WARNING: this chapter contains mentions of self harm and bullying. If youre sensitive to these subjects or if you dont like reading about it I hightly recommend you move on to the next oneshot

Requested by: beth_lupin

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You dragged yourself away from the common room. This was the time you felt the safest in the dark. At night. Away from everyone that bullied you.

You hadnt actually told anyone. Not even your boyfriend, Remus. Your sister was one of the bullies. It made you feel aweful.

Your self image was completely gone. You hated yourself. Remus knew you were insecure but he was always there to try and cheer you up. You didnt want him to worry so you never told him about the bullying.

The last week you sneaked out of your dorm every night. It was risky but you didnt care. No one could know what you did. Thats why you headed to moaning myrtles bathroom. No one wanted to actually go there and she was calm at night. Mostly sleeping.

Remus was on patrol when he spotted you. He was confused to see you out of bed. Lately you had been saying you were tired. Maybe that was why. He started follow you and watched you head into the girls bathroom.

When you entered the bathroom you sat down on the floor. You stared at your wrist. You came here to distract your pain to something. The pain made you feel better, the blood streaming down calmed you down.

You took a deep breath before using a spell and running your wand horizontally over your wrist. You looked at it for a moment before using the same spell on your other wrist.

You always healed yourself after some time. These wounds could get healed but your emotional scars couldnt.

'What are you doing?!' Remus spoke in shock as he saw you.

You gasped in shock and looked over your shoulder. Remus sat down besides you. You didnt dare to look at him. He looked at your blood filled hands and the drops on the floor. He quickly healed your wounds.

You looked at him. Tears welling up in your eyes as he picked you up. You didnt know what to do so you just clinged onto him. Remus was extreemly worried. All he could think about was keeping you safe.

You tried your best to fight your tears back while Remus took you towards his dorm. All his roommates were on patrol today. He turned on the light and sat you down on his bed.

'Remus..' you chocked.

He didnt say anything and walked into his bathroom. You heard the water run for a moment. He walked out of the bathroom with a towel with water. He sat down on the floor infront of you. He wiped the blood of your wrists.

You still didnt dare to look at him. Remus threw the towel aside and took a deep breath. He saw that you were about to break. He got up and sat down besides you. He pulled you against him and held you tightly.

'I'm not mad. It's okay.' He said.

You just there. Unsure of what to say. Remus let you go and grabbed your chin to force you to look at him.

'Why?' He asked. 'Why didn't you tell me? Why are you doing this? Do you want to die?'

'No-'

'Then why?'

You tried to speak but you couldnt. You felt tears streaming down your face. You laid your forehead against his chest. Remus rubbed the back of your head to comfort you.

'Im sorry.' You sobbed. 'I-I know I s-should've trusted you. I know. Its not that I dont trust you I just didnt want to make you worry. I thought i could handle it on my own.'

'You clearly can't. How long have you been doing this?'

You didnt dare to tell him. You just sat there, sniffling and in silence.

'Y/N?'

'2 weeks.' You admitted.

Remus couldnt keep himself in tone anymore. He laid his forehead in your hair. You heard him take deep breaths.

'I should've noticed. You've been so negative about yourself lately and you've been tired. I should've kept an eye on you.'

'It's not your fault. It's my own. I started and it became my coping mechanism. I should've spoken to you.'

You sat back and looked at him. You saw him quickly wipe his eyes. You didnt mean to hurt him. You never wanted to.

'No. No Remus, I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you.'

'I know, Y/N.. Im just worried.' Remus spoke. 'Tell me what's wrong. Please..'

Remus sat down against the backboard of his bed. He moved his arm up. You snuggled with him and he held you tightly.

'My sister and her friends.. they bully me. The bruises you sometimes see isnt me being clumsy in class. They beat me some times and they make my life miserable. My own sister..'

'For real? Thats awful.' Remus said, anger in his voice. 'I wont let you out of sight anymore. I love you and I promise you I'm going to help you end this.'

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You were heading to Remus and his friends the following day. You spend the night safely in Remus arms and you were happy that you told him.

'Hey, hold up.'

You froze into place when you heard your sister voice behind you.

'Where you going?' She smirked.

You turned around and looked at her.

'Remus.' You just said.

'Oh he is still holding on to a loser like you? I honestly thought your relationship wouldnt last longer than last month.'

'I must be doing something right.' You said.

She grinned and looked at her friends. They were always with 5 ganging up on you. You took a tiny step back.

'The only thing you do correctly is following people around like a dog. He only likes you because you do exactly what he says.'

'Thats not true.' You hissed.

'Youre trying to act tough but we know youre scared of us.' Your sister laughed while walking towards you.

'Leave me alone!' You snapped at her.

You stepped back, hoping you wouldn't fall. You felt someone grab your wirst. Remus pulled you behind him. He had his wand in his hand.

'Oh hey Remus!' Your sister smiled.

She always put up this sweet act around others.

'Dont be nice to me. Y/N told me everything.'

'I have no idea what you're talking about.' She smiled innocently.

'Stop.' He hissed while pointing his wand at her.

'Whats this about, Remus?' Sirius asked.

His friends approached the scene.

'You know how I've been worried abour Y/Ns bruising and her negativity lately and her tiredness? That's the cause right there.' He hissed.

'Y/Si/N (your sisters name)?' Peter asked.

'She been beating her up. With her friends. Thats messed up, she's your own sister.'

Suddenly the act of your sister fell. Her eyes darkened again and the smirked creeped back on her face.

'As her sister I should make sure she doesnt end up like the loser she is now. She has to learn.'

'Expelliarmus.' Remus suddenly said.

Your sister flew back and crashed onto the floor. You had never seen Remus this tensed.

'Honey, calm down.' You said.

'No.' He said while walking away from you. Her friends tried to stop Remus but Sirius, James and Peter wouldn't let them.

Remus stood over your sister. She looked at him, shocked and surprised.

'If you touch her again it wont stay with just expelliarmus.' He hissed.