RUHI

Life has a very short period as we must cherish and live it whole-heartedly.But this explanation was not applicable in my case. Every girl dreams of getting loving life partner who will stay with her till the end and will love her and respect her. I am also one of them who expected some happiness and love from my life partner. Nevertheless my fate and the God do not want the same for me. Probably I deserve it.

I am just like a withered leaf which has become colourless and dry. Just like the faded leaf, my life has exactly become meaningless and typical pathetic. From the very beginning of my life, I have quested to find a little amount love and joy in my life. But now I have given up on myself. Sometimes, I wonder what a big sin I have done that God is this much infuriated with me. Am I so inauspicious that I can't just get some shorts of happiness?

I am married to that person whom I love more than anything. I have been always beside him as a friend and a well wisher. But it's also one of the biggest truth- it doesn't mean that if you love someone then he will also reciprocate your feelings and love you back. And I have been thrown in that list.While struggling with my loneliness and darkness, I have never tried to gather courage of being loved by him.

My husband is Mr.Krrish Chauhan who used to be also the best friend of me. But now,everything has changed with the flow of time and so is our equation. We both have grown older and we have got individuals in our lives. Everything is simply complicated and messed up.

I really want believe that he is doing everything out of obligations. I want to believe that he still cares for me even as his friend but I know that it will be my consolation to myself only. If he at least sympathises with me, that will be enough. But his unnatural silence pierces my heart.

May be I am unworthy to get love. The feeling of being unloved by him is eating away at my soul in a deep level. But still I have a ray of hope that he will to me back and love me back one day. On the other hand,I am also happy somewhere as he is atleast happy without me. Sometimes I feel myself the obstacle of his path.

I am deeply wounded. I don't know the remedy of it. Who will heal my wound ?

My thoughts were broken by the sound of the door. It was definitely . I quickly stood up from the couch and turned to face Krrish who had just returned from his office.

"Oh Krrish,you have come.Come on, get freshened up and have your dinner ." I said keeping a neutral expression. He looked at me for a moment before sighing.

Without saying anything, he went to his room to freshen up while I heated the food for him. Within minute , he came downstairs took a seat on the chair. After serving him dinner, I also sat down with him.He then silently had his dinner along with me. After having dinner, I went to clean the plates. While washing the plates, I didn't notice when he came out of nowhere. I looked at him.with furrowed eyebrow. I thought that he would say something important to me. But as usual, he again spoiled my expectation.

"Ruhi, you don't need to wait for me till night.We have not that relationship that you will behave like a wife.Have you got it ?" He said with a blank face.

I just nodded timidly and he left from there. I even didn't realize that tears had already started to gather in the corner of my eyes. When he said something, did he ever think that it could sadden me ? I should have known that those small gestures did not matter to me.I was such a sensitive fool that I couldn't take such small things lightly. I truly hated how weak I was for him.

I completed my work and went back to our room. I found that he had already slept in the bed. He seemed to be very exhausted. I just sat in bed the and gently caressed his hairs.I knew that my eyes were full of tears.

After sometimes, I went to the couch and laid down there. We didn't share the bed together even after being husband and wife. He was right. We were not same like the other couples.Tears were continuously flowing from my eyes making my cheeks wet . Though I was wiping them, but they were too stubborn to accept the truth.Everything was plainly useless.

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I am really sorry for the short and boring part.And I know that it's boring. But I think that after reading his, you can understand partly what's gonna happen in the story. I think that I can clear a little bit of all of your doubts.
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