~Luna's POV~

I cry in the bathroom as I brush my teeth, I see Izzie and George here and I snap "What?! What do you want!!" Crying as I brush my teeth.

"Nothing" they leave, I hear George whisper "What happened between her and John?"

"I don't know" Izzie whispered "at least she isn't like Meredith who isn't showing any emotion at all" rinsing my mouth I leave the bathroom to my room to get changed. After months I've been keeping my distance from John, I'm not in his cases since he made it clear before Thanksgiving that he doesn't want me so I'm on every other surgeons service. Because of him I haven't been able to have sex, the one time I even thought about it I started to cry and I was in a bar and Jo had to call me a cab home. For months I've been crying and listening to a bunch of songs about heartbreak.

"I'm not going to work" going into Meredith's room I join her in bed and Meredith pulls me close.

"We aren't going to work" Meredith tells Izzie and George as I start to cry "it's okay Luna, let it out" I just cry as my sister holds me.

"You both can't just stay home" Izzie says to us "your surgical interns and you both need to save lives, staying home isn't an option"

"Yes it is" Meredith says "we are staying home"

"Mere" George speaks up loudly through my crying "Luna, maybe they're will be a terrible crash nearby the hospital. Cut open a bunch of people"

"Get out!" I scream and my demonic voice comes out, the voice I use against humans instead of my devil voice that I use against demons.

"Ah!" They scream running, Izzie throws the breakfast cereal box causing flakes to be everywhere as they run out. Turning on a song for heartbreak, I choose My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion. 

I cry as Cristina walks in all dressed "What's going on?"

"I have a feeling" Meredith says "and Luna is heartbroken"

"You have a feeling" Cristina asks flabbergasted "and you are heartbroken? Oh boy—what kind of feeling?"

"We need to get a cat" I say as Meredith explains her feeling "I feel like I'm going to die"

I see George and Izzie share a look when I say that "A cat?" Cristina asks "you have a feeling your going to die? Today? Tomorrow? In fifty years? Cause we're all going to die eventually. For the love of" she turns off the radio "you got your heart broken Luna, doesn't mean it will be broken forever"

"Cristina!" Meredith exclaims "come on"

"Okay" she sits down next to Meredith "this is me being supportive"

"The man I love has a wife" Meredith tells her "and he chooses her over me, and that wife takes my dog. Given I gave them the dog but still! It doesn't change the fact that she's got my McDreamy, my and my McDog and my McLife"

"And you Luna?" Cristina asks

"I'm getting four cats" I say

"Why are you so upset?" Cristina asks "what happened between you and John?"

Sitting up, I look at her "I told him something no one but Meredith, my mom, my dad and Maze knew. He ran away, didn't want me—this is why I don't want to ever get in relationships! Look at me now!"

"Okay" Cristina kicks us out of bed "get up, get dressed and let's get going"

~Hospital~

Running through the hospital, I make it to Dr. Burke's OR before he starts "Dr. Burke" he looks at me as he was about to cut. When Alex and I found out what was happening I came here as fast as I could as a human "wait!"

"Dr. Morningstar" his voice is hard "this better be a good reason your interrupting me"

"Code black" I answer, I see Dr. Milton and Dr. Burke recognize the code while a few nurses know what's going on "Hannah" looking at her "do not move, not one movement"

"Why?" She asks

"Dr. Morningstar" Dr. Burke is next to me "are you sure?" I nod my head "Hannah? What do you feel?"

"Feel?" She asks

"Don't move" I order, she doesn't looking at me "what do you feel at this moment? Is something hard touching your fingers?"

She is silent before nodding her head "Oh god" Dr. Milton curses

"Dr. Milton" Dr. Burke warns "Dr. Grey, come over here" once she is here Dr. Burke whispers "walk not run to the charge nurse and tell her we have a code black on our hands. If she asks tell her I'm sure then tell her to call the bomb squad"

My sister leaves and Dr. Burke orders "Everyone but Hannah and Dr. Milton leave, I need to speak with you all"

Once we are outside, Dr. Burke explains to them a code black. Meredith soon comes over "Everyone knows, the charge nurse is making sure of it"

"I'm staying" I tell Burke, he looks at me "you need a surgical team"

"She's right" Meredith agreed with me

"Fine" he motions "but you all stay over there" we do and Meredith holds me as I look sadly at the door.

"I'm empty" I say "I wish a bomb was in me" 

"I know" she agrees with me "this is why mom told us to never fall in love" we wait some time before the bomb squad arrives and Meredith fills them in.

I go to the others since Dr. Milton seems like a flake, he's the one with the air bag "I'm taking over the airbag" going over. He breathes out relieved as I take over, he soon leaves and was going to say something but I growl "Leave" he quickly does.

"Why did you have him leave?" Hannah asks

"Cause he's a pussy" I say sitting down "he's most likely going to freak out then freak you out and that is the last thing anyone needs"

We are silent as I see my Aunt Azriel, she comes over and tells me "everyone will die, including you. This OR has the main stream of oxygen go through it so if it burst"

"Luna?" Meredith asks

"Mere get over here" I order, she does and I whisper what my aunt told me "tell them" she nods her head and quickly does so.

After some time she starts to freak out "Calm the fuck down, right now" she doesn't instead she screams pulling her hand out so I replace her hand with mine just as the door opened and in comes Burke with the bin guy. Meredith who was next to me goes to the airbag and helps him breathe.

"What did you do?" Meredith demands

"I can contain the blast" I say, she stares at me "I just need to be away from the central line"

"Can you?"

"I think"

"I'm not" shaking her head "losing you on an I think"

"Well I don't know" wanting to move but can't "Bomb guy" he looks at me "is it possible for us to move the guy to another OR far away from the oxygen line?"

"Yes" nodding his head "that was what I wanted to tell that other girl who ran out"

"Then let's go" I order

"Let's get you in some protective gear first" bomb guys says, I'm silent as I stare at the body.

After sometime we leave, as we leave I see Cristina leave and she is at a distance as she tells us Burke told her he loved her. "Luna!" We look over and are shocked to see John.

"Who are you?" Bomb guy demands

"I need to talk to you Luna" he says

"I'm kind of busy" I say

"I'm not leaving" shaking his head

"Fine" Bomb guy concedes "but you stay away from us over there"

"John?" I ask "what"

"I love you" he cuts me off "since the moment I met you I knew there was something different about you. I kept my distance at first because I thought you were like any other resident trying to gain surgeries but you aren't. I never should have ran, I was a coward but I'm not anymore" I cry as he says this.

"Oh god" Cristina says "you turned her into a mess"

"Luna Rose Morningstar" he says "I love you, I don't want to spend a moment on his plane by myself" he pulls out a beautiful diamond oval ring and I cry more. Oh god, I'm crying so much "this belonged to my grandmother and her grandmother before her and it's been in my family for generations, we can have it sized but...I want to wake up next to you, I want to be woken up by our kids on Christmas morning, I want to have so many kids with you...there is no doubt in my mind who I want to be with. Will you take me back and marry me?"

Nodding my head smiling "Yes I'll marry you. I love you so much John Shepherd that it hurts not being with you, I want to have so many babies with you and when you die" the humans who don't know give me a weird look "I'll be next to you as will our kids, I'll make sure your death isn't painful by decapitating you and I'll keep your head in a jar for the rest of my life. When your head and I only have your head when I need to masturbate"

Meredith cuts me off by snorting and laughing as she continues to help the guy breathe "you do know how creepy that is right? Keeping his head in a jar? Masturbating next to his dead head?"

"It's the truth" I say "John, if Meredith and I blow up I want you to do something for me"

"Anything" he says

"I have fifty pounds of cocaine" someone coughs as they all stare at me shocked "two hundred pounds of marijuana of different kinds and quality, and eighty pounds of meth"

"Why" Cristina asks "do you have so many drugs?"

"My dad loves drugs and before coming here I would snort cocaine all the time" I say as I stare at John "and lastly there are these dead bodies" someone coughs as everyone stares at me "don't worry there are like twenty"

"Twenty?!" People exclaim

"Did you kill these people?" Cristina exclaims

"No" yes "someone else did, I just happened to have owed someone at the time but I need you to burn the bodies"

"You want me to burn bodies?" He asks