"I don't want to stop," Jungkook whispered against Jin's lips.

"Don't stop," Jin replied hushly, before capturing Jungkook's soft lips in his mouth, his fingers digging into the soft skin on Jungkook's waist.

Earlier, when the bell for lunch rang, Jin had looked forward to eating his meal because he'd skipped dinner last night and never ate breakfast on a school day. But then he'd received a text from Jungkook to meet at their spot, and the hunger he'd felt had vanished.

Kissing Jungkook was more filling than any meal he could ever have. Hugging him and touching him was just as rewarding. His stomach wasn't the only thing that felt full in that moment, his heart did, too.

Jungkook rested his head against Jin's shoulder, his lips not leaving Jin. Jin tilted his head to the side to meet Jungkook's, pulling Jungkook higher on his laps. Against his mouth, Jungkook released a soft sigh before pulling away.

For a moment, they remained there; Jin on a chair pushed up against the wall in the music room, with Jungkook sat on his laps, their arms wrapped around each other, Jungkook's head stayed on Jin's shoulder while Jin had his head atop Jungkook's.

"I wish I'd admitted what I felt earlier," Jungkook said, killing the silence. "I wish we had done this before. I wish you were my first kiss."

Jin smiled. "I might have not been your first, but I can be your last," Jin teased, earning a soft chuckle from Jungkook, his warm body vibrating against Jin.

"You promise?"

This time, Jin laughed. "You're so cheesy," he said. "But why do you say you wished I was your first kiss? Do you regret your first kiss?"

The circle motion Jungkook was making on Jin's arm ceased. Jin felt him go still, then he was sitting up straight. His expression had turned upset and Jin wondered if he'd unboxed a bad memory.

"I didn't mean to upset you."

"You didn't," Jungkook said. He turned his body towards Jin, his face inches away from Jin's face. So close that Jin could pick apart the dark specks dotting his light brown pupils. "I didn't have my first kiss until a week ago."

It took a couple of seconds for Jin to put it together and understand. "Christ," he muttered. "You mean Hanuel stole your first kiss that night?"

Jungkook nodded.

A wave of anger rushed through Jin's body. His heart thrummed fast in his chest. He had to shut his eyes and mentally talk himself down. He should have beaten Hanuel that day. He wished he had. That slimy little perverted demon!

Jungkook's warm hand pressed against the side of his face, easing the tension in Jin's jaw. He released a slow, prolonged breath before opening his eyes to see Jungkook watching him with a gentle, worried gaze.

"You look murderous," he said.

"I'm just angry," Jin said. "Hanuel did a lot of things that night and all he got was what? A slap on the wrist." I want to hurt him. I want to cause him pain. The anger he felt in that moment, Jin had felt it in Jeju but before then, he'd felt it years ago when his parents and brother had died.

It made him want to hit something repeatedly until every bit of adrenaline in him was exhausted. He wanted to rip Haneul-

"Hey," Jungkook called, shaking his head subtly at Jin, as if telling him to get out of his own head. "Hanuel doesn't get to hurt me and then live rent free in your head. Get him out of there."

"Don't you want more?" Jin asked. "Why are you so cool about this?"

"Because being feral doesn't make me happier, Jin. Being angry and vindictive does no good," Jungkook explained. "I get upset when he pops up in my head which is all the time, but I don't wish I'd pushed him into the ocean or beaten him to pulp, because he might deserve it but does it make me a better person? No. It just makes me a different version of a bad person."

Jin pressed his fingers against his forehead.

"Hanuel doesn't deserve the space in your head or your heart."

"I hate that he hurt you."

"I know." Jungkook bit his lips, fighting back the smile that had already started to form. "And while I'm flattered by your strong will to avenge me, I'll really rather not talk about him during the only time of the day we get to hangout."

An exasperated sigh escaped Jin's mouth. "You're right."

Satisfied, Jungkook smiled bright, leaning down to peck Jin on the lips. "So, how about you? Who was your first kiss?"

'"To be honest, I don't remember," Jin answered, causing Jungkook's brows to shoot up. "It could have been Hyunjin or Minyeong or Chayoung, I'm not really sure. I was a really confused kid back then."

Jungkook rolled his eyes. "You were confused only back then? Until recently, you weren't sticking your tongue down multiple people's throat?"

"In my defense, more than half of those people approached me," Jin explained. "I just didn't say no very much."

"Wow. That makes it make sense now. You were just too kind to turn them down. So noble of you," Jungkook deadpanned, sarcasm dripping off his words. He folded his arms across his chest and stared away from Jin.

"If I say I haven't been with anyone in almost two months, does it make it better?"

"Two months isn't very long."

"It is to me. Holding back on something I'm not used to holding back on. But it wasn't too much for me if it meant holding off because it didn't feel right with them anymore. I became drawn to you and I couldn't imagine kissing or holding anyone that wasn't you."

Jungkook swallowed, but still had his face turned away from Jin. He was still jealous.

"You've been on my mind every second of the day since you waited with me at the lab three weeks ago, Jungkook. I haven't been able to stop thinking about you or wanting you. It became unbearable to think you hated me, because I wanted the exact opposite from you."

"The lab?" Jungkook asked, turning to him.

Jin nodded. "When I had the anxiety attack and couldn't drive you home. Remember you waited for me, took care of me and then you drove us home. You didn't complain a second or look burdened by it. In fact, you looked like you didn't mind doing it."

"Because, I didn't mind. I was worried about you. I'd never seen you that way before and it scared me."

"I thought you hated me back then."

Jungkook shook his head. "Never for a second. I hated that you were always around because it made me tense and uneasy. I couldn't be with you the way I wanted and I knew I couldn't just be friends with you. Being cordial with you was going to be torturous for me."

"So, you became mean to me to protect your heart."

"I wish I'd done things differently."

"How?"

"I don't know, but I regret how I treated you in the past. It was unnecessary and childish which you didn't deserve."

"Well," Jin trailed, sucking his teeth. "It wasn't unnecessary if you look at it my way."

Confusion registered on Jungkook's face. "Your way?"

His grip around Jungkook tightened, pulling him flushed against his body. "Imagine if you'd been nice to me all along and I don't have an eye opening moment at the lab, then I wouldn't have fallen for you because I'd probably be used to your niceness. But instead, your always present rudeness to me gave way to a one in a million moment where I experienced how kind you could be, where I saw you as more than I judged you for and you absolutely stunned me."

Jungkook groaned, burying his face in Jin's neck in shyness.

"If we could do it all over again, please be rude to me from the start," Jin said, laughing when he felt Jungkook chuckle against his neck. "Then you can slowly make you way into my heart by being nice to me."

When he leaned away, Jungkook stayed a moment just staring at Jin, his gaze soft but his expression unreadable. "In that case, I'm glad that I was rude to you in the start."

Smiling, Jin said, "Me too," before pressing his lips to Jungkook's.

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