Alif, Lam, Meem, Ra. These are the verses of the Book; and what has been revealed to you from your Lord is the truth, but most of the people do not believe.

-13:1

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"Yess!! Alhumdulillah" , I whispered. Alisha," Assalam O Alikum." Me,"Wailikum Asalam How're you?"

 Alisha with a heavy voice," Umm fine.."

Me," I'm waiting outside .Will you please open the door?"

 Alisha ," Whh-at? But whyy?"

Me, " I'm ju-st umm...Can you open up the door first."

Alisha with her weak voice," Wait..comingg."

She opened the door. I entered and asked," Weren't you sleeping?"

She was looking so dull and tired with those dark bags lower her eyes.

Alisha lowering her gaze tears with in her eyes ," I can't."
 
We walked inside .I realised everyone else is sleeping ,it was quiet silence well what am I supposed to see at 3 a.m late night.

She walked in her room ,I followed her.We sat in front of eachother.

Me rubbing my fingers on mobile's screen," I was hoping that you're not asleep."

She asked in deep voice , " hmm..It's too late...So why are you here? "

I looked her she was looking at the floor and continued, " I don't know.I just don't wanted to leave you alone."

She looked shocked but stayed quiet.

I asked," Have you ate anything?"

She rubbing her head ," Yes...had dinner with aunt."

Me," Where is she now?"

She now put her head on her hands," Sleeping in another room."

I moved closer to her saying," You looks so tired, should go to sleep."

She," I can't sleep Asher.. ".
I can feel the pain in her heavy voice.She looked at me with wattery eyes.

She, " Why always me? why am I always left alone? Whome I loved ,left me ."

She started crying.

I know exactly how it feels like but noone has any control over life or destiny.

I put my hands on hers ," AA-lishaa ,don't think like that." 

She is getting hyper ," It's like that Asher. I'm still hoping that dad will somehow reach the coast, he is an excellent diver. "

I agree that he could be excellent but how could he survive at the center? I do want to console her and not let her break her anymore but I can't find words .What to tell her? I don't know whether to be practical or tell her to wait for some miracle.

Me," Oo-kaaa-ay okaayy look at me."

She frustatingly shooking her head," NOOoo...Everyone is lying."

She is not a state of accepting the fact.

Me,"Well..okay they lied.But I believe in miracles." I smiled.

She looked up at me wiping her tears .

Suddenly my cell phone rings.

Me checking my phone, " Allah will do the best.In Sha Allah believe Him."

It was from CYP Agency I talked to my friend working there .I don't depend on the government agencies so I tried the private one.I hope to get some good news.

I get up to pick the telephone and moved outside the room, leaving he which I didn't know .I don't want Alisha to get any hint of it.

Me ," Assalam O Allikum."

Person," Wailkum Assalam Sire.I'm calling from CYP Agency."

Me, " I know .. is there any update ?"

Person, "Okay. We have found that sank ship four hours before.Our members are working on it. We found that twenty four people were travelling out of which two were trapped in the ship."

Me," Oh ."

Person,"We were late to save anyone."

Me," And what about the two?"

Person ," That's what I called you for.We have concluded that it's not possible to find anymore bodies because of high tides they're missing."

Me," Have you identified any of those....'' I lowered my voice not to reach Alisha," Dead bodies?"

Person," Captain Areeb and Miss Alia were identified."

Me," Is there any chance to find anyone alive? Like if there is any possible near island or something for rescue?"

Person, " Up to my research the nearest island is 100 miles far from the place of incident,so it is nearly impossible.But noone knows."

Well that's not a good news.

Me," Anything else?"

Person," No that's all Thankyou."
I hanged up.

I gave Alisha some medicines so she can sleep and feel relax.

           *Alisha's POV*

I layed on my bed while I writhe in pain.I closed my eyes tighly because my tears might leak.I can not speak for what I am afraid of because I'll scream rubbed my head because it's freaking hurting , it was useless. Asher thinks those pills can lower my pain might make me relax , I know they can't.

I know he can't just leave me .I whish he would come home at anytime to meet me ,I wish he would survive ,I want him back .How can I believe he is no more? How can I believe this? For mom I agreed because I saw that by my own eyes but this time..

I was remembering every pleasant moment we had spent togther, from the first day of my primary school to which he took me holding my little fingers , the naughty hopping me jumped on the puddle messing my new uniform all around..

I remember how I used to study till late night and he sat litening to the radio in the next room because I fear at being awken alone at mid nights.

I can not forget the every single moment we spent.He is always telling me that he prouds of me , making me more happy assuring me that my harworking has paid off. The way he taught me to believe in myself

Now I know why he is in distress these days.Calling me more often then usual.I regret I haven't met him before he left for his trip.I must be regretting my whole life for this.

I was thinking all this and soon the sleep consumes me.

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2 days later:We are home now.

I saw it was heavy snowing ,I was out of over-coat or sweater. Suddenly, dad was calling me to come near . I tried and tried with my whole energy but I can't even move anywhere.

He was in a rush .And here comes the wind strom and dad moves faster.

I was stuck ,my legs were freezed.

"Wait for meee.....!" I shouted .

Asher sitting on the chair near my bed was looking at me with widened eyes .

So it was a dream.

He came near asked, " You saw a dream?"

I nodded.

I moved down my blanket, sat straight at the corner .

He sat besides me.

" It was just a dream." ,he said.

"I know.... even the reality is harsh today ", I exclaimed.

He, "You should not break like this.I always found a strong daring Alisha in you."

It's not what you saw from outside.I stayed silent.

Me,''So what would you do in such horrible situations?"

He smiling instead of answering.

I stared him for a while.

He started, " You know Alisha.. girls are lucky in a sense they can cry in front of anyone and noone feels awkward...we can't cry ...Orrr we can but not supposed to be.."

She, " Then..?

He, "I pray! "

She," Does it really helps?"

He forcing his words, " This ONLY helps."

He paused then in calm words told me some really intersting theory.

 "Standing in front of the Creator of creators, King of kings , more loving than a mother is the only therapy we need. "

Me with wondering eyes seeing the love in his voice and the strength in his heart.Here me sitting with  empty handed, broken or dead inside.

I want to be contented like him but I'm not so sure about praying. I do wonder that why is he always calm and satisfied with anything happened.

I don't know how to tell him that I want to try it the thing I never opted for, but how could I start at this stage .Is it right that you never cared for it your whole life and now when you need Him(Allah) you are going to pray?

 
Me looking to my empty hands, "You were lucky you are praying till start.How would it feel like to start it when you're in trouble?That's just not fair. "

He , " If you have never fall why would you eat the medicine?  Sometimes we get so creul to ourselves.Don't think this way.Give yourself a chance and I know it works IN SHAA ALLAH."

Maybe he is right, dad told me similar things about it before.
I want to content myself .

We prayed Zuhr's salah together. When he started reciting some Surahs in arabic some of which I memorized in childhood ,his voice differ. Although I didn't understand whatsoever is going in Arabic, not even a single word .
 He was actually right.

At the end I prayed to Allah to contend my heart and ease my soul.

This thing really works .

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AOA, I know this is too late , I am so sorry .The problem is that I don't even know my problem ,my brain sometimes needs a vacation or what I cannot focus from last two weeks.I hope it won't happen again IN SHAA ALLAH.

One thing to mention , this story get the reads more than 1K Alhumdullilah.

JazakAllah everyone♡