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WINCHCOMBE, ENGLAND - END OF AUGUST, 1975
THE NIGHT SKY was so clear that Kat could see all the constellations that were present. She was sitting on the roof of her house, just outside her bedroom window. She wasn't supposed to climb up here, but no one stopped her; her dad was asleep downstairs on the couch and her sister was at her boyfriend's house.
In the 7 weeks that she and her older sister Fran had a summer break from their boarding school up in Scotland, Fran had had 5 different love interests, as Kat liked to call them because they weren't all as serious as the other. The current boyfriend, who was actually a boyfriend, was called Daniel. Daniel lived 2 towns over and had met her sister while out clubbing. He also had the biggest house you could think of, so Fran had spent the last 2 weeks mostly at Daniel's house. Kat was only just a little bit jealous of Fran's abilities to make friends and get into relationships, how could she not?
Her dad got home from work at 10 pm and had claimed the couch as his bed from the moment he stepped foot in their home. He worked at the Ministery of Magic, as some kind of high-up secretary. Still, any normal human being would never be allowed to work that late right? The bad thing about Colin Barlowe was that he was in fact, a people pleaser. He never objected when somebody asked if he could stay just a tiny bit longer, resulting in his late arrival home every day.
But despite being alone, Kat embraced the loneliness. She had always been lonely, and she had learned to love the feeling. The feeling of complete peacefulness, the sincerity of only having her own voice in her head and only her own thoughts and opinions.
Kat and her sister would go shopping in diagon alley tomorrow, with their father, to buy new school supplies for the upcoming school year. They both had already received their respective letters, with the needed supplies included. In a couple of days, on September 1st, she would take the train from Platform 9¾ to Hogwarts, her home away from home.
She liked Hogwarts. Or at least the cosiness of the castle and the castle grounds. Her favourite place to go was the Black Lake. Many students (and staff) found the lake terrifying. Rightfully so, as in the depths of the lake lay many creatures that could snap a 15-year-old girl in half. Still, Kat found herself drawn to it. People often overlooked the harmless creatures in the lake, only seeing the dark and dreadful ones.
She especially had found comfort in the black lake in her first year. Kat's first year at Hogwarts had been the most dreadful one. After being sorted into Hufflepuff, Kat was excited to learn and make friends. Only for the reality of her situation to hit. No one saw her. Because of the fact that Kat carried her family's curse within her if you weren't paying close attention to only her, she could not be seen.
She had of course experienced this in primary school but had hoped the magic of Hogwarts would somehow cure her of her curse, alas, not even the centuries-old castle could stand against a powerful witch's wrath.
Along with her eternal loneliness, Kat had also been cursed with the guilt of killing her mother. Her mother's life had been taken for Kat to live. She could notice her father blaming her for the death of her mother since she was young. It was what rooted her guilt in place, and still held it there to this day.
Fran, her sister, was her only life source. Fran Barlowe was like a rescue boat in Kat's sea. She was her anker, she made her alive and kept her alive. Fran was entering 7th year this school year, which meant that after this year, Kat would be all on her own. No one to grab onto to stay afloat, to keep her from drowning.
Feeling some droplets of rain start to fall from out of the dark sky, Kat embraced the reassurance of being real, and not completely being non-existent. In the rain, she felt almost normal.
When the rain suddenly stopped, Kat was drenched from head to toe. She started shivering slightly from the coldness of the evening air on her now wet clothes. She would probably get sick if she stayed outside any longer.
She skillfully climbed back inside through her window, making a small puddle on the floor as she contemplated her next move. She could either take a shower or just put on fresh clothes.
After just a moment of comparing the two options, she chose the former. She put her hair in a loose high bun and undressed quickly, her clothes sticking to her body from the wetness, and jumped into the shower to calm her trembling body.
She put on her favourite pyjamas, and turned off her big light, just keeping her corner lamp and reading lamp on. She jumped into bed and reached towards the book on her nightstand, a muggle book, by the name of Little Women. She had only just started the book, "borrowing" it from her sister's bookcase.
When her clock pointed towards 1:45 am, Kat decided that it was time to sleep.
But when her mind wasn't occupied with reading, it went to other things, sometimes nice things, sometimes stupid things and sometimes terrifying things.
Tonight it was the turn of stupid. All she could think about was her sister's rich boyfriend Daniel. He wasn't even attractive, and still, all Kat could think about was what it would be like to get that type of attention. To love and to be loved. Kat didn't believe in the idea of soulmates, but she still let herself dream. Not about Daniel, because in the end, it really wasn't about him. It was about the idea of having someone so close that they want to love you. That they want to cherish you and divide all their attention towards you.
Kat was a proud attention whore because, all the attention she got, she thrived on, even if it was such a small amount. Teachers who praised her, animals that noticed her, classmates that realised she existed.
She was quite the attention whore.
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okay lovelies, first official chapter, what do we think? if its absolute shite please tell, I can not tell what I'm writing anymore and if its even ant good. again, always let me know any mistakes or questions u have! i am starting school again tomorrow so I might not be as active as I would've hoped, but we shall see! love from me !
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