?" He asked, his eyes getting a bit teary, helpless yet again as he related his own situation with Jin's wife.

"I just had goosebumps all over my skin" Jin said as he showed his arm to Jimin,"It's the same exact question she asked me a few months before divorce" He answered and retrieved his arm.

"I tried to but I couldn't...and that's something for which I will forever remain in guilt in front of her, my marriage, it wasn't out of love you see? I grew up poor and I absolutely hated it, ever since I was a kid I wanted to be rich so that was what I focused on all my life, good grades, good character report, good college, good degree, a good job and building my career these were my priorities" Jin trailed off as he looked at the marvel floor and kept on sipping his drink.

"As soon as I got to a stable rank at the office, my parents started to pressure me to get married and start a family, I didn't give it too much thought and just started to date Sooha, my ex wife, we hit it off well on the first date and after a few months' dating, decided to get married, though that was just the beginning of the disaster" Jin chuckled as he thought about the tragedy of his life.

"Soon after the marriage, she realised that I wasn't even half as romantic as she had expected and instead only just a workaholic who married because he was told to and everything just started to go downhill from then on" Jin sighed and rubbed his head, recalling old memories only gave him a headache.

"Everyday I'd come back from work with my brain fried and eyes aching and she would demand for flowers or dates or quality time whilst all I ever wanted to do was just collapse on my bed, she started suspecting me for cheating, went through my phone, followed me to my work, barge in during lunch break, ah it was hell, I remember I started to get so annoyed with her, we used to constantly argue to the point where I started to ignore her, we both avoided each other, separate sleep schedules, separate food, separate rooms, you know the drill" Jin shrugged and took another sip.

"I don't know how after all that she reached this conclusion but one day she suddenly suggested trying for a baby to fix the marriage, I, of course, wanting to fix my broken marriage agreed to it, besides, my parents were starting to demand a grandchild by now so all was good I guess but it didn't fix anything at all, instead it ruined the least few remaining attachment we had in the marriage as well" He sighed and rubbed his face.

"Her pregnancy was hard and I was always so absent, she almost had a miscarriage twice and I was out of town each time, even one time when she had complications I wasn't able to meet her for weeks due to work, it's so easy to understand why she'd start resenting me, her mood swings didn't help the case as well, I wasn't even half as aware about pregnancies as I am right now, I thought she was making a big deal out of everything, really I was such an asshole, even to this day I keep on apologizing to her, I don't even want to be forgiven anymore, I just want her to know that I truly regret doing that" He uttered and sighed, getting up from his spot.

Jimin saw Jin getting up and swiftly followed him towards the kitchen, already interested in his Jin hyung's story,"What happened then?" He softly asked as he watched Jin putting the cups down in the sink and starting to wash them.

Jin smiled while he was scrubbing the mugs,"Then? Then I became a dad, I met my darling, Sujin-ah and suddenly I had all the time in the world to spare for my daughter, I think that's the time Sooha resented me the most, she started saying that if she hadn't gone through it all and avoided those miscarriages I would have never had Sujin, said I don't deserve to be a father and cursed me out, it was another difficult time in my life, all I wanted to do was make money and play with my daughter but the atmosphere at home was really toxic, I was starting to consider a divorce" He said, putting the cups back in their rightful places.

"Expectations, Jimin, they can leave a gaping hole open in your heart when they don't get fulfilled, it makes or breaks marriages, well, at least it broke mine in my case" He whispered and turned back to face Jimin as he leaned back on the kitchen counter.

"Why didn't you try to fulfill her expectations?" Jimin found himself asking.

"She wanted to be loved and cherished and I never felt anything towards her" Jin sighed out his answer,"She wanted thrills and romance and I kept on showering her with money and luxuries, she didn't like that one bit" He chuckled as he recalled the past,"How do I force myself to feel a certain sort of way towards someone at will? I don't think I have that much control over my feelings, Jimin, it's not even that she's a bad person, circumstances made her behave that way but I still couldn't bring myself to feel the sort of way she wanted me to feel" He whispered playing with the beads on his wristband.

"Hyung, you like Dr. Kim Namjoon now, right? Perhaps was that the reason you couldn't like your wife?" Jimin asked softly.

"As a bisexual, I have realised I like men a little bit more than women now but it wasn't the reason for my broken marriage because I met Namjoon way after my divorce, so the broken marriage was simply because a lot of other issues were involved other than the feelings one" Jin uttered and looked up.

"All I can tell you is that life is too short to keep on delving in the past and trying to make one thing work that is clearly not working out, my marriage experience was so bad that I don't think I ever want to get married anymore" He laughed heartily,"One time was enough, damn, no more of that, I'm open to date though but I think I'm plenty happy on my own" He whispered and looked at his colleague.

"And I think that's important before you try to fulfill any role in any relationship, to be satisfied with yourself, to be whole on your own, to know that things will work out, to be a little hopeful, I personally think hope keeps us alive" He says as he walked forward and encouragingly slapped Jimin's shoulder,"Let's go talk in the living room again" He said walking past him.

"So the divorce didn't faze you at all?" Jimin asked as they were making their way out of the kitchen.

"No, it did, I felt horrible for what I did to Sooha, worse than a scum but Sujin-ah made me feel better, up until that point I felt disconnected to everybody, instead of love I felt liabilities and duties but after Sujin came into my life, I finally felt like I have truly come to love her as my daughter, looking at her face I had the courage to keep on going, to shoulder all the guilt in the world and pull through it, because I was her dad and I wanted to be the superhero that she could rely on, she made me wanna be better and not repeat what I had done to her mom to anyone else, I tried seeking out professional help for my detachment issues and that's where I met Namjoon" Jin said and looked back at Jimin to playfully wink at him.

"I came a full circle, didn't I?" He grinned and slumped back down on the couch,"Ah recalling past is so hard~" He softly whined with his eyes closed.

Jimin towered over Jin as he watched his colleague relaxing and felt his gut tightening up more,"What about her? What happened to miss Sooha? You found Dr. Kim Namjoon but what about her?" He asked in a tight tone.

Jin sensed the hints of hostility in Jimin's tone and opened his eyes to look up at him,"It was harder on her than it was on me, that's for certain, unlike me who only shouldered a sense of guilt, she had a broken heart, abandonment and self-esteem issues, along with the accusations of a broken marriage and the pressure of being a full time single mother, our society is really not lenient on divorced women" He said while staring up at the ceiling again.

"Right here, on this couch, we sat and had a talk. Both of us had signed the divorce papers the previous night, the next day we just sat here and had a conversation, really, I said I was sorry about everything, said I could have tried to be there for her a bit more, could have tried to be a bit more understanding and she said she regretted not offering me more space to fall in love with her in my own pace, we tried to be open and mature about it as we resolved our issues and finalized the terms of the divorce, we knew we had to move past from our conflicts since we both planned on having joined custody and co-parenting Sujin and so we did what was necessary" He said simply.

"Soon the divorce proceedings were over and we continued to stay in touch as two responsible parents and two friends" Jin said and glanced back up at Jimin who was still staring down at him with his lips tightly pressed together.

Jin chuckled,"About about her love life, she took a few months after the divorce to focus on herself and heal from the trauma and after that she seemed happier, recently she let me know that she has even found somebody who she potentially sees as her future husband, we've been discussing when it would be the right time to insert him into Sujin's life, so I think she's happy right now" He said and smiled.

"It works out, Jimin, one thing might seem like it's the end of the world and possibly the worst thing you've ever experienced but it passes and in the future you'll laugh about it someday, so don't feel down, it'll be alright" Jin encouraged as he took Jimin's hand in his own and caressed it, hoping to give Jimin a bit of comfort.

Jimin's eyes started to burn up a little as he sniffed a bit,"What if I say I feel like I'm suffocating without him?" He whispered as he desperately looked at Jin for solutions.

Jin stared at Jimin's emotional face for a bit, wondering if his colleague would be able to take on his next few words before sighing and going for it anyway,"It might be because I've been hanging out with Namjoon too much but if a person's absence makes you feel like you're suffocating then chances are you've never really breathed on your own to begin with" He stated and caressed Jimin's knuckles,"I wish you'd be a bit kinder to yourself, Jimin, I truly wish for you to be in peace one day, me, Yoongi, Hoseok, everyone is rooting for you, we believe in you so don't give up" He encouraged and softly smiled at Jimin.

Jimin stood there while a drop of tear rolled down his cheek, this time, out of endearment rather than pain,"Thank you, hyung" He whispered groggily.
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Knock! Knock!

Namjoon looked up from his computer screen when he heard the sounds of knocking,"Yes?" He called out attentively.

"It's me, Dr. Kim, Park Taehyung, Jeon Jungkook's caretaker from private room number 1997, may I come in?" Taehyung's voice flowed in through the side of the ajar door.

Namjoon's eyes lit up as he remembered Jungkook asking him last night if Taehyung could talk to him for a few minutes the next day,"Ah yes, Taehyung-ssi, please come in" He answered, his pleasant smile back on his face as he waited for Taehyung to come in.

The door swung open wider and Taehyung entered the office, a hesitant smile on his face as he closed the door behind him and approached the chair across from Namjoon, where the psychiatrist was gesturing for him to sit.

"Good afternoon, doctor" Taehyung greeted as he settled down on the chair,"Jungkook fell asleep this afternoon as well, I do think the new medicines are suiting him the best and he's been more open about his sessions with you as well, he's been actively recalling memorable moments and key takeaways from those sessions for days now, he's not shutting down like he was a week ago, he has improved a lot in these past few days, he has also started asking for permissions and saying 'please' a lot" Taehyung conjured up a neat little report to tell Namjoon.

Namjoon smiled at Taehyung's words and nodded,"It was very informative to listen to your report, Taehyung-ssi, you give great summarizes, have you ever considered the job of a secretary?" He asked instead.

Taehyung stared at him, caught a little off guard,"Oh um, no" He mumbled out hesitantly and relied on Namjoon for the continuance of conversation.

"Taehyung-ssi, Jungkook has requested me to have a little chat with you today, so please don't feel awkward, you can tell me anything, it's a safe place, not one word you'll say is going to leave this office" Namjoon reassured after he saw Taehyung fidgeting with his fingers.

Taehyung stopped all of his fidgeting for a moment and took a deep breath in, wondering how to even begin as his eyes wandered over the white office desk cluttered with many study related things.

"Jungkook...asked me about my purpose today.." He began reluctantly while Namjoon just waited patiently for Taehyung to continue at his own pace.

"But, doctor, I don't think I have a purpose left in life anymore, I feel empty all of the time, even guilty when I think about the past" Taehyung whispered as he shrunk into him a little,"And I start to feel worse when everyone acts kind and understanding towards me, they all should just hate and despise me, that's what I feel like I truly deserve" He trailed off and slowly glanced up at Namjoon.

"Doctor, you know the full story right? Jungkook told you everything, you know what I did to Jimin, you should hate me" He added in a small voice while his gaze settled back on his lap again where his clenched up fists rested.

"Taehyung-ssi, I'm a psychiatrist, it's not my job to judge people, I'm here to understand and help them, that's the pledge I took before becoming a doctor" Namjoon smiled, hoping to comfort the guilt ridden man in front of him,"I don't hate you, Taehyung-ssi, I wish to help you, will you give me a chance?" He asked earnestly with a kind smile.

Taehyung kept on staring down at his lap till his eyes got teary,"I..I don't have the courage to face Jimin tomorrow, I can't imagine the pain I caused him, even if the divorce proceedings goes well tomorrow, I don't think I can keep on living with myself, I don't wish to be alive, doctor, I want to kill myself, it's the only thing I think about day and night" He sniffed and clenched his fists till they turned white.

Namjoon listened to Taehyung's words carefully with a good heart as a silence settled over them for a few moments.

"Taehyung-ssi.." Namjoon began softly as he looked at his computer's keyboard with a bittersweet expression,"Can I be honest with you?" He asked to get the attention of the other.

Taehyung slowly looked up at the psychiatrist with a blurry vision and gulped the lump in his throat,"Ye-yes..?" He inquired, urging the other to continue.

"My job, I do, honestly, love it, I love helping people but there's a down side to this as well, everyday I get to hear people resenting life and wishing to abandon it out of free will, it hurts my heart to know that some people are mentally in such a place whether they'd choose death over life, I truly wish to change that but I won't be able to do it without your help, Taehyung-ssi, can I please ask for your cooperation?" He gently asked and reached out his hand for Taehyung to take.

Taehyung uncertainly looked at the extended hand resting over the desk and then at Namjoon's kind, inviting smile before frowning more,"Ho-How can I cooperate?" He slowly asked the hesitant question.

Namjoon smiled graciously,"By being a little kind to yourself, don't shun yourself, give life another chance, please work through it with me" He requested earnestly.

"Kind? I don't deserve kindness" Taehyung uttered out, once again shrinking into himself,"I hurt a lot of people, specially Jimin, the person who had been my sole support since childhood, he deserved none of it, none, I'm the worst kind of person and I deserve to die" He sniffed, gritting his teeth,"I can't take away his pain, neither can I undo it, I broke his heart, his trust, humiliated him, betrayed him, left him some scars that'll perhaps stay with him all life long-" He cut himself off as a sob bubbled out of his mouth.

Taehyung put a hand over his mouth, swallowing the pain as he took a moment to compose himself while looking at the side wall of the office.

"It's okay to cry, Taehyung-ssi, don't hold back, please let it out" Namjoon coaxed his shaken client as he patiently waited for Taehyung to continue.

Taehyung took a shuddering breath in before wiping away his tears which had rolled down his cheeks without any notice,"Whenever I'm left alone with my own thoughts I wonder how much it might hurt to be in his position" He whispered and wrapped his arms around himself.

"I wish I could take away all of his pain, I wish it was me in his place so that he wouldn't suffer, I know it's hard to believe but I do love him more than anything, he's very dear to me, my family, someone I thought I'd get to be with for life, he was my purpose that's why it's really hard to keep on living knowing that I hurt him and he no longer even wants to see me, let alone be with me, doctor" He spoke aloud, his voice containing nothing but misery.

"I had molded my entire life around him, back in our house, there's this tradition that one person from our clan must serve the next clan master of the Park Clan house, I was chosen to be Jimin's Aide and then circumstances led me to be his husband, growing up everything that I learned or did, it was all done while keeping Jimin in mind, he was my reason behind everything so now that he's no longer in my life, I feel like I've lost a big part of myself" He added softly.

"All I feel is guilt and emptiness and I have no one left by my side to whom I could say these things and I can't possibly let my burdens fall on Jungkook, he has his own issues to resolve, I only ever had my mom but I think she hates me now" He squeaked out the last part and hastily wiped away his tears again.

"I don't know what to do, I'm so lost, I have no clue, I feel like I'm drowning in the sea thousand and thousand miles away from the shore and nobody's coming to help" He whispered, the hopelessness once again emerging in his tone,"That's why I have sort of stopped struggling, I'm just staying still and letting the current pull me under, I just wish to die" He concluded his words and sniffed, his nose feeling stuffed from all that crying.

"I do not think you deserve to die, Taehyung-ssi" Namjoon suddenly spoke up,"On the contrary, I think you've already suffered enough to be forgiven, if not by others then at least by yourself" He added and watched how Taehyung glanced back at him while frowning.

"I'm not a good person, I do not deserve to be forgiven.." Taehyung lowly whispered, new tears streaming down his face.

"You regret it" Namjoon said,"You've realised you did something wrong, you clearly are regretting it, you are apologetic towards the person who suffered and your words sound like, if given the chance, you're willing to profusely make up for the mistake and not repeat the same mistake anymore, isn't that already good enough to be forgiven?" He asked gently as he got up from his seat and rounded the desk to sit in front of Taehyung on the other chair.

"Taehyung-ssi, sometimes in life, we do some despicable things that we are unable to undo, we can't make good the losses that have already occurred and under those circumstances learning from our past mistakes and being mindful towards not repeating it again is the only thing that we can do" He advised candidly.

Taehyung stared at the psychiatrist with troubled eyes,"How's that even possible...?" He mumbled, unable to just take Namjoon's words.

Namjoon smiled,"Suppose a person gets way too drunk for their own good and then drives, resulting in him taking the life of an innocent pedestrian, will there be anyway left for him to bring back the life he took?" He asked and Taehyung just shook his head slowly, answering no.

Namjoon's eyes started to get warm,"Exactly, there's no way for him to make that right, no amount of compensation, or jail sentence will bring back a lost life back, the perpetrator can try to take his own life out of guilt but ultimately that'll accomplish nothing as well, it's only when you learn from your mistakes and try to actively take responsibility for your acts is when you start scratching the surface of making good the losses and the first step towards taking responsibility is through forgiving yourself, Taehyung-ssi" He whispered and put his hand over Taehyung's which was resting on the armrest of the chair.

"Forgive yourself, acknowledge your mistake, learn from it, actively work towards showing that person that you're apologetic and never repeat it again" He said and tilted his head a little to enter Taehyung's lowered vision and flashed one of his comforting dimple smiles.

"What if they despise me? What if I'm not forgiven?" Taehyung asked groggily as he wiped away more of his tears.

Namjoon caressed Taehyung's knuckles,"You're not apologising to be forgiven, Taehyung-ssi, you're apologising because you are sorry, it's as simple as that, being forgiven is not the goal, the goal is to explain that you're remorseful for what you've done and leaving the option of forgiveness open for them" He advised sincerely,"You only need to forgive yourself" He added in the end.

"How can I forgive myself when my own conscience reminds me every hour of the day about how much of a bad person I am?" Taehyung begged to know the answer of that question as he looked at the psychiatrist with red eyes from crying.

Namjoon gave a bittersweet smile after hearing the question and looked down to recollect his thoughts,"Our mind, Taehyung-ssi, it's the greatest prison. Nothing is greater than the pain that our own mind inflicts upon us, that is precisely why dark room solitary confinement is considered to be one of the cruelest punishments in prison, sometimes considered to be crueler than even inhumane physical torture" He whispered and looked up at his client, small brims of tears glistening in his own eyes.

"It's a slow poison, it eats away at you from within, takes away your will to live and pushes you towards taking your own life, it's the greatest battle to combat and that's why the first step of repenting for your mistake is forgiving yourself, because it's the hardest step to accomplish" He said and pulled out his study glasses to wipes away his tears, chuckling slightly to himself at how in spite of being the psychiatrist he ended up crying.

"Doctor.." Taehyung whispered, visibly stunned to see Namjoon crying in front of him,"A-are you okay?" He called out hesitantly, wondering what made the psychiatrist tear up.

Namjoon laughed in embarrassment and shook his head,"Sorry for the unprofessional display, Taehyung-ssi, it's just I had an elder brother whom I really looked up to but he took his own life, he went through something similar that you're going through, I can't help but wonder if these were the things that he felt as well, your words briefly reminded me of him so I teared up a bit" He informed and laughed bashfully.

"He was the reason I chose to study psychology actually, I never want any other Kim Namjoon to ever lose a loved one again yet there's just so much misery in the world, I get afraid sometimes thinking I might fall short" He uttered and looked up at Taehyung's sad face with glints of hope shinning in his eyes,"That's why I selfishly want you to not give up, I want you to survive, please don't give up" He urged on as he lifted Taehyung's hand and clasped it firmly between his own hands.

"You mentioned you had no one you could say all these things to, Taehyung-ssi, I'll gladly be that person that you can be open with and share your troubles to, this might feel like I'm doing this because it's my job but to me it's not just a job, it's my purpose, I truly wish to help people in need and make a difference, I want to save lives, I believe in second chances and that's why I do not wish for you to give up so please don't give up on yourself either" He softly pleaded as he looked at Taehyung, hoping against all odds for the other to just believe his words.

Taehyung's pupils started to shake as he took in Namjoon's impassioned eyes,"Wi-Will I be able to do it?" He faintly asked out, another lump forming in his throat.

Namjoon nodded sincerely,"You will, I believe in you, just trust yourself and be a little kinder to yourself" He whispered and offered an understanding smile in the end, glad that Taehyung was finally starting to consider his words.
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Ding dong! Ding dong! Ding dong! Ding dong!

"I'M GOING TO DECAPITATE YOUR HEAD, MIN YOONGI!! YAH!! DOES MY DOOR BELL LOOK LIKE A TOY TO YOU?!" Jin yelled as soon as he flung open his door to see Yoongi standing there, sweating up a storm while his face was flushed.

"I hurried along as soon as I could, how is he?" Yoongi shoved the files containing the documents harshly on Jin's chest and stalked inside to check up on Jimin again.

Jin stood there on the doorway scowling at Yoongi's retreating back,"Whose house is this again?" He asked himself in annoyance before shaking his head and stepping inside along with the files, keeping in mind to close the door behind him with his leg.

Yoongi practically ran inside and looked around frantically, searching for Jimin but caught nothing but emptiness,"Where is he?!" Yoongi shrieked, on the verge of pulling out his own hair,"Did he leave?! Was he done with you sprewing out bullshit and just got up and left?!" He asked as he looked back at Jin who was walking towards him with a done expression.

"Control your dramatic ass, oh my God, he's in the play room with Sujin, my princess asked him to join in on the tea party and he accepted now he's in the play area, pretending to drink imaginary tea" Jin dumped the files on the couch and dusted his hands,"Anyways, you want some coffee?" He offered and looked at Yoongi who still very much looked like a gaping cat but nodded anyway.

"Alright! More caffeine for me! God knows I need more" Jin grumbled under his breath and stepped towards the kitchen.

Yoongi took this moment to sneak his way towards the play area and check up on his friend. The sight that greeted him, melted his heart a little as he saw Jimin finally smiling a little as he held out his toy cup towards Sujin, waiting for his cup to be filled all the while wearing a plastic princess crown over his head.

Even though the eyebags and hollowed cheeks were still there, Jimin somehow looked way better than he did that morning in the hotel room. Yoongi let out a quivering breath and leaned away from the doorway, feeling himself getting a little emotional as he observed Jimin laughing along with Sujin from afar. He didn't know how long he stood there watching them play but it must have been a while because the host had already returned with the coffee.

"You know if I already didn't know about how passionate you were regarding your friendships and how serious and sickeningly in love you were with Hoseok, I would have assumed you had a crush on Jimin" Jin spoke out blandly, pulling Yoongi out of his emotional observation.

Yoongi looked back at Jin with a grateful expression and without another word just threw himself in Jin's arms, hugging him tightly.

"CAREFUL! Yah! Min yoongi! Can't you see I'm holding two cups of boiling coffee?! Do you wish to kill me by giving me third degree burns?! Yah! Look at me!!" Jin yelled while posing wide eyes, his hands still holding two cups of coffee while Yoongi tightly hugged his torso.

"Thank you" Yoongi breathed out as he sniffed and tightened his hold around Jin,"Thank you for doing this, hyung, I almost gave up all hopes of ever seeing him smile again, thank you for doing everything that you did, truly" He uttered and slowly redacted from Jin to stare up at him with teary eyes.

Jin was looking back at him like he had grown a third head,"Damn, who are you and what have you done to that punk, Min Yoongi?" He asked instead.

In answer Yoongi just hit Jin's chest while having a done and disgusted expression on his face.

"YAH!"
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"So that's all that happened? You just told him your story and asked him to not give up hope?" Yoongi asked as he leaned on the kitchen island while Jin sat on the barstool, sipping on his coffee.

"Yeah, that was pretty much it, Sujin took care of the rest, my work ended right then and there" Jin shrugged and took another sip,"So what about this Taehyung guy, he'll be staying here from tomorrow, anything important that I should know?" He asked while looking up at Yoongi.

Yoongi hummed and tried to think,"Nothing in particular, he's a pleasant guy, decent to live with, isn't too argumentative and is polite I have no idea about the one that'll be arriving straight from the hospital though" He said and swirled his drink in his cup.

Jin nodded,"Strangely I'm excited, I feel like I'm back in my college life, getting excited about meeting my new roommates" He uttered and gulped down the entirety of his drink in one go.

"Taehyung..." Yoongi began hesitantly, gaining Jin's attention,"He's a sensitive guy and he's probably going through a lot right now, I'm afraid I had a dispute with him this morning as well, I regret holding prejudice against him so I'd suggest you don't hold anything against him as well" He uttered while staring at his reflection in the surface of the coffee.

Jin glanced at him from the corner of his eyes, judging him slightly,"Wow, first Jimin and now Taehyung too? Seems like today you argued with everyone, what's next? You're gonna say you argued with Hoseok as well?" Jin asked in a mocking tone and stood up from his seat, going over to wash his cup again.

Yoongi just blushed harder,"I actually did.." He uttered out with rosy cheeks.

"..What the fuck...?"
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"So that's how it went down at home? Wow, thank God, it wasn't me, I still suck at conflict resolution" Jin whispered as both of them now sat on the couch in the living room, monitoring the play area where Jimin was now playing house with Sujin.

Yoongi just looked at Jimin lifting Sujin up in the air and spinning her around while grinning hard and sighed,"Jimin says he loves Taehyung but wants Taehyung to achieve his own happiness, Taehyung says he loves Jimin too much and is willing to give up his own desires to continue be with Jimin forever, both of them are equally frustrating, it's like the two of them are stuck in a sinking boat with only one life jacket and both of them are shoving the life jacket at each other asking the other to survive" He stated and started to massage his temple.

"And the boat sinks down before either of them can get out?" Jin asked thoughtfully.

"Yeah" Yoongi grumbled under his breath,"Is this endearing or toxic?" He finally asked, out of frustration, very much done with the complicated problem at hand.

"It's endearingly toxic, that's what it is" Jin deadpanned from beside Yoongi, while he leaned back on the couch and stretched a bit. He had had way too many intellectual conversations that day, he barely had anymore working brain cells left anymore.

Yoongi glanced back at Jin,"You're coming to the court tomorrow, right?" He asked instead.

Jin looked up at Yoongi and nodded,"Yeah, I'll pick up Taehyung from there, be sure to help him pack tonight and don't let it be way too many luggage okay? My car is currently gone for servicing and the one I'm using now is small" He uttered and yawned.

Yoongi nodded as both of them settled into a comfortable silence until they heard footsteps approaching them.

They looked to the side to see Jimin walking towards them with a sleeping Sujin in his arms and a warm smile on his lips,"She fell asleep while playing" He informed softly as he held out the toddler towards Jin.

"Aww my princess worked too hard today, poor baby~" Jin cooed as he instantly got up on his feet and cradled his daughter in his arms,"I'll take her upstairs and put her to bed, afterwards we can arrange and properly organise the documents for tomorrow, okay?" He informed and the rest of the two participants only nodded in agreement.

Satisfied by the agreement, Jin hummed a tune and took his daughter upstairs.

Yoongi and Jimin watched Jin go with affectionate eyes and remained in their spots until the father and daughter duo had disappeared from their sights completely.

"He becomes a whole new person around Sujin, it comes across as an optical illusion to me sometimes" Yoongi gave an offhanded comment and finally looked at Jimin who still had a smile on his face while he looked at the spot where they last saw Jin.

"Hyung, I think I'll go to the fertility clinic tonight and apply for that surrogacy" Jimin finally whispered making Yoongi's eyes go wide.

"What?" The finance department worker gasped out, unable to believe his ears.

Jimin finally looked back at him and smiled genuinely,"I want to be a dad, hyung" He whispered softly.
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"You're back!" Hoseok spoke aloud as he opened the door to let Yoongi enter their apartment,"You didn't show up at the office today at all and it's about to be 9 o'clock at night, is everything alright?" He asked in a tense tone as he helped Yoongi out of his jacket.

Yoongi looked up at Hoseok and stared for a few moments,"Everything was a mess but I think I was able to handle it except one unusual thing happened" He voiced out making Hoseok more and more curious.

"What unusual thing?" Hoseok asked, unable to stop his curiosity.

"Jimin wants to become a dad, he applied for surrogacy, I went to the clinic with him and watched him fill out the form and proceed through all the other steps" Yoongi informed and looked at Hoseok, a small smile was starting to appear on his lips.

"By this time next year, we might become uncles!" He cheered and stretched out his arms wide open for an equally excited Hoseok who wasted no time in jumping into his arms.

"Oh my gosh, I'm so happy for our Jiminie!" Hoseok cheered in Yoongi's arms as both of them rocked back and forth in the hallway and separated slightly to smile at each other,"I should congratulate him!" He whispered and instantly searched around for his phone.

"Call Jin hyung, Jimin's phone died and he's staying with Jin hyung for tonight, Jin hyung suggested it saying he needed to visit the court the next day anyway to pick up Taehyung so he'd drop Jimin off and pick up Taehyung altogether plus he didn't trust any of us with the organised documents, I don't know what his problem is sometimes" Yoongi shrugged and Hoseok just chuckled at his boyfriend's words.

"Sure, honey~" He cooed and kissed Yoongi's cheek before pulling his phone out to finally congratulate their friend on the potential baby.
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It was around dinner time when Taehyung walked out of his room to come sit on the table with Hoseok and Yoongi.

"You've been holed up in your room all evening, is everything okay?" Hoseok called out in concern as he looked at their house guest.

"I..." Taehyung began and bit his lips,"I gave it a lot of thought and came to the conclusion that I want to apply for a job" He finally uttered out the words and looked up at Hoseok pleadingly,"I won't ask for much but can you please tell me what jobs I can apply for while not having any college degrees?" He asked in a soft voice, as if afraid that he was crossing a line.

Yoongi noticed how Taehyung was only looking at Hoseok for an answer, not bothering him at all and felt a little bad, the little argument from that morning was still a sore subject to their house guest.

Yoongi cleared his throat gaining the attention of both of the other two participants in the room and looked up at Hoseok innocently,"Wasn't your cousin looking for a part timer in his new coffee shop?" He asked and looked at Taehyung's hopeful face,"Maybe Taehyung can apply for that position, what do you think, Hobi?" He asked while looking back at his boyfriend again.

Hoseok was smiling down on him as if he proud beyond comparison,"I think that's an excellent idea" He uttered out happily.

Taehyung smiled and teared up a bit,"Thank you" He whispered to both of them but his grateful gaze lingered a bit longer on Yoongi's smiling face.
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A/n :- HELLO LOVELY POOKIES I'M FINALLY BACK WITH AN UPDATE AFTER THE EXAMS~~~

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