::Warning::
This chapter will be talking about sensitive subjects-so trigger warning? SA -sexual assault, ptsd, depression and anxiety. So beware. I'll give a basic summary at the bottom for those who don't really want to read it just in case-it won't be that detailed but I want people to be comfortable in case they aren't comfortable with the topics provided above.
-Neko

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He didn't know what he was doing, he just knew he was running-but you can't run away from the mind even as much as you want to. He knew that and yet he still ran all the way back to his room and tried to catch his breath. But he couldn't.

He knew what this was the moment he locked his door. His heart wasn't racing in the pleasuring way it had when Severus kissed him-but in a way of fear. Adrenaline pumped through him even though he was in no situation for it. Tears stung his eyes as he started to gasp for breath. He couldn't stop it.

His head hurt as the memories of his captivity-his years before Harry-all coming to bite him in the ass. The gold ichor running from the eyes and nose, dripping from the mouth of the last wizard-his ichor-his blood killing someone.

The dagger in his stomach as hands roamed his body-and he choked on a gasp as he felt them-not the warm pleasuring hands from Tom and Severus-but the cold clammy hands of another. Hensley-Kronos. Gold eyes enjoying the way he reacted. How he tried to run away so many times. For nothing to work. The disgust of his skin. He sobbed at the feeling on his member-he was glad it didn't go father from those sessions-as Kronos had called him disgusting and that he wouldn't ever go forward with anything else but what he did do-it still took space over so many scars he already had.

He was disgusting wasn't he? He looked at his body through blurry eyes-finding the scars of the physical marring him. How many that were thick and ugly. He sobbed again. He was sure his back was worse.

And they saw oh gods...they saw...that's all that went through his head-a cycle taht never ended for him and he tried-he know he tried-it felt like hours to him but it was moments. Enough though it took him and wrangled-strangled him.

Poseidon having been out-checked in on Percy just then. Finding his son sobbing on the carpet of his room. Awake and safe yes, but in such a state had him instantly in front of his son calling his name. "Percy?! Hey-bud look at me?" He spoke gently as he grabbed the hands that were digging into his arms. Gold faintly gathering over the marks after he took those hands.

"Dad..." Percy had choked out and Poseidon's chest squeezed painfully as he took his son and carefully scooped him bridal style into his arm while still on the ground and held him like he had for the first few weeks of him breathing alive and innocent to the world around him. And here in his arms-was the man he grew into harmed by that same world around him. 

"I've got you-your safe. Nothing will ever harm you again." He spoke gently as he rocked Percy.

Percy tried to leave the hold feeling embarrassed but gave in when he started to feel comfortable. Familiar and safe were the arms of his dad. He closed his eyes and whimpered when the images came forward again. "I hate it...I hate it all. I hate Kronos..."

Gently he stopped the rocking to bring a hand up and caress the soft locks-still wet from the shower he had. "He will be no more after I am done with him..."

"But he lives in my head...the memories of him using someone to touch me...to hurt me...are worse then Tartarus...." Percy sobbed. "It makes me relive those as well-everything-it always comes up in the worst way-I can't enjoy kissing someone. I feel gross and used and ugly and as if his hands are still on me and can't get it to stop...I can't get it to stop when I really want it to."

Poseidon winced-he remembers what he had done in the past-he and frown and it's something he knows he'll be repenting for for the rest of his immortal days. "You are beautiful Percy, every inch of you is made of something no one can recreate-something your mother gave you-you are gold incarnate. Beautiful and brave-the best son I could ask for. Who's give me me a chance. I'm the real ugly person here Percy. I am-never you." Tears came to the god of seas eyes. "You will heal."

"How? It never goes away-I'm scared it'll stay forever...my scars won't ever go away-not matter how many potions or magic I do....they're so ugly..." Percy rubbed at the fresher pink one he had gotten remembering how that had happened made him start to shake a little.

"They show so much-how you've saved so many people-" Poseidon shushed softly. Patiently.

"But they didn't save the people I cared for....the people I loved and I'm afraid they'll be taken away from me again...I failed them all-I failed Annabeth, Thalia, Nico, Jayson and Piper. Leo! I have so many people deaths on me and all I can do now is remember them and tell the stories to my kid to show how they were the heroes-I was only along for the ride to help them. I would sacrifice worlds for them-for Harry and Hermione-for Severus and Tom if it meant they lived! I hate myself for letting them die! I could have stopped it if I was stronger!"

"But you weren't..." Poseidon wiped tears away. "You were never strong enough to save them-you may be now. But you weren't then." Percy sobbed wanting to get away from the words for his Dad. "But is that your fault? You were as strong as you could be as you were-the bravest kid-the sassiest." The old god chuckled. "Always getting in trouble as it followed you. You did what you could-and it is not your fault how things happened-leave that on us and the fates. Never yourself Percy."

"But-" Percy started.

"In time-you will see this-you know this deep down. They love you Percy-they hope for you to be happy and do not blame you. Nico yelled at all of us for causing you pain with becoming a god. We deserved it. But-we wanted something selfish-we wanted you around because we were afraid. I was afraid of losing you like how we lost so many. Because we didn't do a damn thing like we should have. We should have protected our children. And not have someone protect them for us. So that you-Percy-could be happy-for longer then you have suffered. So you can explore and learn at your own pace. I know it was selfish. But you have Harry-you've raised him well-now Hermione you've advised and helped her grow into who she is now. How you've changed the lives around you without noticing-for the better."

Percy watched his father speak holding the Hawaiian shirt tighter in his hands and he knew his father was right. He was right. It still hurt-but he was calmer now-embarrassed but calmer. "Thank you." He whispered as he closed his eyes hugged his father tightly to me.

"No-Thank you Percy. For everything you've done. For being my son. I love you my little tidal wave." He kissed Percy's forehead then while hugging him back.

Percy had a final sob come out. "I love you too."

"That...should we have stayed out here?" Severus spoke gently into the air...their eyes settled on the door of Harry's-their back and this their ears to Percy's room as they listened to Percy cry to his father.

Tom was silent as his mind went to the scars he saw-the ones Percy mentioned. "Probably not...but...we should tell him when we can. And...help him. He's been through so much. I wish we found him sooner." He muttered quietly. Hoping he wasn't heard from outside Percy's room. Or that Harry was awake and hearing them or his dad.

"You can come in." Poseidon spoke through the door. They heard rustling before the door opened.

The two looked at each other for a second before quickly walking in to find Percy blushing red as he stood by his bed without his shirt-to which Tom came over and put the silk pj shirt that they had taken off only minutes ago.

"I think Percy-they have something to talk about with you. But remember what I said." Poseidon said and nodded to the two before saying goodbye to the nervous Percy before leaving the room. A flash of light outside the door and it was official he was gone.

Severus was the first to start rambling. "I'm so sorry Percy-I didn't mean to make you upset-if I had known I would have done better or something along those lines. I had no intentions to make it uncomfortable-I was fumbling in a way to tell you that your-"

"Breath Sev!" Percy said stopping him for a minute to breath. "It's okay-you didn't know. I haven't talked about it, with anyone and I guess it was bound to happen eventually. The panic attack. But Im fine now. At least for now. So don't blame yourself." Then Percy caught up a little bit an frowned. "What did you need to tell me?"

Tom lead Percy to the bed to sit down. "Well we've wanted to tell you when you woke up-after the ball-things got hectic as you know. But we wanted-I wanted to go slow and get to know you before asking you to date us."

"Dats you?!" Percy blushed as he looked between the two.

"Yes-your our mate. The last to our trio." Severus said softly. "You don't have to accept us just yet. We wanted to tell you and show you we wanted well you."

Percy blinked-then went back to the small tall in the hallways before the making it to the bedroom the two shared. "That's going to take me a minute to process-" then his eyes widened. "That evil goddess!" He spoke as he stood with the sudden realization.

He didn't know this is what she met by the dates already had people planned and she was going to make sure they loved him dearly-without her magic just with simple glows to himself-he had warned her off by sending her letter back with a big no all over her letter.

"What?" Severus asked.

"I don't think it matters much-but she likes to play with my love life and now I'm scared of what Hera will do..." he remembers that letter as well as shredding it.

"Right....does this mean you are okay with it? With us?" Tom asks slowly.

Percy thought about it-he liked both of them. And if the make out session was any indicator the they did to. He blushed then frowned. Was he...his fathers words ring in his head. "Yes...if you reply sure you want me....with all my problems and stuff..." he winced.

"Of course we would. Your so amazing I'm lost for words everytime I look at you." Severus said grabbing his face gently to give his nose a soft kiss.

"You make the stars seem dull Love." Tom said wrapping his arms around him gently and carefully-soothing Percy who tended but melted all at the same time. Kissing the top of his head he was that tall against him.

Percy smiled, then yawned. "I think I should sleep."

"Of course we should." Then Tom was taking him to his bed and they all climbed in to Percy's shock-but he let it happen. He needed someone around-and he felt safe with them-except for some moments in time...but he didn't mind right now. He was exhausted.

He fell asleep quickly, faster then he ever had.

            ::Soooo::

Basically-Percy has a small meltdown from a trigger-Poseidon helps calm him and the two are let in after Poseidon said to stop snooping basically and help and tell him. And they tell him of him being his mate-they are now dating. They then went to bed.

So Yee I hope you guys enjoyed.

-Neko

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