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This time I was leaving with my unborn child for real with no thoughts of coming back again. 

Tears fell from my eyes and more fresh tears took their place glazing my eyes again and again as the incidents of that day kept playing in front of my eyes. I kept looking at the rising sun. The more bright rays of sun spread in the dark sky, more and more thoughts came running back to me. It's been five months since I left his house and him and everything behind. Wounds on my broken heart were still fresh as if It still feels like everything just happened yesterday. Getting out of his house and his life was so hard for me. He didn't let me go easily but I chose to leave and nothing could have stopped me, not even me. It was not an easy decision but I had to make this decision for me, for my baby to start new. A life without everyone whom I loved. 

For the first time in my life, I started trusting someone. In someone whom I never thought I would even put my trust in. It is never easy for a girl to put trust in someone who all her life was treated as the girl who was the ugliest and unwanted thing in her bully's life. Growing up hearing those words always affects your self-esteem even if you are the strongest person standing on earth. I had always doubted myself but I kept moving, keeping everything aside. But things that happened in my life now broke me for real. I never thought I would ever marry Jack and to increase my misery I would get so bound to him that I started putting my trust in him and in no time not knowing what more was happening to me. I started loving him. 

Yes, I started loving him and I found myself so tangled in him that I lost myself. He made me so bound to him that every day for the past five months feels like it's not worth leaving. I never thought I would get so attached to him that my life will start to feel meaningless without him. Loving him wasn't easy but forgetting him was the hardest thing. Every day is a battle for me to get up from my bed but I have to keep going for my baby. Every day I remind myself that I need to be strong for my child. I can't let everything consume me leaving only a soulless body behind. I have to give all the happiness of this world to my child and I can't do it by being sad. Jack had done the worst thing to me I ever could imagine. 

The only thing I despise more in my life is taking away what belongs to my sister. To date now I have not forgiven myself. The only reason why my sister is not in this world is me. If only I had not been a stubborn little girl and acted as she said my sister would have been here laughing and full of life. But my stubbornness ruined everything for me. I have always demanded all unwanted things from her and she has fulfilled it like a loving sister. And the day I asked her something which cost her life. I had still not stopped blaming myself for the loss of my sister and how they could think I would be happy after knowing the truth behind my marriage to Jack. 

How they even thought I would let it slide just because now I'm madly in love with Jack. How could they hide this from me? Everything makes me so angry. How did I turn blind eyes to everything? How couldn't I see that my happiness was just for a limited time? A tear slipped out of my left eye as it brought more pain to my already aching heart. I took a deep breath to control the heavy sob which rose from the base of my throat as more tears formed at the corner of my eyes. 

I hate him. I just hate him for doing this to me. To my sister. 

"Darling what are you doing standing in the cold morning breeze without a shawl," said a voice from behind me. A thick shawl was dabbled around my shoulders to cover my body from the morning cold breeze. I quickly wiped away the traces of tears from my pale cheeks with the back of my hands. 

"Dear were you crying again," asked Miss. Bankers in her worried voice as she saw my red eyes. I didn't want her to see my tears but she caught me like always. 

"N--no, it's just my hormones," I said with a faint smile on my face trying to convince her but from her face, I knew she didn't buy it. Her soft eyes moved all over my face as she heard my answers. 

"Come with me," she said while taking my hand and then moving us towards the chairs on the balcony. She sat in front of me with the same look on her face. I just smiled at her faintly, wanting to lighten my heavy feeling. 

"I don't know the reason why you chose to leave but from your face I know it hurts you. I know It was not easy for you. It's good to cry to let go of your pain but don't cry always it will have a bad effect on growing life in your womb" Miss. Bankers tried to make me understand her words in her soft voice. 

I know I shouldn't be crying but the pain I feel inside me is too much for me to bear. Losing your loved ones always hurts but getting betrayed by them breaks you and that's what has happened to me. I was always strong and ready to face any situation but this thing has finally brought me to my knees. I bowed my head and nodded it lightly in understanding as more tears slipped from my eyes. Many times I thought of forgetting and kept moving forward but I found myself comprehending and debating what I'm doing is right. Am I doing right by separating my unborn child from the people who were eagerly waiting for his or her arrival? Many times I found myself unknowingly, getting lost in my old thoughts and old memories making myself suffer more. 

"Yes I won't cry anymore," I said while looking at her with glassy eyes and with a faint smile on my face as I put my hand on my small bump. 

"Good girl I will send you your breakfast and remember don't leave anything on your plate these times," she said in her strict motherly voice making me nod my head in yes. She cupped my face with a smile on her face and then left me to go and send me my breakfast. I wrapped the shawl more around me and averted my eyes from retiring back to Miss. Bankers to the morning sky. 

Now the sun was up high in the sky. That day I didn't know where to go. I didn't want to go to dad as he was too involved in all this so the only place I could think of coming was here to the Amelia Foundation. This has always felt like home to me. That night Miss. Bankers took me in with open arms. She has been trying her best to look after me. She makes all kinds of healthy meals for me but with my morning sickness I have not been eating properly in my starting months of pregnancy but now I don't have any morning sickness but still, I don't feel like eating anything. I try but still, my body refuses to eat anything in the morning. 

In no time Miss. Bankers brought me a delicious-looking breakfast and my mouth water at its sight but like always I was not able to finish it. I just eat fruits like always and Miss. Bankers made sure to put more fruits on my plate. After I was done I went down to see all the children eating their breakfast happily. As soon as they saw me they greeted me good morning making me do the same with a big smile on my face. They forced me to join them in their breakfast even though I told them I had one already but they still wanted me to join them. Not wanting to break their heart so I joined that and had only juice with them.  

After we were done with breakfast all the kids ran to the garden to play as now they all were on break. Wherever they don't have the school they enjoy all their day playing and creating all new things. I don't even realize how my whole day goes with playing and teaching the kids here. I kept looking at the kids as all of them kept laughing and playing. Sitting on the bench in the garden I kept looking at them as the cold breeze kept playing with my long open hair. 

"Do you have a baby in your tummy?" I heard a cute baby voice asking me which made me look at the source of the voice. Big hazel brown dove eyes we're looking at me with a cute small frown on her beautiful face. Those eyes resemble my sister so much as if I'm looking into her eyes. 

"Yes, Amelia there's a baby in my tummy" what a coincidence her name resembles my sisters. She is just two years old but she speaks more clearly than any toddler here. She came here four months ago as she lost her family in the plane crash. Her eyes lit up as she heard my answer making the corner of my lips curl. 

"Can I touch it?" she asked in her excited voice and I nodded my head with a smile on my face. She touches my baby bump with her small hands with a big smile on her face.

"Can I play with the baby," she said in her excited but pleading voice. 

"Once the baby comes out of my tummy you can play with him," I said as I took her in my arms and kissed her on her cheeks. She got all excited. 

"Really," she asked me to confirm. 

"Pinky promise," I said in my amused voice as I took her pinky finger for a promise. 

"I'm going to tell everyone that I'm going to play with the baby," she said in her happy voice and ran towards all the kids then I just kept looking at her with a big smile on my face as she told every kid that she was going to play with the baby once it's out of my tummy. She is too cute. 

Rest of the day I spend looking at kids playing. All the naughty things they do make me laugh more than I have ever had. But as the day starts ending all my agony comes back to me from whom I'm trying to run far away but they still come crashing to me so I keep myself busy with all the homework checking of kids after we all hand dinner together. The big grandfather clock started telling me that it was seven in the evening. I kept my pen down and unknowingly my legs started walking towards the balcony like every day like they had a mind of their own. As soon as I stepped on the balcony with my shawl covering my bump I found his eyes on me. 

Like every day, he was waiting for me to come out. 

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