"Wake up"

"Hmmpff.. nooo I'm too comfortable right
now"

Silence.

Slowly opening my eyes, I looked up at Dwayne. He was already out of the sleeping bag and was looking down at me expressionless. "You're not giving me the chance to sleep a bit more right?"

"No."

What kind of meaning has life anymore?

........

We've been now wandering around for a couple of hours and were able to find a little town.
The huts weren't completely destroyed at all, but again, no one to be seen. Where are they?
I looked back at Dwayne, who walked past me, entering the first hut. I did the same, but didn't followed him in the huts he went in, nor did he. Like this, we would be done a bit earlier.

An hour passed by and only one hut was left. I looked out of the window, to check out what Dwayne was doing. He entered the last hut we had left,-  Why is his bag was completely full?!  How did he do that?! I just found two canned foods till now. What should I do now? I have little to nothing in my bag! AND HE JUST SIMPLY FILLED HIS BAG; AS IF IT'S SOMETHING USUAL!
What's s in his bag, for it to be completely full? Gosh, I have to know! NOW!

'No Holly!Curiosity killed the cat, don't forget that. Let's focus on more important things now.' I turned around and continued to search for useful things in the hut I was in. It's actually a miracle that I found two cans, but after seeing Dwayne's bag, I don't know anymore. Walking into the kitchen, my last hope exploded the second I opened the last cabinet. Again, I didn't found anything except for some broken plates! Life is great, JUPI!                                                                   "Let's hope that Dwayne found some food" I mumbled and went into the bedroom. Which was completely empty too! I was getting more stressed out at the situation, I was in and how worse it could get, if we don't find more food or water. What's up with everyone?! This bed doesn't even has a mattress!  "Where did all of them go?!"

On my way out of the hut, I saw a little picture, framed on the wall. A woman, a man and their child between them was pictured on it. They looked like a English couple... Both of them were holding hands with their child and were smiling widely. They looked happy as a family...       While looking at the little picture, my own life came to mind. I've never had photos like this. There isn't even a photo, in which I'm pictured with both of my parents. The only photos, I have of myself, are the photos, we took on photodays at school. 

My parents are travelling a lot, but I never was allowed to go with them. They got plenty of beautiful pictures from around the world, while I was sitting at home alone without a key.
What that meant for me?
If I would've gone outside, I wouldn't had the chance to go back inside of the house. Everything in here has a lock! Even the windows!! Even on these school excursions, I wasn't allowed to join my class. They said it would be a waste of my time and it would just let my grades drop. Which is completely nonsense! This Palawan trip is the first time, I'm travelling at all. You know, it's not like I'm not happy, that others live a better life than me, but everytime I see a family like this, I get really sad and get a reflection of my own stupid life. How unhappy und unloving my life actually is and how lonely I actually am.

There never was a human being in this world, who actually wanted me by their side. It was just me and my working life. People avoided me and didn't even asked for my name, after my mother told them to stay away from me. It was like a pest, which followed me till today.
People pointed their fingers at me and mumbled things like:

"That's the girl, with the mother, who wants everyone to stay away from her!" 

My teacher once even asked me the question, what the best day of my life was, but I wasn't able to give him a answer. I hadn't had any. I only had plenty lonely and sad days. Why is no one asking me about that? I could write a whole book about it! Me waking up and having a father who completely ignores my existence and a mother who fakes her love to me. What about that?People just don't know what I'm about, or who I am! There's so much more of me, that no one ever saw. They havent't seen how broken I am behind my smile. A smile is a expression. A way to show the person in front of you, in which way your sentence was meant to be. It never was and never will be a emotion. It will never show the way I actually felt or feel right now!

Why is everyone forgetting that?

"What are you doing there?" A deep icy voice asked behind me. Without turning around,
I knew to whom this voice belonged to, so I didn't turned around. Dwayne slowly walked next to me and looked to the picture, I was looking at. After a few seconds, he looked at me and I did the same. His jaw clenched and his gaze wandered from my eyes to my cheeks.

"Why are you crying?" He asked and looked me intensely into my eyes. Slowly touching my face , I realized that I was crying. Why didn't I noticed that? All of this... all of this, why is this happening to me? Is it how it will always go on? "That's none of your business" I told him emotionless and directly left the hut. Why are all of my emotions acting crazy right now?! Why can't I just be strong and independent like others!

I don't want to think anymore, I want to LIVE!

Since then, Dwayne and I didn't talked at all. I know that we're not talking much,but this time it's different. The silence we have right now feels cold. I caught him looking at me a few times, from the corner of my eyes, but I acted like I didn't saw it and walked further. I don't know how he feels about it, but I just don't want to think or talk about it right now. Since the picture encounter it felt like, no, It was like my whole life was eating me piece by piece and was giving me the feeling, that the few good memories I had in my entire life weren't of a value at all. I remembered a few things, I really don't want to say or to think of twice. My time here in Palawan is different than my life in England. This is a new chapter, that I startet for my own goods.
I became more talkative especially to this man next to me. He's the first one I was talking with and hanging out with since. He will be the first one, I would remember, if I think back of these times in the future.

Even if this situation isn't considered as hanging out, it sorta feels like I'm appreciated.
I don't know why, or what kind of urge gives me the feeling to just talk to him and have funny conversations with him. Is it because, it's my first time having someone to talk to? What about the encounter with these Mafipinos? He wants me by his side or am I wrong? I mean, why would he rescue me if I am not useful for him? So is he using me?

'Okay Holly you think too much stop that now!'

Am I? or is this just the reality, that I'm facing.-

"HEY YOU TWO.... HEEEEEYYY" A female voice screamed behind us. We both turned around and saw a women approaching us. In an instant, Dwayne came in front of me in a protective manner.

"Heyy you don't have to be like that. I'm not going to eat your girlfriend, you know." She said and looked at the both of us. She looked really young and was dressed really fancy. Not to mention, her wonderful figure. She even putted on a lot of makeup. But where is her bag? That makeup doesn't come from air... Wait, did she just say GIRLFRIEND?? Oh nononono that's not what it is-

"What do you want from us?" Dwayne said, looking at her expressionless. Wait, why are you not refusing that were NOT in a relationshi-

"I don't want anything from the both of you. I just saw you from our camp down there, so I decided to just inform the both of you. There are a lot of people like us. What am I talking about, like the all of you, someone like me is irreplaceable..." she trailed off and played with her hair "So we gathered all together and are trying to survive this shit you now.  Are you in or not?" She asked. Walking in front of Dwayne and facing the unknown woman, I wanted to say something, but Dwayne immediately took a hold of my arm and pulled me next to him.

"What.do.you.want.from.us?" He said in a stern voice, while his eyes were getting colder and colder after each word.

"Uhhhhhh a Businessman, I like that." She said and smiled widely.

Silence. Am I the only one who's confused right now?

"Okay, okay you got me. That girl next to you has to cook with us and you have to search for food or find some information with the other guys. Understand?"

"How many are you?" I asked.

"Enough to say a lot, do you really think, I take my time to count each person on that camping place? So what do you think hot Businessman? Are you two in" She said and looked back at Dwayne.

"Yes we are. The decison will not be only decided by him okay? I'm here too." I said and didn't even looked at Dwayne. He is not the only one, who has the ability to decide.

"Okay than it's settled" she happily said and turned around. We followed her to a huge camping place, where a lot of people were busy with building small huts to sleep in. We walked past them and stopped in front of a bigger hut, compared to the ones we walked past through.
"So you two are going to sleep in this." She showed us a hut, which was bigger than the ones, we saw earlier. "It was mine at first, but since I went into a much bigger one, you can have it. No, YOU can have it" she trailed off, pointing with her finger at me. "because your boyfriend is hotter than anyone I saw till now and let me tell you, the Internet has a lot to offer."

"First of all we are not a couple. So stop the nonsense! And why are you living in a bigger hut than the others?!" I asked her pissed off and looked her directly into her eyes. GIRLPOWER Y'ALL!
Why am I so angry right now?

"Honey, I'm the one who lead these people to build this camping place. So I'm some kind of a boss. And you,-" She said while pointing at Dwayne." The guys will be here in an hour, you can ask them when exactly you guys leave for the expedition tomorrow. Oh, before I forget it, I'm Sarah and I'm 25 years old, so if you are interested, hot businessman, then you know where you can find me" She winked at him  and walked happily off after giving him a flying kiss at the end too.

'I don't like her already'.                                                                                                                                                    Me too, Holly. Me too...
Half an hour later, I already packed a few of the things, I had out and cleaned the hut. Dwayne directly left to the fireplace after Sarah had left us. Our hut contained a bed, a table and a little kitchen with a gas stove. It sounds more spectacular, than it actually is, believe me.
"I should go and find Dwayne" I mumbled to myself and left the hut to go to the fireplace.
On my way there, I looked at the people around me, which were happily talking together. I was almost at the fireplace, when suddenly a familiar voice was screaming:

"VOLDEMORT? IS THAT YOU? YOU LITTLE SNITCH!"

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Hati.