"What the hell?!" I scream pushing Punk. "Hey! Why are you pushing me?! Aren't you glad to see me darling?" He smirks hugging me, some superstars see his and I push him away. "I can't believe you did this. Without even informing me." I'm beyond angry and hurt.

"I told you it would be a surprise and when you least expected it." He grins and I look down at the floor closing my eyes.

My head hurts- so does my heart. After Punks and Deans argument was over Dean walked backstage furious, I couldn't even talk to him.

"I didn't want to do this Phillip." I whisper, he knows when I call him by his real name I'm angry. "What do you mean baby? Our plan worked! I'm back and boy the crowd loved me! They were chanting my name, I'm back on the top. Where I'm suppose to be. And that's all thanks to you." He kisses my cheek and I walk out the arena.

"Hey, where are you going?" He walks behind me and I'm looking for Deans car but he's gone. "I told you I didn't want to do this anymore. I was going to talk to you about it tonight, but you never answered my calls. Dean is a wonderful human being, and he didn't deserve what I did to him. He didn't deserve to be used." He looks at me intensely, "You fell for him didn't you?" He doesn't sound mad .. Yet.

"I did. And he likes me too, I want to be with him. Not with you Phillip, I'm sorry." For a second I think he's going to get hurt but instead he laughs. "Are you serious right now?" He's still laughing. "I'm dead serious. You don't understand Dean-"

"Dean hates you! Do you honestly think he will forgive you for using him? For making him like you? He will NEVER forgive you. Never. And plus I'm sure he would've left you after he fucked you.

Aj, just think about it. Look at you, and look at him. Do you think he would've stayed with a girl like you? I'm the only one that likes you for real, I love you. And you need to stop getting all those stupid ideas in your head. You're not good enough for Dean. You never will be." I start crying as I feel my whole chest crush.

"No, no. You're just telling me this to bring me down, I'm sure if I talk to Dean he will understand and he will- he will come back to me." He wipes my tears as I keep crying.

"Honey, stop dreaming. Listen to me, you and I can be unstoppable together. We've been together for a while and I know you're just confused about your feelings for Dean. You don't like him, you like me. And you need to be with me, because trust me you will not get nobody else." He kisses my head.

I keep crying and honestly I feel like I'm dying inside. "Phillip, we're done. I don't want to be with you anymore." I whisper in between sobs. "No!" He screams and I flinch.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to scream love. You're just making me a little mad. But you're just tired and confused. Let's go to the hotel and you can get some sleep to clear your mind." He grabs my hand but I pull away.

"No. I don't want to go with you."  He steps closer to me. "Aj." He's beginning to sound more aggravated. "No. I don't want to talk to you, I don't want to even see you." I turn around and he's screaming my name but I keep walking.

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The taxi gets to the hotel in fifteen minutes. After I pay the man I get out, I was crying the whole way. It made my head hurt so bad. At this point everything hurts. I'm in the lobby and I spot Roman and he's with Dean . . .

I wipe my eyes making sure there's no tears but I bet my eyes are red. Dean sees me walking to him and he starts to walk the opposite way. "Dean wait!" He turns around and looks at me, "Dean I-"

"No you don't have to explain nothing. I have to congratulate you, you're really good at acting. I mean I believed every word you said. Maybe you should consider acting as your career once you're done with wrestling." He smiles but I can see hurt in his eyes. "No, Dean. Let me explain."

"No need to explain. It's pretty clear." He turns around and even though I call him he doesn't turn back. Roman saw the whole thing, "Roman. It's not what you think, I really like Dean and everything is just so complicated."

He sighs, "You don't have to explain nothing to me. I'm not judging you, and I know you like Dean for real." I'm pretty relieved at least somebody believes me. 

I walk to the elevator where I press my room number. To my horrible bad luck Summer jumps in before the door closes. "Wow Aj, I didn't know you and CM Punk were a thing. It amazes me how you played with Dean while dating Punk. But to be honest I love it, Dean is available again."

She grins as the door opens in the third floor, "Bye whore- oops I mean Aj." She chuckles and the door closes again taking me to the seventh floor.

My eyes are stinging because I want to cry again. Summer will try to get him back, she's going to steal him away.

And Phillip, he thinks this is all a joke. But it's not, and I want to be over with him. To make things worse Dean doesn't even let me explain.

Nikki is already in the room, which is surprising to me. She's laying down texting, I'm glad she doesn't glance at me. I don't even get in my pjs, I just lay on my bed and turn to the opposite side so Nikki won't see me.

The blanket is covering me, I'm not physically cold. But I'm cold inside. After a while Nikki turns off her phone, the room is completely dark and the tears start fall from my eyes.

I'm silently crying.

Silently crying is the worst.

Nobody can hear your cries because you're covering your mouth so no sobs come out. And nobody knows how broken you feel.

Nobody knows how much pain you're feeling.

Nobody knows.

I feel defeated.

I can feel myself dying inside.. It's absolutely horrific.