Warnings - strong language, death
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Instead of going to tutoring that starts in thirty minutes I headed to Dumbledores office already knowing the password.

"Professor may we speak?" I said

"Oh Miss Hawthorne good to see you, how's tutoring?" He asked

"I'd like to cancel my sessions with Matteo, he's far to arrogant, self obsessed and it's too much to put on along with my classes to be on top of and not to mention quidditch" I said

"I see, are you falling behind in your classes?" He asked

"It's growing hard on myself, the constant pressure that he puts me under is just overwhelming and I think it best he see another tutor for the time being maybe I can try again later but for my mental state and grades I can't do it" I said

"Well no repercussions here Miss Hawthorne in fact I think your right, maybe a break is what you need I approve your time off and I'm do hope you come back with a different plan, is there anything else?" He asked

"No and thanks professor will you have someone notify Mr riddle for me, I have some business I need to get to" I said

"Very well I'll see to it myself" he said

And with that I left with a weight lifted from my shoulders. I passed students who were rushing to meet curfew making it to their common rooms. I made my way back down to the dungeons and headed straight towards my room. Until pansy and Draco stopped me with concerned expressions.

"Don't you tutor Matteo in five minutes?" Draco asked

"Oh uh I no longer tutor him" I said

"What why? I thought it was going well" Pansy asked

"Can't you see it pansy she's beyond exhausted she's got both school and quidditch to worry about and on top of it all she tired teaching Matteo even though she hates him" Draco said

"Right do get some rest trinity the next trial is coming up" she said

"Thanks I'll be better soon" I said and with that I left

I was a good thirty minutes into my book when my door flew open and a very rage filled Matteo walked in.

"What the fuck, you made a deal" he hissed

I rolled my eyes set my book down and shut my door muttering a muffling spell and went back towards my bed.

"No little serpent we had a damn deal now tell me what the fuck happened?" He snapped

"You want to know what happened, you really need to fucking know" I shouted

He stormed over to me and grabbed my throat pushing me to the bed.

"Yes, what has gotten into you" he hissed but less anger in his tone

"Here I'll fucking show you" I snapped

I grabbed his head and projected my thoughts, my memories of the past and present. From the beating, the schooling, trying to please everyone except myself, Theo and Cedric. The fact my brother was in the tournament and could end up really hurt. The feelings I got when I saw Matteo with some girl other than myself. And then it stopped and I pulled back with a blank expression. No emotions showed, nothing to give him the satisfaction of seeing me broken and bruised. He stepped back suddenly as his eyes met mine tears in his eyes but he didn't dare let them fall.

"There now you know riddle, I might seem like a prefect good girl but underneath it all I'm broken, I'm damaged and Merlin knows useless, I've got no love from dear mom or dad and my only friends are distancing themselves from me and for what reason they won't tell me, but they are and their pushing me away so why not push myself away from everything else that I thought I needed, but I don't I don't need you, I don't need school and fucking hell i don't need friends or quiddage none of even matters because at the end of term im back home with the family i hate" I said and turned towards the window that faced the water

"Trinity I" he began

"No Matteo don't tell me you relate, don't tell me your sorry don't say anything just, just leave like everyone else does like they have my entire life, fuck archer doesn't live with us anymore and me I'm stuck but you, I'm sure you can have anything you dream of or want you get what you want all the time, but I'm not worth it so just leave" I said

"I...fine" he said and left

That's when I had the last straw I muffled the room and it's as if time slowed down. I fell to my knees and the magic within broke free trashing the room entirely. I cried and cried sobbed even and broke a mirror with my hand as well as drank two bottles of fireball. I repaired the damage and went to my bed just staring at the ceiling as I found the nightmares clouding my nights sleep.
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The next day I wasn't speaking, I didn't eat breakfast and I went through the motions of my routine. Pansy noticed but it didn't seem like Draco or Theo not even blaze seemed to notice or maybe they didn't care. As the final trial came we all sat in the stands waiting for the winner and it felt like hours on end. When Harry Potter came out with the cup and my brother. I rushed excited at first until I froze it was as if time stopped and the breath knocked out of my lungs.

"NOOOO" I screamed as someone held me back

"No no no, let me go my...archer wake up you have to wake up" I shouted

"Easy" the person holding me said

I fought against them as I watched them carry my brothers lifeless body away. When I broke free of their hold I ran, I ran and ran to wherever my feet would take me. Yet I didn't stop running even with the shouting as I got to a cliff.