~A Two Months Later~

"My brother" Derek is up front speaking to everyone as we are at John's funeral, he died during the surgery since his body couldn't handle any more stress. After the first surgery that Tom preformed it went well that he woke up, we spent time with him but then a few days later there was an infection and Tom did another surgery but this surgery he died. "was the best man I have ever known-in the recent years I watched him change from never wanting a family to having a wonderful wife who he loved so much" more tears run down my face "amazing beautiful children" beside me Amelia, dad and Mrs. Shepherd are helping me hold our kids "I'll never forget the time we accidentally crashed into a tree or the day John took a bullet for me, I will forever love him and one day we will meet again"

Getting up after him, I hand Amara and Naya to their aunt who is here since she's considered family. I go to the pedestal and say "I never thought I could let myself love someone as much as I love John, he's everything I could have" closing my eyes taking a deep breath "he was my first love, I don't know why this is happening all I know is that god is unfair" why did he let this happen? So soon? My kids shouldn't have lost their father so soon "the only part that is helping me continue is the fact that through my children, John still lives. That makes me cry since not only will they grow up without a father, their so young that they won't remember him when their older. They won't remember how amazing John was to not only his family but to those around him. They won't remember his voice or his scent like I will. I want him back" crying as I leave the stand sitting down.

We watch as the coffin lowered with my husband, grandpa why did you do this? You saw how happy I was on my wedding day. You know I love him. Why did you let this happen?

After the funeral, we are back in my home and I just sit on the couch lying down holding a pillow to me as I cry. No one comes near me as I cry, before seeing John leave his ghost visited me because Aunt Azriel let it happen.

Dad holds me as we watch from the OR gallery Tom try to bring my husband back. When he couldn't, people around us cries as dad and I see John's ghost come up to us.

He walks over to me and tells me "I love you Luna, I know you'll always love me but if you have the chance to find love again find it"

"He can't" I cry as dad rubs my shoulder "leave me, our children"

"Let them know I will always watch over them" John tells me as he tries to take my hand but he can't "and that I regret nothing, you and our children are the best things that have ever happened to me"

More tears run down my face "I also want to say this, if you find love again don't shut the person out. I'll be fine, I just want you to be happy"

~Italy~

"Succo di mirtillo rosso in un bicchiere di vino" Cranberry juice in a wine glass I order as I'm sitting at the bar with the bartender. Grabbing a peanut I eat it. I'm going to do the one thing I'm good at doing, the only thing that could get my mind off of John even for a few moments.

I'm taking a week off from work and dad is staying in Washington to watch over the kids while I'm here in Italy since I don't know. I pointed on a map and decided to come here to Italy. So I put on this halter neck backless blue short dress with silver strappy heels and some blue smoky eyeshadow with red lipstick. I have two silver stud earrings with a simple silver bracelet. The dress lucky isn't tight but a bit flowy so it hides my small bump, I'm finally showing but not too much.

"Scelta strana" Odd choice looking over this handsome blonde guy who isn't normal guy-he has pale skin and blue eyes, but those aren't his real eyes. No, those blue eyes don't seem like they're his eyes. But what makes me realize that he's not a normal is that I don't hear a heartbeat-he has this flirty demeanor around him "Nella bevanda: Sobrio? La cavalcata di qualcuno? Incinta?" In beverage: Sober? Someone's ride? Pregnant?

Shrugging my shoulders "Forse mi piace solo il succo di mirtillo" Maybe I just like cranberry juice putting my elbow on the counter, holding my head up with my hand as I look at this guy "E tu bionda, qual è il tuo veleno per la sera?" What about you blondie, what's your poison for the evening?

He stares at me "Sono Demetri" I'm Demetri

"Luna" sipping my drink, I look around the night club we are in "Hai una ragazza? Moglie? Fidanzato? Marito?" Got a girlfriend? Wife? Boyfriend? Husband?

He lets out a chuckle "Non ci conoscevo da più di qualche minuto e mi stai già chiedendo del mio stato" Haven't known each other for more than a few minutes and your already asking me about my status nodding his head to me "Sei sposato/a? Qualcuno è tornato a casa?" Are you married? Got someone back home?

Keeping my emotions contained or trying to I try to keep the focus off of me "Non sento un sì." I'm not hearing a yes leaning in towards him, my hand is on his thigh moves up to his crotch as I whisper "Oggi è il mio giorno fortunato?" Is today my lucky day? Licking his outer ear, pulling away I get out of my seat and put my hand on his shoulder "Se non sei qui con nessuno, incontriamoci nel vicolo" If you aren't here with anyone, meet me in the alley

Going through the crowd, I head out to the alley and wait for a moment until I hear some quick footsteps. Turning around, I see the guy from the bar and I don't care. I need something to put my mind off of John. I need some sort of distraction. I can't drink since I'm pregnant and I can't do drugs since I'm pregnant.

"Ciao di nuovo" hi again he smiles to me

Grabbing him by his collar I pull him in close kissing him, pulling away I rip the buttons of his shirt off "Stai zitto e vaffanculo" Shut up and fuck me sucking the side of his neck causing him to moan in pleasure as I kiss his hard cold chest.

Chuckling, Demetri picks me up and I wrap my legs around his waist kissing him. Demetri moves his hand down between us to free his cock and the next moment I gasp feeling him thrust into me. Using the wall as support, I have my hands on his shoulders while he holds my thighs open thrusting in and out of me fast.

Closing my eyes I let myself succumb to the bliss that is this. Sweat coats my body-like all my other pregnancies, my libido is off the charts. Opening my eyes after some time I press my lips to Demetri's and kiss him deeply moaning "Faster" against his lips, the sound of his balls slapping against my ass echo in the alley.

Demetri picks up the speed a bit and I have to hold on tighter since he's going faster than any man I've never been with that wasn't a toy. My walls clench around his cock as I cum, pulling away moaning loudly. Demetri stills in me releasing his cold sperm deep in me.

Taking deep breaths I throw my head back closing my eyes letting the high go through me "You didn't use a condom" breathing out when I open my eyes looking at him.

"You don't have to worry about that" pulling out of me and carefully sets me down, my thighs are a bit sore from how hard he held me "I'm clean and I can't impregnate women" his voice is a European accent that isn't Italian, what is it?

Staring at him "Bye"

"Leaving just like that?" He asks, I turn my head to look at him.

"I only needed you for a fuck" crossing my arms looking at him, he hands me his ruined jacket "what's this for?" He points to my breasts and I look down cursing seeing my milk is out "thanks, but no thanks" handing the top back to him.

He doesn't take the top "Let me walk you to your hotel room, you can give me my top then" narrowing my eyes on him he comes up beside me covering me with his top "where are you staying?" Pulling out my card I read it showing it to him, he whistles "that's two hours away, come on" I put my key card back in my silver wallet purse.

"Why are you doing this?" I ask as he has me go into his black Ferrari.

"I don't know" he answers "so why did you go to a club hours away from your hotel? Avoiding someone? Husband? Wife?" I look out the window staring at the scenery "congratulations on the baby"

Looking at him confused "How did you know?"

"You ordered cranberry juice in a night club" he says "I've been around long enough to know that pregnant women who care about their babies and want fun do that, also you keep rubbing your belly right now" looking down I realize I am doing that "how far are you?"

"About a little over three months" I answer wiping some tears from my eyes.

"Is your husband in the picture? Or did you go to a fertility clinic?" He asks

"My husband's dead" I answer

"My condolences" he offers "first child?"

"Seventh"

"Seventh?!" He exclaims in shock "how old are you? I'm sorry, just took my off guard"

"I could tell" wiping my tears away "I'm thirty one"

"Years old?!" He exclaims again, holding his hand up "I'm sorry just" shaking his head "you look like your eighteen"

"Hydrate well" I answer "and lots of sex"

"I'll keep that in mind" nodding his head "so why are you in Italy? Visiting someone?"

"I'm just trying to feel anything" I answer, why am I saying this? "I'm having a hard time looking at my children without bursting into tears, they remind me of my husband and" I get emotional and try to keep my tears in "I came to Italy to just fuck, that's it"

"How old are your kids?" He asks

"My eldest twins are five, my eldest son is four, my next son is three and my youngest twins are turning two" I say, my phone goes off and I groan seeing who it is so I answer "you better have a damn good reason to be calling me right now"

"Uh"

Rolling my eyes "Listen very carefully Bambi, doctors don't go uh" mimicking her "pull your head from your ass and tell me why the fuck you are calling or go to my sister who isn't on vacation and go to her about your problems since I am off work"

"Mrs. Evens" she cries over the phone that I roll my eyes

"Doctors also don't cry in public, they cry in private" snapping at her "go find my sister and you better pray that what you wanted to tell me was worth it or you'd be messing not with one person's life but two cause you just took minutes from my life I will never get back" hanging up I huff rubbing my belly trying to calm down. I see we are at a red light and Demetri is staring at me then drives off.

"Was that your doctor?" He asks

"No" shaking my head "I am a doctor, that was one of my students"

"You made her cry"

"She's a surgeon" I say "if she can't handle what I throw at her then she shouldn't be a surgeon"

"Are you like this with all your students?" He asks

"Yes" nodding my head "I remember putting two interns in the psychiatric ward after one week of meeting me...that was a good day" he chokes on a laugh "I'm known as the Mistress of Evil, my sister Medusa"

"Is that her name?" He asks

Shaking my head no "Meredith" sighing as I close my eyes "thank you for taking me to my hotel"

"Of course" nodding his head "I'm not going back to work for a couple days, I'd your looking to just be in Italy to fuck" moving my hand to his crotch, I massage him through his pants that he grips the wheels of his car intaking a breath.