there is no dignity in lies
but. to you i'd say anything you'd hear.
never mind me. here i stop in my tracks
look down to see its not my hand you're holding
you're talking to the other girl
but to me not a single word not a single glance
pass me by leave me in the wake of your fresh cologne
pass me by and look me not in the eye
pass me once like i was just another stranger

i'm obsessed with you crippled with indecision
there is often an ironic comfort in darkness
i practiced what i wanted to say fifteen hundred times
in front of the mirror
to say i'm leaving
It's time to flee
Break the leashes of your invisible command
weep till you see i'll never bloom
till you turn your head
to look at me
once

i'll know why you banged the door
my flaws always took control
step by step you walked away
until i was nothing but a shoddy draft
of the new girl you've been seeing
but i'll stare at you forever from my keyhole
it's mean almost unjust though
i'll do the same
i'll search for you in every face
building up my story with you
replicating that blueprint of you

but, i stood still at the wall
turned round and hid myself
you were smiling at her and i
let you walk over the grave of our
deteriorating romance
clenched my fists
and became my own tombstone
buried under you

~d.s.
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