"taehyung you dumb bitch, get the fuck up!" taehyung slowly opened his eyes when he heard jimin's voice.

"wh-what is?" he whined, trying to pull the blanket over his head again. jimin scoffed, pulling the blanket away again. "jeongguk's leaving!"

taehyung just groaned, trying to get the blanket back again. "good for him," he said, still not having wrapped his mind around the situation.

"he will go to busan in five minutes!" that's when taehyung's head shoot up and he quickly sat down. "n-now?"

"yes, now. you have to say goodbye taehyung. you can't part like this." jimin's voice softened.

taehyung bit his lip. "he probably doesn't want to see me. i mean, he's happy that he's leaving-

"shut up. that's the most ridiculous thing you ever said. now get up and run to him and fucking say goodbye at least. you know you will regret it otherwise," jimin spoke frustrated.

taehyung felt his heart break with every passing second he thought about jeongguk leaving and him not even getting the chance of saying goodbye. he knows jimin is right and that he will regret it forever if he doesn't go to jeongguk now, apologizes and bids him goodbye.

he quickly got up. "where is he?"

jimin smiled relieved. "parking lot behind the building. hopefully he's still there."

hearing that just inflicted the fire inside of taehyung even more and he sprinted out of his dorm room, not caring that he was still in his tata pajamas or that he hadn't brushed his hair or teeth. he didn't care at all, the only thing he was caring about was getting to jeongguk before he leaves.

actually, taehyung didn't know the way to the parking lot, but he knows the back exit and hopes that the parking lot will be there somewhere. he would panic, but he really had no time for that in this moment.

he didn't take the elevator, but the stairs, getting two floors down as fast as possible, before reaching the entrance hall and taking the back exit. a heavy breath left his lips when he looked outside, heart racing when he saw the parking lot

empty.

"no, no, no..." taehyung ran down the few stone steps and looked around the parking lot, mind telling him that this was the end, that jeongguk was gone and he won't see him again for a long time. he never felt this lost before.

he stopped running when he realized it wouldn't change anything at the fact that jeongguk was gone. burning tears prickled in his eyes, but he fought against them, taking deep breaths in an out. he didn't want to cry, because he knows it's his own fault for this situation. if the fight yesterday hadn't happen, taehyung would've been able to bid goodbye to jeongguk.

taehyung turned around and trotted towards the entrance stairs again and sat down, resting his elbows on his knees, head in his hands.

he felt as empty as this parking lot looked without any trace of jeongguk.

eventually he couldn't hold the tears in anymore and buried his face in his arms, softly crying to himself. he felt useless and dumb- hell, his last words to jeongguk were 'i hate you' and that with no meaning. he doesn't hate jeongguk, he could never hate him, it's the complete opposite of that.

he loves jeongguk.

taehyung didn't budge when he felt someone sitting down next to him, knowing it can only be jimin. "go away, chim. i.. wanna be alone," he mumbled into his arms, letting the tears flow freely.

taehyung froze when he felt a jacket wrap around him. "it's cold, at least you should cover up."

taehyung's head snapped up and his eyes doubled in size as he locked them with his best friend, who wasn't on his way to busan, but sitting right next to him.

"g-gguk.." taehyung breathed out, relieved, but also so sad. jeongguk smiled and opened his arms and taehyung didn't need an extra invitation, quickly hugged jeongguk and cried against his chest. "i'm so glad you're not gone yet, i'm so sorry-

"it's okay, it's my fault too, i can't force you and i'm sorry for sending you away," jeongguk mumbled against taehyung's soft hair,

taehyung sighed out contented in jeongguk's embrace, wishing for this moment to last forever. "why are you still here?"

"because of you, of course," jeongguk smiled, breathing in taehyung's familiar scent. taehyung smiled too, but sadness quickly took over when he realized that jeongguk still has to leave. he slowly cut away from the hug and wiped his tears away. he forced a smile on his lips.

"you should go now," he whispered, staring into jeongguk's dark familiar orbs. he will miss him so much.

jeongguk hummed, but didn't move, keeping his eyes locked with taehyung's.

"what is?" taehyung questioned, growing nervous. his heart was already jumping and the older's look wasn't helping at all.

jeongguk looked away. "no... nothing. will you escort me to the car?"

taehyung felt the tears forming in his eyes again and managed a broken hum and got up with jeongguk.

"there are two parking lots in the back?" taehyung asked when they reached another parking lot and jeongguk nodded. "i explained everything on your first day, you must have forgotten." taehyung tried to hide his astonishment when he spotted a black mercedes benz, guessing this is the car jeongguk will leave in, a driver sitting on the driver's seat.

"yeah, maybe." as far as taehyung remembers though, he wasn't paying any attention to what jeongguk was talking about, but his every move, him, him and only him. taehyung was distracted by jeongguk the whole time, but who can blame him?

"tae? did you hear me?" taehyung snapped out of his thoughts and looked up to jeongguk, an embarrassed blush forming on his cheeks as he shook his head. he was distracted.

"i said.. i have to leave now." it felt like someone pulled all strings connected to taehyung's heart tight. he still didn't want to let jeongguk leave.

but he accepts it. slowly, jeongguk took taehyung's hand in his. "i will miss you."

taehyung sobbed lightly. "i'll miss you too, but before you go i wanna tell you how sorry i am. i should be happy for you, but i acted selfish and i don't care about the promise when it comes to you being happy. also, i know i said that i hate you, but i don't, i could never, actually i lo-

taehyung froze on the spot, his eyes shooting wide open, when jeongguk let go of his hand and cupped his face instead, pressing their lips together.

he didn't dare to move, until he felt jeongguk's arms around his waist and he knew- this was real and really happening right now. taehyung finally leaned in, kissing jeongguk back and following his lead. his hands slowly went up to rest on jeongguk's chest as he succumbed to the warm feeling this whole act caused. a part of him still wasn't believing that this was really happening, while the other was crying in euphoria.

they cut away from the kiss at the same time, but jeongguk still kept his arms tightly wrapped around taehyung's waist.

taehyung blushed embarrassed and tried to look anywhere but jeongguk. "no, no, look at me, babyboy." jeongguk demanded though, making taehyung look to him again.

"do you know how long i've dreamed of this?" jeongguk asked with a quiet voice, that let taehyung's heart explode. "i-i... didn't k-know you like me... l-like that," was all taehyung could form on words.

jeongguk chuckled lightly and kissed taehyung's forehead. "that's your own fault, bub. oppositely to you, i didn't try to hide how much i like you."

taehyung blushed, ashamed. "i-is that why you called me dumb?"

jeongguk laughed. "exactly."

both boys flinched when they suddenly heard the horn of the car. taehyung felt his heart drop, the car reminding him on what was going to happen next. jeongguk will leave.

the older male noticed the way taehyung spaced out and sighed softly, hugging him. "i hate to leave you like this.."

taehyung shook his head against jeongguk's chest. "t-then stay."

"or come with me." taehyung looked up to jeongguk, smiling lightly. "i can't," he whispered and jeongguk just nodded, hugging him tighter against his body. "please take care of yourself, tae."

"y-you too. don't overwork yourself, bun. also call me."

jeongguk smiled. "of course."

"h-hey gguk, before you leave.." taehyung slowly moved his face from jeongguk's chest, the male giving him a questioning look. "can you.. kiss me again?" an embarrassed blush formed on his cheeks and jeongguk chuckled softly.

he placed his palm on taehyung's cheek, gently stroking his cheekbone. "of course i can.." he whispered and connected their lips once again with each other. this time, taehyung was prepared and wrapped his arms around jeongguk's neck to deepen the act.

he had no questions about what was happening, no questions about jeongguk's feelings and where this will lead. he was just in the moment, kissing his crush, best friend or whatever- having no time to think about that anyways.

still, this will probably be their last interaction, before they will see each other again.

when jeongguk cut off first, he placed his forehead against taehyung's and looked into his teary eyes. "fuck... this is a dream.." jeongguk whispered, having taehyung's heart do a jump. "say that louder," he giggled, only to flinch again when jeongguk's driver pressed the horn for the third time.

"shut up!" jeongguk groaned as he turned to the driver who gave him an impatient look. taehyung giggled lightly. "you should probably go now."

jeongguk just hummed. "see you."

taehyung was so glad jeongguk didn't say goodbye. it sounds like an end. "see you," taehyung whispered back and watched jeongguk sit down in the back seat.

"text me when you arrive," taehyung said and jeongguk nodded. he closed the door and opened the window.

"by the way, tae?"

"hmm?" taehyung leaned closer to the car.

"you're beautiful," jeongguk said, leaning out of the window to peck taehyung's lips. the younger blushed heavily and watched as the window closed and listened to the motor growl.

he couldn't see jeongguk anymore, because the windows are black, but he still waved, knowing jeongguk could see him.

once the car was gone, taehyung felt the tears run down his cheek, but still there was a smile on his face. "i love you," he whispered. he wanted to say it earlier, but jeongguk interrupted him. he felt bad though to hold it in.

"was that your boyfriend?" min yoongi, jeongguk's impatient driver and a family friend
asked.

jeongguk shook his head. "no, he's not."

"you seemed pretty intimate though," yoongi chuckled. "if you're no couple what is he then?"

jeongguk smiled, looking out the window. "the person i fell in love with."