After months of me trying to get the same present I had when I started I finally got it correct and I woke up MARK by my side and I got up silently and when I was done doing what I do I felt Tim grab my hand and turn me around to face him and he looked like he wanted to do something very sexual and I blushed "jack what's it like to be able to travel from alternate universes?" I stared at him"I don't know" "jack jack jack what would mark think if I did this to you?" He said and kissed me and I blushed a deeper color "Tim your making me feel like a whore" I said and since he's as tall as me he dipped me at an angle and used his right hand to rub my face "jack YOUR not a whore YOUR HOT" he said and kissed me and stared at my eyes that were slowly relaxing then mark and Sam walked in as soon as my whole body relaxed to his kiss and he let go and smirked and I looked to the right as he rubbed my red hot cheek again "Tim there staring" I said and he picked me back up and looked at mark and Sam from the corner of his eyes and turned fully around and let go of my hands and sam tears up and mark just slowly moved his head left and right and I slowly cried as mark walked away and I looked at Tim "I fucking hate you" I said quietly and I ran ahead of mark in our room and locked the door and I made sure I would DIE and not go to another universe and I slowly cried and I grabbed the collar that mike put on me and I yanked on it trying to pull it off and it shocked me and I gave up and I lifted it up and cut a slit I wasn't dead and I cut a line like a rose on my stomach I still wasnt dead I CUT squares in my legs and circles in my arms and I cut the back of my neck and I didn't let out a sound and mark got suspicious and walked in I forgot to lock the door and I laid there bleeding in the carpet and on the porcelain sheets and mark grabbed me and i blacked out and I woke up and saw mark and Tim fighting and I blacked out again and I woke up in the hospital and I was there alone I walked around and I walked back into the bed and I huddled my head into my knees and something pushed my body down to where I was lying down "so peaceful" a metallic strict yet sensitive voice of a male and a cover of light came over me and I jumped up in real life and cried "I hate my life i FUCKING WANT TO DIE!" I cried aloud and grabbed mark and cried more and my tears were lie bullets literally and I cried nonstop and my eyes went to a dead color my heart pounded slowly and my brain had one thing on my mind suicide I looked down and my clothes changed to black and they all stared at me and I felt no emotions  and my wings went clear and I flew out of the room and stopped the time and I walked home and when they were home I was still in black no emotions no matter about anything not even my own life after three weeks they noticed I was depressed MARK made me were light clothes and had to force me to eat "I'm nothing I'm worthless" I said as I closed my bed room door
and I read a note "jack we love you do not die please I don't want to see you hurt I love your smile and your sympathy to everyone and I love your sweet smell like cakes and cookies" I read aloud and I asked mark why he wrote this "I didn't RIGHT that" he said taking it away from me and read it "i have a stalker?" I said and panicked