riddhima's pov

for the first time in my life i m just ashamed of myself ....why the hell i didn't try to understand his care and love towards me ...yes he used to show his hate for me and i only see his hate for me and neglected his love and care towards me ....what didn't i say to him....and my behaviour i never behaved that bad with anyone the the way i behaved with him .....maria was right he has  changed himself alot ,.... Infront of society he is the vansh raisinghania who is arrogant , egoistic , ruthless mafia ..who even can't listen a word against himself .....but Infront of me he is only vansh , that old vansh who could do anything for me ....the man who never listens a word against himself didn't say a single word when i was calling him a rapist , ......why the hell i never tried to understand him ,..... because i  never wanted to see his love .....yes , he showed his hate but that time he thought i m responsible for his father's death and i know it will not be easy for him to stay with the same person  because of whom he lost his father ....it was only my fault i should have asked him when he started showing his hate ....he has suffered alot in his life , if i had nobody then he was also all alone ..... atleast i had dadi aunty and siya beside me but he lived all alone in usa ....i remember once he told me whatever he said , he never meant those words it was just his anger and now i can feel this .....that time i thought he was just lying but no he meant each and every word , he meant when he said he loves me ......he saved me from that bastard family and their  bastard son after my that much bad behaviour towards him ....and still he thinks for me .....i called him a rapist ,i said i m disgusted at his presence  but still he thinks for me ....he still thinks for my happiness .....how can he love me to this extent .....how could i call him a rapist .......i didn't think for once before calling him a rapist....today i have hurt him the most ,......i wish i could mend everthing but i m sure he won't forgive me .... because my  mistake is not any small mistake which can be forgotten easily.....ishani is responsible for everything how selfish she is , she didn't think about her brother , she always says she loves her bhai so much ...is this the way loving someone. ..she only love herself ....she is just a self centered girl....i have to talk to vansh ....

end of pov....

thinking this she moves towards her room....

here , vansh comes out followed by angre and chaser ....he ordered angre not to give food or water to them till tommorrow Morning... he will decide what punishment he should give them but till then keep them like that only ......

then he moves in another room instead of his room , here riddhima was waiting for him to come... like this 30 minutes passed she was getting impatient .....then she decided to check where was he ???...she comes out from her room ...she checks every room but he was nowhere ...it was getting very tough for her then she checks his basement too but that room was locked ..she knew he was not there ...it means he won't talk her ...and won't forgive her ....with this she started crying ....she badly wanted to talk vansh....this was the first time she wanted him to yell at her ...she wanted him to vent out everything ..... thinking this she was going back to her room thats when something grabs her attention she stops at her place then comes back ,...there vansh was sitting on floor beside his bed his head was on his bed and his eyes were fixed on ceiling...he was looking very broken ...it was new for her because she never witnessed him in that condition before ....yes she saw him in tears many time but it was something else ....today he was not in tears but seems very devastated .....she feels a pang of guilt.....she moves towards him and sits on her knees  Infront of him....

here , vansh feels her presence but doesn't look at her still his eyes were fixed on ceiling ...

what is this behaviour vansh , is this the time to come at home??...and what are you doing here , why didn't you come to your room .....she asks ...

vansh doesn't say anything and stays silent....

this was the first time he was not saying anything .... neither he was getting angry nor sad which was eating her from inside ...she just wanted to see some emotion from him but he was showing nothing.....he was emotionless ...

plz vansh don't be silent , say something ...yell at me , slap me but plz don't be silent ...she requested

but he was still silent ......he was not showing ego ...he was not angry ....but yes , riddhima's word had broken him to the core still her every single word was echoing in his ears....he was broken because she doesn't believe him , she thinks this low about him ...she doesn't want to see his face ...she is disgusted by him...she hates him from the bottom of her heart ...their relation is nothing but just a burden for her , she will never accept him , she will never forgive him  , she will never live with him .....and these all things broke him to the core ....he couldn't able to say anything...

riddhima keeps looking at his face , the same thing was happening with her ...she thinks he will never forgive her , he will break his relationship with her , he will never talk with  her and go away fron her  .....with this she feels she will again loose her friend ....her throat gets dry , ....she feels her heart was  paining but it was totally another feeling she felt this type of feeling on the very first day when vansh broke his friendship with her , that feeling was of  loosing someone very close to her heart , that  feeling was like the most important person of her life was going away from her  and won't come back ..... words were not coming out from her mouth.....today only she got her old vansh , her best friend back ...today only she got to know he is innocent , but today only she will loose him because of her behaviour .....she doesn't want him to go away from her now ...yes she doesn't love him but she wants him beside her forever ....

i think you should sleep riddhima....i don't want you to take any stress , i won't disturb you ...just go to your room ,from now on its only your room ....vansh says...

riddhima cups his face and tries to make him looks at her but he doesn't move his face ...still he was in same posture ...

just look at me vansh plz , i am so sorry , i know i hurt you the most today .....i don't deserve your forgiveness ...i never tried to understand you , i ...i m so sorry plz just don't go away from me , .....i want my old vansh with me ....

here vansh didn't hear her ... because those words were going on in his mind .....and he was unable to think anything else ....he stays silent riddhima couldn't hold more she hugged him but vansh didn't move lil ...he was still in the same posture.....

riddhima keeps her head on his shoulder and cries he too cries silently   they didn't say a single word for the longest time ....

i am sorry vansh , plz forgive me ...ok don't forgive me just show your anger , just yell at me ...but plz atleast say something ... I can't see you silent ...your silence is eating me ....plz don't do this ....just say something damnit......why are you not reacting just react....

but here he didn't say anything .....

riddhima moves her head towards his neck  her lips touches his neck ....she feels his body was burning ...she immidietly breaks their hug then touches his forehead and neck his body was burning from  fever ....

vansh you are not fine , your body is burning ....plz get up Saying this she tries to make him stand but he was not moving his body .....she was just loosing her calm.....

stop behaving like a kid ....i know you are angry but don't ignore your health....okay I won't disturb you but plz let me help you ...you are not well.....she says while crying ...

this was the first time he looks into her eyes.....as he can't see her tears so he let her do what she wanted to do.....she helps him in laying on bed ....she covers him with blanket ...then she comes out from his room .....she comes back with food tray ....

i know you have not eaten anything ....plz have it ...saying she forward a bite but he turns his face to other direction....

plz , have it plz ......she says with a heavy voice ....

after not getting any response she again says....

plz have it for your riddhima's sake .....

without saying anything he opens his mouth and have that bite by her hand ...he looks at her lovingly but then remembers her words and again turns his face ....on which riddhima becomes sad....now how will she make  eat her grumpy husband ...he is so stubborn..

stop being stubborn vansh ....just get well and then show me your anger  as much  as you want but for that you have to be well na.....she keeps her one hand on his cheek and makes him look at her ....she was looking into his eyes lovingly vansh got busy in looking into her eyes and she makes him have his food then medicine while he lost himself into her eyes .....she breaks their eye lock and vansh comes to know she made him fool he angrily turns his face ....

thats it for today's episode