"Do you want some bread?" Hans asked me

"No I've had enough" I told him.

"I'm happy that you decided to eat breakfast with us today. Skipping meals is not healthy. You should take more care of you" Dereck pointed with his fork at me.

'That happens when you starve yourself just to not face that dumbass Dwayne!-' Holly? Shut up! The morning started pretty good today, so please don't mess it up, thank you.

"Hey Hey Hey, Down with the weapons or I have to fight against the law!" Hans warned Dereck and pointed with his fork at Dereck.

"Don't you dare"

"I already have" Hans smirked and began a forkfight with Dereck.

"You shouldn't do that, it's dangerous" I laughed. Today I gave zero shits about thoughts and happenings. This morning I woke up with an extra level of confidence. What is Dwayne-o whatever? I don't know who he is or what exactly that is! No one can stop me from doing the things that I will be doing from now on!

"Thank you for your concern. I appreciate that" Hans said while pushing Dereck's fork back.

Oh and did I said that I'm starting a new me? So let me introduce you to the things, I will be doing from now on. Well, it's what I want to try to do from now on and I hope that my confidence about being a badass doesn't drop. So... Here's the list of the things that will change from now on (As I said, I try) :

1. Giving zero shits to anyone.

2. Ignoring Dwayne-o whatever (I don't even remember his name anymore)

3. Taking a break of everything that happened to me in these past days. (Not thinking about it as much)

4. Showing that I can live on my own and starting my own independent life

And the last thing, I have to do is to clear up what happened in my past. And with it, I mean everything. I have to find out who I am and what exactly I was supposed to do. And I do that after I took a break (Number three)

"Agghhhhhh"

"I WON, I WON, I WOHOOONN" Dereck proudly jumped up and down.

'He really is different than Dwayne...' DON'T THINK ABOUT THAT MAN HOLLY!

"You know what, I just realized that you are hanging out with a lot of D's" Hans pointed out, sitting back on his chair. "I mean, Dereck, Dwayne, and what was the name of that guy you had a date with yesterday?"

"Drake"

"Yeah Drake. Everyone has a D in his name and still, YOU-" Hans trailed off "STILL DIDN'T GET THAT D!" .... What in God's name is wrong with him?

"He has a point" Dereck nodded.

"No comment" I stuffed my mouth with enough bread, in order to not give both of them any further answers. Looking at Hans, he narrowed his eyes at me and mouthed a 'this is just the beginning, sweety' to me. Just the beginning?...JUST THE BEGINNING? He must be kidding! 'Wow... I never knew that swallowing bread could be this hard.'

"Speaking of the devil, where did you go this morning?" Dereck pointed at the person behind me. My inner deep voice started to speak up again. 'It's him, it's him, it's flipping him!!!!'  It's not him okay?! I'm gonna turn around and see someone I never ever saw-...Or I'ma sit here and do my own business without turning around.

Silence. 'Yes, it's him.' NO IT'S NOT! I didn't saw who the 'devil' one was because my back still faced the door. And since I've changed my mindset this morning, I have to turn around and get to know the new person. 'You just search for reasons to see him again.' Turning around, I was right. It was not someone I knew. A day to celebrate yay! 'Stop playing around Holly, it's him and you know that too-'  Smiling widely, I gave the man who was standing at the doorframe a wide smile.

"Oh, who are you?" I asked nicely earning a curious gaze from the unknown man. This man has even expressions towards me, who knew?! Turning back around to Hans and Dereck, I saw them looking at me curious too. Dereck even bent down and said something into Hans's ear. It was silent for a while until Hans said something back into Dereck's ear. A couple of seconds later, both of them nodded. Okay, now I am getting curious too!

"Well, this guy right there is single" Hans said.

"And he's standing alone there too" Dereck continued smiling. Why am I having a really bad feeling about this?

.........

It's about to get nighttime and I was sitting alone in the living room, watching TV. Dereck and Hans are upstairs, doing something, I shouldn't see or hear of.

"You know what, I just realized that you are hanging out with a lot of D's. I mean, Dereck, Dwayne, and what was that name of that guy you had a date with yesterday?" And Drake. While laughing silently about the fact that the three of them begins with a D, I decided-

'I thought you don't think about him anymore?-' I didn't, I just remembered something that Hans said this morning! Well, as I said, I decided to be more consistent about following my rules!

'HA! I knew that you searched for a reason to think about him!' I DIDN'T TALKED ABOUT BEING MORE CONSISTENT ABOUT THAT GUY NAMED DWAYNE-O WHATEVER! It's about number four: Showing that I can live on my own and starting my own independent life!

While watching TV, someone entered the living room and slowly came next to me. I didn't looked at the person and acted like I didn't heard him or her. It's a him! I can tell it by his body frame!-
And I don't care! As I said: I'm showing that I can live on my own and start my own independent life. 'That's ignorant Holly, you know that too, right?'  "BE QUIET!" I shouted loudly, holding my ears shut.

"Oh, I mean, I didn't wanted to interrupt you by any means, I just-" Drake trailed off, looking at his left and right " Since you don't have a phone, I decided to just come by and ask you, if you want to do something with me tomorrow"  he smiled shyly.

'Don't feel bad for him, don't feel bad for him, don't feel bad for him, don't feel bad for-'

"I'm sorry, it wasn't you, it's just- Nevermind. Tomorrow? At the same time?" I said friendly.
'WHAT happened to number one? Giving zero shits to anyone? Oh, and being more consistent about your rules?' I didn't heard anything that you just said.

"Y-Yeah, that would be nice. I'm sorry, I can't stay any longer, I still have a lot of work to do today... then, see you tomorrow?"

"Yeah" I said, standing up and waving him a goodbye. After Drake left the house, I immediately threw myself on the couch again.

I'm literally dumb.

.................

The next day, I didn't told anyone about me and Drake going out again. Dwayne has gone early this morning and wasn't at the breakfast table. I'm sitting alone in the living room again, watching TV. Looking at the clock, I immediately sat upright, remembering that Drake will be here in half an hour. But my fat backside dropped my whole body back again on the couch...
Drake will be here and I have to stand up and go upstairs in order to get ready.

"...but I think that can wait 10 minutes more." Smiling widely, I made myself comfortable again. I shouldn't do this... what if I fall asleep? 'Giving zero shits to anyoneeeeeeeeeee' 

Well, 10 minutes are not that much of a time. I mean it's just a jeans and a T-Shirt, what could possibly happen?

..................

I heard a soft cracking voice, but it was way too silent for me to understand anything. My mind was getting more and more awake and my feelings were telling me, I'm on someone else's bed. It's definitely not mine because it's softer than mine could ever be. Slowly opening my eyes, they landed on a person, I was trying to ignore the whole time. It's him...

I didn't took off my eyes from him, so did he. We both looked at each other silently. Daylight was shining through the window and it was giving everything a really soft atmosphere. A soft silence engulfed the both of us and it was everything, I needed. I couldn't think of anything, even if I wanted to. Something about him makes me forget anything that would normally whirl around my head for 24/7, but right now it wasn't. I'ts been a while since I didn't looked at that man in front of me. I know,I once didn't saw him for a whole week, but if you try to ignore someone, while you're seeing him daily ( and in my case I didn't looked at him, well, I did yesterday) it's harder than if he's absent. 'Actually it were three days-'

"OH MY GOD DRAKE" I immediately stood up and looked for a clock. My heart was pounding so fast that I could feel it up to my lungs.

"It's already the next day" Dwayne leaned back onto his chair.

"It's already the next day?!" I turned to the door and wanted to leave the room. I have to find Hans and have to call Drake. This is one of the biggest disrespectful things I've ever did in my entire life! And it seems like I'm not the only one doing disrespectful things. Because leaving this room wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. "Why is the door locked?!" I asked angrily.

Silence.

"You know, I have done something really disrespectful and you dare to lock the door?!Why am I even here?!" 'He doesn't even know that you had a date with Drake yesterday...' NOT NOW HOLLY!

Silence.

Dwayne looked to his left and I did the same. I saw my suitcase standing there and was getting more and more confused. Why has he locked the door and why is my suitcase standing here?!

What in God's name is going on right now?

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Hey Lovelies,

It's a rainy day here and I'm happier than ever!! No allergies for today, yay!!
(Sunny days are the hell for me and my allergies... *cries in a corner*)

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Hati.