As I started hearing the bells banging rings, it was my cue.

Twelve midnight.

I stood up, off my bed as I started to walk in darkness, devoid of light? No worries. I can still see things, neat and crystal clear.

Just seconds later, I found myself out of her windows. And there I saw her, sleeping as peaceful as she was when she's within my embrace.

Those times when we're at her home, those times, I told myself that she belong to me, alone.

I sneaked inside, just like a wind. No noise at all. I just stood there, watching her for a while. What a Goddess.

As soon as I was about to caress her left cheek, her eyes opened. There those greenish orbs, I’ve been longing for.

She stares at me, like she's battling her own mind. If what she's seeing was real.

And to help her decipher things, I quicky stole a kiss from those inviting lips of her.

That's when her senses awakened. She sat up and stared back at me like I did something she’s not willing to.

"What the hell are you doing here?" She whispered, between gritted teeth.

"I just wanted to remind, where you belong."
Her forehead creased. Closing her eyes for a while whispering words before she look at me again.

"Get back to your room!" She yelled like she didn't whisper, just a while ago.

"I’ll stay-"

"I said get back to your room!" Sigaw niya muli.

“Goddamn it!”

Pati ako ay hindi na din napigil ang sariling sumigaw. Why is ahe acting like I’m hella just nothing to her but just a mere stranger?

"Damn! Ganoon nalang? Gaanon nalang ba kadali para sa ‘yong ipagtabuyan ako? Nawala ka ng isang buwan. Tapos babalik na para bang walang nangyari?  Na parang ‘di mo ako kilala? Tapos makikita ko pang naki-"

"Shut the hell up Mallory! Get the fuck out of my room!" She exclaimed. Not minding if someone might hear her.

Ayon na naman 'yung mga titig niyang tila ba 'di ako kilala.

Enough of that kind of behavior Zannah!

"Everything about us was over. And hell… there's nothing going on between us either--"

Before she even gets to finish her words I crashed my lips onto hers. I even held her firmly, snaking my hands around her waist and the other to her nape.

God! How I missed her.

I missed her strawberry lips. I missed her inexplicable heat. I missed everything about her.

She's not kissing back. I bit her lower lip, to have an access of what's within, as I was savouring how tasty her lips are. Too swayed by her taste, I missed something. Next thing happened,

"What the hell Zannah!" I yelled.

She fuckingly just kneed my army. "Fuck Zannah!’Pag hindi lang tayo makabuo--"

"Damn Mallory! Stop with your nonsense ideas! Just please leave, n-ow!" I stiffed when I heard her voice cracked.

Nakakaiyak ba 'yung halik ko?

But when she looks behind her, there I saw the door moving, but I can't hear any sounds from there.

She made her room, sound proof ago. That's why she can be freely shouts at me. She really is fond of shouting. I was about to walk near her again, when the next words came out of her mouth swept me off from doing what I intend to do.

"Behind that door...is a man. W-hom I don't wanna hurt... no more."

A moment of silence, took over. I am stuck looking at her, while her attention is on the man behind the door. Tila pinipiga ang puso ko sa mga narinig nito.

"Tapos ako Zannah, ako okay lang masaktan?"

That's where she looks back at me. "Tangina! May nagawa ba akong 'di mo nagustuhan? May nangyari bang -"

"Yes! Fucking yes!" She yelled again, with tears streaming down her cheeks. I was taken abacked by that.

"So stop whatever running, in that mere head of yours. Because Mallory, I can't...we can't. I'm sorr---" For the second time, I crashed my lips on hers once again.

She fights off, and she succeeds.

I'm tired too.

I watch how she wiped off her lips in disgust. "Don't you dare do it again! Everything is just a mistake Mallory! That one hella week is nothing but a pure nightmare."

"Take it back, S-sweetheart. You're hurting me." I plead, shaking my head. I can't believe what she has just said.

That week has been heaven to me. A dream comes true. I held her hand, though she tried pulling it back.

"Let's go home, let's get back to our home. Let's just stay there just you and me...Please, don't do this to me. I love yo-"

"I can't be the cause of his d-death."

Doon ako tuluyang natigilan. Doon ako napanghinaan, like something just hit my heart, hindering me to calm and breathe fine.

"I'm mated, Mallory."

"And spending time... being with you, means me, killing my m-mate. And I almost killed him." Tears didn't stop flowing from her eyes.

I don't understand. Wala akong maintindihan sa lahat ng mga sinasabi niya. Mated the fuck!

"Mated? The hell is this some kind of a joke? 'Cause honestly Zannah. It's no funnier!"

I exclaimed, totally lost. Hindi ito sumagot, I am the one you're killing Sweetheart.

"Fucking shit Zannah! Why get mated to someone not me?"

I look at her eyes once again, a total stranger.

I can feel it, I'm dying.

I rub my chest, since when did it become so hard to breathe? Since when did my vision, becomes blurry?

"I'm sorry."

That's the last word I heard, right before I left, shedding a fucking tear.

I'm done with this bullshit!

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