I'm lost.

Lost… of thoughts.

Roaming around the darkness killing people, taking lives, I was out of reach for about two consecutive weeks. Can't control my beast and I'm tired of these shits...

I can't control myself during daylight. Can't deal with sunlight can't fuckin' even ask for help, no matter how fuck I want I just cannot get myself near them, won't take a risk.

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin. Mas'yado nang magulo ang lahat. Everything's at mess. Hanggang kailan? Hanggang kailan ako magiging gan'to?

How will I survive this kind of feeling? Bakit sa dinarami ng tao sa mundo, ako pa ang napagdiskitahan?

A livin' dead, why not just take me then?

Why?

"Please don't kill me!"

"Have mercy!"

"I still want to live."

"Pleaseee…!"

"Huwag…!"

Different lines, but same thought. They begged. But each word has fallen on my deaf ears. I killed them all.

At all cost.

Kahit anong pigil ko, hindi din siya nagpatinag. And slowly, I know...he's reigning.

Have tasted many bloods but none match hers. Has ruined many lives, have caused noise out from a serene city.

But above all that, I’m still hoping. I’m still hoping that this was just a nightmare. There this anticipation, that one day, I'll wake up and just be the Haunt Mallory, whom I truly was, before.

How will I face mom, kung ganito ako? I might just scare or worst, will end up hurting her.

I'm starting to loathe myself. Hiyang hiya na ako sa mga nagawa ko. This fucking thirst has been ruling my fuckin' self these past couple of weeks.

I took a deep breath, and later exhaled. Pagod na ako Zannah. "Do help me Sweetheart..."

Exhausted, I lay down taking a refuge in a tree. Isang buhay na naman ang kinuha ko. And now, I'm sensing a chaos out from the woods. They're heading their way in, though.

Should I just surrender? And let them put an end to all of the things that's been hurting me? Will I able to witness the breath-taking sunrise again, without worrying of getting hurt?

As I was about to close my eyes, isang nakasisilaw na liwanag ang pumukaw sa aking paningin. Dagling naligalig ang aking sistema and when I looked up.

A well rounded moon, welcomed my sight. The moon on its whole apparent disk, has illuminated. What scenery is has been. Though, it's way better when she's here with me.

As I was delved into its mysterious beauty, a sudden pang has exploited within my inside. I grip onto my chest, and even banged several times. Hoping to ease the pain, but I've just made it even worst.

Seems like, adding a fuel to a burning woods.

And there that noise, a mystifying one. Not again...I'm too tired to fight, I might give in...I let a piercing cry, hoping it might ease my pain.

"Arghhh!!!"

My gaze fell on my left arm, nang maramdamang tila ba napupunit ito sa tindi nang hapdi na nagmumula rito.

I shouted in pain not knowing what to do. I've been in this situation before, that time when I transmuted into Vampire. That same feeling when I did nothing but to endure the pain.

Tulad muli ngayon, pinanuod at tiniis ko lang ang sakit, watching my all transformed into a furry one, I'm now having sharp claws, wolf alike.

"Awoooooooooooooooooo!"

I roared onto that rounded moon, roaring out my frustrations. How the fuck will I deal with this new demon?!

Of all people, why me? Of all kinds why wolf?

Does the Deity enjoy playing me, that I can make Him smile just by being hopeless? What more when I cry? He will probably laugh, I bet.

Pagod na pagod na ako. Kung kasalanan ang sumuko,

Forgive me…

"This way!"

I was alarmed when I heard lots footstep near to where I am. I'm sensing danger. Those were surely the people whom I caused troubles. Part of those families I’ve ruined. They're now's after me.

But when, I'm sure enough of giving up. A new Demon had awakened. He's makin' me feel an extreme hunger.

Making me move against my will, muli akong nakarinig nang mga ingay, tsk! Too bad they're too weak for me.

I took a glance up, there that dark clear moonlit sky.

Watch me up there, I will show you how asshat I can be. I will make you regret, turning me into an unkind beings. For makin' me feel shameful.

Pagod na akong magpigil. I will now give You what You want! Just make sure You'll bear with it!

I closed my eyes, spying their movements. The sooner they get near, the better. "Hmmmm, too many preys, I will be having a great dinner tonight!"

I then opened my eyes, and started to walk welcoming my dinners. I can see them now, though a mile away. They're holding a torch. Humans are hilarious! Swear! How could that thing end my life?

I have two demons in me. The one is thirsty, and the other is hungry.

Flesh and bloods

"Awoooooooooooooo!"

I roared a louder one than ago, and it made them shudder, some even run their butt off, shouting different lines? Tsk! That was just a roar I haven't started yet for Fuckin's sake!

I was about to take a step again when a glowing arrow passed just right before my eyes. It hit the trunk of the tree beside me.

A familiar glowing arrow,

I look at my right side, and there I saw someone stood too bright, that I took a couple of steps aside.

"Enough, Dork…"

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