Hyunjin POV

"Felix?"

I storm into our dorm.

"Lix? Hey, where are you? Please don't let this be awkward now."

I storm in the kitchen. Just to be sure. What rooms are also dangerous? Bathroom. Bathroom. Bathroom. It's locked. I was scared. It could be that he is just crying or showering, but since I live with Felix quiet a time now, it could also be something more dangerous. Should I call Chan?

"Lix, please. I am scared."

I knock on the door for a few times. He is not showering, I would hear that.

"Lix, open up! I am really scared! Do you want me to call Chan?"

I heard Felix whimmering, but the door still doesn't open up.

"I call Chan!"

Where is my phone? Do I even have Chan's number?

"Hyun!"

I turned around as soon as I heard the hesitating voice.

"Please don't call Channie-Hyung."

I look at Felix' arms. Fresh bandages. I gulp down in terror.

"Why do you do this? Nothing bad happened. It was for a movie."

My question was only a faint whisper, but I know Felix has heard it. He hides his arms behind his back and looks to the ground. Lix began to cry quiet and I feel tears on my own cheeks too.

"Lix, please don't do this. It hurts me too, to know that I failed to take care of you."

I take his chin and make him look at me.

"I am sorry, Hyun!"

"Why have you done it?"

"I felt like."

"But why?"

"We kissed."

"Please, Lix. That can't be the reason. Can it?"

"It was awkward."

"But when something is awkward then you talk about it and don't cut yourself."

"I hate myself."

"But why, Lix? Why? You are beautiful, smart, nice, pure, innocent. You make all your friends happy. You make me happy. We need you, Lix. We need you healthy. I need you healthy. Why do you hate yourself?"

"I hate myself for loving you!"

My breathe stops. That was a confession.

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Short Chap. Now school. Get me out of here.