❝ TRAIN OF REMINISCING  ❞

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1 YEAR LATER

Bang

You clicked your tongue as the bullet penetrated through the center target, and you sighed as you pick up more ammo and inserted it in the magazine's Glock. You lifted your arms once again, this time aiming for the center target while gripping the pistol hard and firmly, waiting for the perfect moment to fire.

Bang

Smoke came out from the muzzle part as you blew it after, the bullet landing perfectly on the target.

You fixed your belt around your waist as you kept your Glock inside one of the belt's pockets, you were wearing a tight black long sleeve shirt and slacks with a belt around your thighs that has pockets and around your waist.

A year have passed, you knew about your heinous past which you never wanted to go back to. You decided to live with Brahman and move on with everything, especially when you left your father in the juvenile and cut connections with him, and now you were starting to forget about everything.

Even Bonten.

"Y/n." You heard Wakasa from behind as he entered the training ground just outside Brahman's base.

You continued training within Brahman for two years, and Wakasa is your mentor. The two of you aren't really that close to each other unlike Senju, Takeomi, and other members, you were simply two casual coworkers who held high respect for each other.

"Yes, sir?" You replied as you faced him. During training time, you call him sir because it's a little informal to call him by his name since he has more authority than you, and you're still nervous around him because he's not just simply a mentor and trainer.

He's a strict one.

"Your records for today?" Wakasa asked as he fixed his posture.

"Oh wait..." You mumble as you grabbed your bag and gave him a folder filled with files, containing your records for the week of your training.

"Hm," Wakasa hummed while flipping through the papers with a raised brow, and sweat is dripping on your forehead while side-eying the paper, scared to be scolded if anything is wrong.

"You just need to improve your aim." Wakasa said as he tossed you the folder.

"Thank-" But your words were cut off when he landed a kick on you.

But you know it's one of those surprise attacks which is part of the training, and you quickly dodged it as you stopped his feet with your forearm, but you still lose a little balance but luckily stabilized yourself while gritting your teeth in annoyance.

Yes, he also trained you how to fight, physically, not only using guns and weapons.

"Surprised?" He raised his brow at you as he noticed you're taken aback.

You shook your head as he placed his foot down and you rubbed your forearm that was aching from his hard kick. "Ouch." You thought as you try to hide it, scared that your score might be low.

"I'd say six out of ten." Wakasa said, but you were preoccupied rubbing your aching forearm from his kick, and you know it'll leave a bruise, but you shrugged it off thinking it's really part of your training and you need to improve for yourself as well.

"Don't pretend. I know you." He said as he held your wrist and lifted your sleeve up to your elbow to check the bruise. "I've been training you for a year."

"I'm fine, don't worry." You said as you pulled your arm.

"We need to work on that as well." Wakasa poked the insides of his cheeks.

"What?"

"Your surprise attacks, what else?" He strictly said. "Focus, Y/n."

"Ah right, sorry." You coldly replied as you faced away from him, you didn't know why you were so nervous around him out of all Brahman members.

"Um, anyway sir," You cleared your throat. "You said we're going to practice my aiming today, right?" You said as you faced him from behind, and he nodded in response while his eyes were fixed on the moving target.

"Yeah, you practiced already?"

"Yes, I entered the training field early this morning to advance learning and practice as well." You replied.

"Good, I'll watch you." He said as he grabbed a chair and sat beside you while his arms were crossed and he was manspreading. His narrowed droopy eyes were scrutinizing the way you position your hands and feet.

You took a deep breath as you extended your arms and held the pistol firmly while waiting for the moving target. You closed your other eye to pinpoint the target, and as the moving target approached the center, you pulled the trigger.

Bang

But it only landed on the second to the center.

Wakasa raised his head as he nodded. "Not bad."

Suddenly, Wakasa stood up from his seat and went behind you that made your breath hitch, he grabbed your forearms that were holding the pistol from behind and held it up to the target while leaning forward. In this position, you can feel his breath on the shell of your ear as you gulped.

"In this position, you can control the recoil of the gun." He whispered in a raspy tone in your ear while he lifted your arms, and your back is on his chest from behind with no space left while guiding you on aiming.

"Shoot." He whispered, but you were too nervous that you pulled the trigger late.

"Focus." He scolded.

"I'm sorry, I'll do it again." You said as you reloaded the gun.

"Position your other leg forward." Wakasa sternly said as he tapped the side of your thigh, and you quickly did so. "Angle your hips like this." He added as his hands gripped below your waist just an inch and moved it, then went back to fixing your posture on the arms.

You closed your other eye as you tilted your head a bit and as the moving target centered, you grabbed the perfect timing to shoot, and it landed perfectly on the center.

Bang

"Good." Wakasa whispered from behind.

"See? In that position, you can control the recoil more." He added.

"Ah, yes thank you-" You said.

You were about to walk off until you saw his leg shifted forward from the corner of your eye, and you know he'll land another surprise attack. You smirked as you quickly turned around and dodged his kick while you grabbed his foot, and pulled it as you punched his jaw, but his hands cache your wrist and twisted your body and did a sleeper chokehold, with his forearms around your neck while your back is up to his chest, and your eyes widened in response as he quickly responded from your attack which your body is basically wrapped around his arm.

"What did I say? Focus." He said as he tightened his forearm around your neck that made you grit your teeth.

You felt your stamina rise as you elbowed him on his chest which made him stagger back and his hand freed around your neck. You quickly ran to him as you kicked him straight on the face.

"Quick reaction." Wakasa smirked as he wiped the blood on his lips with his thumb.

He stabilized his balance and sprinted towards you as he kicked you next, but you blocked his kick with your feet as you grabbed his forearms and pulled it as you twisted it and your forearms were around his neck now that made you smirk cockily.

"Am I improving, sir?" You grinned as you let go of him and removed your forearm around his neck.

He stretches his leg and cracked his neck. "Yeah, I'm proud." He said.

"'I'm proud'? That's new from you." You said while packing your things.

"Oh?" Wakasa fought the smirk forming on his lips. "You want more praise?"

"N-no that's not what I meant I mean like- you know- uh." You panicked as your eyes widened.

"That's what I thought." He said.

"Don't worry, I just don't praise my trainees that much, you're lucky." He added.

"Thank you, sir." You smiled as he just nodded.

"Training dismissed." Wakasa said as he walked away.

"Y/n! Lunch is ready!" Senju gleefully said as she smiled. "How was your training with Wakasa?"

Every Brahman member was seated at each table inside Brahman's dining room, you, Senju, Takeomi, Benkei, and Wakasa were sitting together.

"It was good." You smiled as you looked over Wakasa who is the farthest on the table from you.

"Yeah, heard that you're improving a lot." Benkei said. "Congrats." 

"Mhm, thanks a lot to Sir Wakasa." You said as you forgot that it's not training time and you had just gotten used to addressing him with a sir.

His droopy eyes landed on you and his eyes felt like piercing daggers aiming at you with his lips slowly forming into a smirk. You looked at the other members but they were too busy talking, and you gulped as you ignored the tension growing between Wakasa and you.

"I like your improvements, Y/n. Subtle yet apparent." Takeomi said.

"Oh, thank you." You replied while eating.

"I remember the first day where Wakasa trained Y/n."

FLASHBACKS

After a week of knowing your past and from the juvenile, you decided to live with Brahman since you have nowhere to go to, Bonten wasn't an option. That one week was the worst in your life, you were staring at the wall for days, refusing to eat, until you finally decided to pull yourself together since being like that wouldn't help you at all, and now you're here.

"So, have you decided, Y/n?" Senju asked while you two are standing in front of the training ground just outside the mansion. "Do you want to train to be able to be one of Brahman's members and be my right-hand man? Don't worry, you're free to refuse, Y/n, no pressure!"

"U-um," you gulped in nervousness as you saw the training ground, people were being beaten up, there were gunshots everywhere, mentors were being ruthless with their trainees, members were being yelled at, and they were being forced to do laps around the training field if they made one mistake.

"Ah right, you're still a newbie. Don't worry, the mentors won't treat you like those." Senju reassured as she pats your back.

You furrowed your brows as you made your decisions. You asked yourself, do you really want to train in a gang? Meaning, you'll learn how to fight, kill, do illegal things, and defend. If you refused, you'll stay like this forever, all defenseless which reminds you of Bonten and the past, and the cycle will never end, which you loath.

"I'm willing to train." You looked at Senju as you nodded. "I accept the training to be one of Brahman's members and be your right-hand man."

But you didn't realize you were slowly breaking your promise to yourself.

"Wakasa!" Right after you agreed yesterday from the training, Senju immediately called Wakasa, one of Brahman's top executives and also a mentor who trains members which will be the ones who will train you as well.

"Y/n agreed!" Senju wraps her arm around your waist as she pulls you close to her and smiled.

"Okay." Wakasa coldly replied and went back to the training ground.

"Yikes," Senju did are-you-kidding-me-right-now face. "Well, he's really like that, you know? But don't worry, he's one of the best mentors."

"Hmm, do you want Benkei to train you instead if you want?" Senju asked.

You looked at the corner of the training ground to see a buff tall man mercilessly beating up one of the trainees and you tremble in fear. "No! I'm good with um- Wakasa."

"Oh okay." She said.

"Senju? Who else are the mentors besides the two?" You asked curiously.

"Oh." Senju's wild smile fade as she blinked.

"D-did I ask something wrong?" You immediately took it back.

"No, it's nothing and y-yeah! Benkei and Wakasa are currently the mentors." Senju said.

"There's actually one more mentor, he's the best, even if he's strict to his members, he knows their weaknesses and trains them from it." Senju thought as nostalgia hits her.

"Though sadly, Draken's gone... our best mentor."

"Y/n." Wakasa called as you entered the training field, and it's your first day. Your attire and equipment are also ready.

"Oh- y-yes hello." You panicked, hell you didn't expect your mentor is that intimidating.

"Warm up, run laps around the field ten times." He immediately said as he sat on the chair and took his whistle out.

"Eh-?" But then you jumped when he blew the loud whistle.

Wakasa tapped on his wristwatch, indicating the time is running out.

You started running around the field and your knees started to feel like jell-O already but you didn't mind it. Sweat ran down your face as you were now on the third lap, and you were gasping for air as you reached five-lap, then so on. It was also hard for you since you weren't used to these kinds of things.

"CAN I TAKE A BREAK?!" You looked at Wakasa while running around the field under the heat of the sun, and your skin felt like burning.

"Did I blow my whistle yet?" Wakasa strictly scolded.

"Okay-" Pant "Never-!" Pant "Mind-!" Pant. You were now on the eight-lap, and you felt your lungs popping out.

"Senju is right," You thought while panting. "You're really strict!"

As you were now on the last lap and finished, you landed on the ground and stared up at the sky while gasping for air. You stayed there for a minute until you see Wakasa blocking your view from the sky, standing in front of your laying body on the ground with crossed arms.

"You're immediately resting? That's just the first part of the warm-up, and just to remind you, this is all just a warm-up." He said.

"Give me a minute- AH!" You sat up from the ground as you heard his loud whistle again. "Okay okay, I'll go."

"Next warm up, jump rope," Wakasa said as he gave you a jumping rope. "At least do fifteen reps."

"Okay-" You inhaled as you jumped through the rope and continued jumping in front of him.

"Just tell me when you're done." Wakasa said as he avoided looking at you and faced somewhere.

After some sets, you felt your knees popping out. "Done!" You exhaled as you sat on the ground and clutched your joints.

Wakasa squinted his eyes at you and whistled which made you quickly stand up.

"You'll do five more warm ups, and we'll proceed with your training." He said as he stood up from the chair.

"HUH?!" Your eyes widened as your jaw dropped.

TWO HOURS LATER...

"Am I seeing heaven?" You muttered while you were sprawled on the floor, gasping for air and pool of sweat around you while your body is shaking.

"Stand up." Wakasa looked down at you and he lend a hand out which you accepted and he pulled you up.

You can't feel your legs anymore as you stumbled back, and Wakasa had to grab your waist.

"That's normal, just put icepacks all over your body." He said as he made you sit on the chair.

"More like give me an ice bath." You grunted.

"You're doing good, keep it up," Wakasa said, talking about your training. "Next week, you'll learn how to use guns."

"Really?!" Your eyes gleamed.

"Yeah, good bye." He said as he walked out of the training ground, leaving you smiling because you just completed for your first training.

END OF FLASHBACKS

You sat down on the bed after another long day of training with Wakasa, and you faced the mirror beside it. You rolled up the sleeves up to your elbow and you winced as you saw the bruises on it.

"This will be fine." You muttered while soothing the bruises. It was from the fights during your training, but you didn't want to tell Wakasa or anyone, at least what's important is that you're learning how to fight, that's what Y/n thinks.

She laid down on the bed, blinking her eyes away from the thoughts that ate her mind. You just continued staring at the ceiling with the quiet atmosphere in your room, just the clock ticking.

"And I thought I wouldn't turn into one of them." You whispered with a cracked voice as you fought the tears forming in your eyes. "My promise that I would never turn into one of them, bullshit, that's pure bullshit Y/n, you never even fulfill a promise, you always break them."

You were training consecutively, training hard how to fight, just like what gangs, criminals, etc. were doing to. Pressures and fears of being defenseless especially when flashbacks strike you from Bonten and your past that you never want to go back to. Overworking, overdosing, and tiring yourself, yet it's not anyone who's forcing you, it's your own self.

"I turned into one of them."

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