Third Person's P.O.V :-

"Taehyung?" Jimin asked at the lack of response from Taehyung.

Taehyung just stared at him feeling like someone had sewed his jaw shut, not even a peep was passing through the corridor of his throat.

'Say yes! What are you doing?!?' One side of his brain screamed at him while the other side kept a tight grip around his neck.

He needed to give a response, Jimin was starting to look worried as Taehyung kept on giving him silence as the only answer.

"Is...is something wrong, Taehyung?" Jimin asked out in concern

"I-I need time" Taehyung choked out, anxious eyes looking out for any traces of anger flashing by Jimin's facial features,"Can I tell you my answer this evening?" He asked, tightly gripping the bedsheets waiting for Jimin's approval.

Jimin looked visibly let down at Taehyung's words but nodded reluctantly,"Yes, take your time, it's fine" He whispered and looked down to where Taehyung's hand was tightly gripping the bedsheets.

"Once again, I'm sorry if my actions have hurt you, Taehyung, I do wanna make up for it by being a good husband to you" Jimin softly uttered taking Taehyung's hand in his own.

Taehyung looked down, unable to keep looking at Jimin's kind face anymore,"You don't have to apologize, I just need a few moments to think is all" He whispered, trying to get his hand out of Jimin hold.

Jimin noticed the behavior and let go of the hand. Taehyung was instantly on his feet walking away from the bed as soon as he got his hand back.

"Do I....repulse you, Taehyung?" Jimin meekly asked Taehyung's retreating back,"Do you hate the thought of being with me?" He asked, he could feel his vision getting a bit blurry,"Taehyung?" He asked out again, uncertainly.

"Of course not" Taehyung answered not looking back,"I just...need some time to think things over, you should get some sleep in the meantime, I'll inform mistress that you'll be sleeping late today" He whispered and was out of the room within seconds.
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Taehyung walked around the koi pond of the garden in deep thought. Why did he ask for time? What was stopping him from saying yes?

Did he not want to be with Jimin? Of course not. Having a normal married life with Jimin was the only thing Taehyung had been dreaming about ever since he heard he'll have to marry Jimin.

So why was he hesitating? Was it possible that he secretly held a grudge against Jimin for having a crush on Jungkook?

But Taehyung knew even before marriage that Jimin was in love with someone else and later it turned out to be Jungkook so why would that effect him now?

He frowned. He just could not figure it out. What did he want? Why was he hesitating? He should agree. He's supposed to be a good husband to Jimin. He's supposed to take care of Jimin. He's in love with Jimin so why was he hesitating?

What was stopping him?

Suddenly the tear strained face of Jungkook flashed before his eyes.

Taehyung now focused on the surface of the pond water where his reflection could be seen looking back at him.

Was he conflicted because of what had happened between the two of them? Has he grown too accustomed to having Jungkook be the only one approaching him in an intimate way?

Taehyung's eyes widened as the realisation slowly sunk in.

That was why he had been avoiding Jimin's touches recently. Taehyung felt disgusted with himself. He was having an affair behind Jimin's back.

He felt like crying, he didn't do it on purpose...it just....happened. Before he even had the chance to realise it.

He wouldn't have done it if he knew. Taehyung could feel his eyes getting teary as his chest physically hurt. He felt like he failed. If Jimin found out he'd hate him. His own mom would hate him. His entire family would hate him.

He'd be kicked out of the clan house and would have nowhere to go.

Tears started falling down from his eyes. He dug his own grave.

"Taehyung?!"

Taehyung turned around at the familiar voice and saw Jimin panting as he stopped a few meters before him, still in his night robe.

Taehyung's chest tightened up more, Jimin's presence felt like a ticking time bomb. One day it would burst and the worst would ensue.

Jimin noticed the tears on Taehyung's face and got visibly concerned,"A-are you okay?" He asked out in worry and slowly stepped towards Taehyung,"Why are you crying, Taehyung?" He asked now a few steps away.

Taehyung quickly wiped away his tears,"So-something fell inside my eyes" He lied, avoiding eye contact.

Jimin knew he was lying and it made him feel horrible to know Taehyung wasn't even telling him the reason behind his sadness.

"I..." Jimin began and looked down at his slipper clad feet,"I came to get you back, it's 5 in the morning, probably nobody's even awake at this hour, please come back with me" He requested.

Jimin was right. Taehyung was so desperate to figure out the conflict inside of him he didn't even think things through.

"I-I....I must have lost my mind, sorry" Taehyung whispered while his head hung low. He walked towards where Jimin stood and Jimin automatically led him back towards their room.
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"A-about last night" Jimin began as soon as Taehyung closed the bedroom door behind him.

"Yes?" He inquired, his previous melt down feeling like a distant memory to him.

"Seeing how the Sake from last night definitely had something wrong with it" Jimin began and blushed a little,"And it was given to us by Granny" He slowly added,"I apologize that you had to go through it, I'll speak to Granny about it" He said trying to console Taehyung.

Taehyung smiled a little at Jimin's attempt to cheer him up, Jimin must have thought he had been crying beside the pond because he was drugged against his will.

"It's okay, you don't have to, Mistress is a person made off of her own morals, she'll only get angrier if you try talking to her about it" Taehyung said, trying to help Jimin's guilty conscience,"And I think it's partly my fault" He said making Jimin look at him curiously.

"Your fault?" Jimin asked, unable to understand Taehyung's words.

"Yes, yesterday, after she dismissed you two, she asked if we..." Taehyung stopped for a moment, a blush developing on his own cheeks,"Do what married couples do at night" He tried his best to say it in a pure manner but only blushed harder,"And I accidentally answered no, she got angry and yelled at me before dismissing me" He told Jimin the entire story.

Jimin just stared at him,"You think she'd pull something like this again?" He asked.

Taehyung smiled bitterly,"I am unable to predict her but if she wishes, she might" He said, feeling a little morbid at the thought of being drugged again without knowing.

"What if we give her an indication that something happened between us last night?" Jimin slowly whispered, trying not to startle Taehyung.

"Li-like what?" Taehyung slowly asked out, the blush returning to his cheeks as he waited for Jimin's reply.

"A-a hickey?" Jimin babbled out the first thing that came to his mind.

"Who...gives it to whom?" Taehyung slowly asked, feeling the conflicting feelings from the morning returning to him in waves.

"Whichever way you'll prefer it" Jimin softly answered, his eyes lit up at the positive reply.

"Then let me do it" Taehyung whispered looking down at his feet.

"O-of course" Jimin said as he locked the door behind himself and walked towards Taehyung.

The robe was already loose on Jimin's frame, his collarbone peeping through the gaps.

Taehyung gulped a little and bent down to leave a peck at Jimin's collarbone. This was the first time he's ever kissed something other than Jimin's lips.

He could feel his heart beating in his ears,"I...What do I do now?" He asked feeling at a loss.

Jimin couldn't help the laughter that bubbled out of his mouth,"You don't know how to do it?" He asked, the smile blossoming into a big grine.

Taehyung's cheeks started burning,"I-I have a vague idea!" He protested, feeling like he needed to defend himself.

Jimin stared at the flustered face in adoration as he licked his lips and leaned in a bit, penetrating Taehyung's personal bubble,"Do you want me to show you?" He asked with a coy smile.

Taehyung felt butterflies in his stomach and deep down he was glad Jimin still had that effect on him.

It made him believe that he could focus back in his relationship and leave the affair behind. Maybe if he only stayed in Jimin's presence from now on, his other, bad feelings might die down.

Because Taehyung wanted to stay as Jimin's husband and he knew he needed to put effort into the relationship now from an emotional perspective.

And he needed to get comfortable with Jimin's touch in order to function like a normal couple.

He needed to allow this. This was one of the things he desperately yearned for after getting married so why was it so hard to allow it now?

"Yes, please" Taehyung spoke with determination.

Jimin took a hold of Taehyung's pretty hand and brought it close to his lips, softly kissing it before entangling their fingers and making Taehyung follow him to the bed.

"Ca-can't we do it standing up?" Taehyung squeaked out, getting a vague idea what was about to happen.

"We can" Jimin spoke as he brought Taehyung in front of him. Taehyung could feel the edge of the bed coming in contact with the back of his knees.

"But I think it's more efficient this way" He provided with a smile as he swiftly pushed Taehyung back making him fall down on the bed.

This was more embarrassing than Taehyung imagined it would be. He immediately covered his eyes with his arm, face bright red.

Jimin got on top of him,"Tae, look at me" He whispered, tracing a finger along the arm that covered Taehyung's face.

"N-no" Taehyung denied. He felt like he'd die out of embarrassment if he looked at Jimin.

"You want to do it like this?" Jimin whispered as he softly untied the knob of the robe that Taehyung had been wearing.

Taehyung just nodded his head in agreement, unable to speak a single word.

Jimin loosened the robe just enough to make the collarbone visible and stopped at that. He leaned down till his face was hovering over the collarbone area,"Don't worry I won't go further than this, unless you want me to" He whispered as he gently nipped on the soft skin served before him.

The sensation was new and unfamiliar. Taehyung told himself that he needed to let it happen.

One of Jimin's hands slowly crept up and entangled its fingers with Taehyung's hand which was covering his face, pushing it up to pin it against the bed while the other hand angled his jaw in just the right way, giving Jimin more room to work with.

Taehyung was arching up under Jimin. How much more time would a hickey take to form?

When Taehyung opened his eyes again, they were glassy. It was getting harder and harder to control himself.

"Jimin.." He wanted to ask a question but instead it accidentally sounded like he let a moan slip out and he felt Jimin pause on top of him.

"You're driving me insane" Jimin grunted against his neck,"How am I supposed to control myself if you call out my name like that?" Jimin asked biting down the bruise he spent moments working on.

"Ah!" Taehyung yelped out at the sudden unexpected pain,"I-I didn't mean to! I-" He quickly tried to defend himself but before he could finish the sentence Jimin took him in a passionate lip lock.

When they were done both of them were panting and blushing hard.

Taehyung turned away from Jimin, too embarrassed to look back at him,"I-is it done?" He asked out shyly.

Jimin laughed at the gesture as he fell down beside Taehyung, hugging him from the side, nuzzling into his neck,"Yep, give it a few hours to fully form" Jimin whispered and settled in more comfortably,"Till then sleep here with me" He said, already sounding tired.

Taehyung just complied, not like he had somewhere else to be at 6 in the morning anyway.
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A/n :- That was intense. Expressing Taehyung's conflicting emotions was the hardest part to write down. Almost called it a day after writing "he depresso" 🥹.

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