A/N: look at this gem (am i talking about dan or the koala u decide)

but this is what i woke up to and i may or may not have shed a few tears.. this picture is truly a work of art

it was an emotional experience for me ok

these gifs just continuously fuck me up jfc

"Y/N! THERE'S A DRATINI!" Dan cried out just as you pulled up to the red carpet. He's been playing Pokemon Go since you left the flat, you all think it's become his new addiction.

"Dan don't you think the timing is oh I don't know, a tad bit inconvenient?" You watched as he angrily tapped away on his phone, cuss words continuously flowing out of his mouth.

"He suffered having to film me catch one, so I think this is well deserved." Phil chuckled as you and Louise impatiently waited for Dan to catch his beloved Dratini.

"Awe yeah, that's right Phil take a good look at that and absorb yourself in disappointment, mine has a higher CP than yours." Dan sang cheerfully, waving his phone in Phil's face as he sulked.

"Alright Ash and Brock, are we finally ready to step out into the real world?" Louise laughed as she looked between the two of them, beginning to open the door.

"As long as I get to be Ash." Phil mumbled to himself in defeat as you all started to pile out of the car.

"Don't worry Phil you're still cooler than him, he's already on level 27." You whispered to him as you two stifled giggles.

"You're terrible at whispering." Dan mocked you by whisper yelling, smiling innocently at him.

"M'lady." Dan spoke poshly as he extended his arm out for you, helping you out of the car.

"What a gentleman." You curtsied jokingly, his dimples evident in his successful smile.

Everyone else was patiently waiting in a clutter for you four to arrive, as you all took separate cars. You felt PJ's eyes burning through the back of your head, but you were doing well so far at avoiding him at all costs and you were going to continue to do so for as long as you thought was necessary.

Just as you thought the night was going perfectly, everything came crashing down little by little.

A night you've fantasized all your life quickly turned into your worst nightmare.

It all started with the paparazzi. 

As you and Dan stepped out onto the red carpet and posed for the blurry flashing lights in front of you, you couldn't help but to feel uneasy. Dan squeezed your hand to reassure you which helped for awhile, until a swarm of reporters started shouting things at you.

"What happened with Marcus Butler?"

"Are you cheating on Dan with PJ Liguori?"

"Is it true that you're using Dan for views?"

"Why do you look like that?"

"How do you feel about all the hate you're receiving from Dan's viewers?"

Dan was with Phil being interviewed whilst all of this went down, so you had nowhere to run. The fear in your eyes was obvious which encouraged them even more. You felt every ounce of self confidence leave your body as you searched anywhere for an escape.

Just as you were about to have a meltdown  you felt a hand on your back guide you away from the crowd and pull you to the side.

"Are you okay?" PJ's eyes met yours in concern, sighing heavily.

At this point you were overwhelmed so you did the first thing you could think of, which was to wrap your arms around him and sob hysterically into his blazer.

PJ staggered back for a second before holding you tightly, rubbing your back sympathetically.

"Hey, calm down I'm here." He soothed, pressing a kiss on the top of your head. As much as you wanted to settle down, PJ wasn't the cure. Dan was.

Where was he?

"Y/N?" You heard Dan call out weakly as you abruptly broke away from PJ, your eyes scanning the sad boy in front of you.

"Dan I-"

"I don't even want to hear it." Dan spat, glaring at PJ darkly before blending in with the crowd.

"God dammit PJ, why do you keep doing this!" You growled at him angrily, shoving him roughly when he tried embracing you once more and ran after Dan.

This was all PJ's fault, this is exactly why you were trying to stay away from him all night. Every time you're near him, something terrible happens and then you're left with the after math.

Searching for Dan wasn't easy when tons of people were trying to gain your attention and got in your way. All you wanted to do was give him an explanation, it was obvious he was tired of PJ purposely getting between your relationship.

You're not making an effort to stop it, though. Your subconscious reminded you, causing you to shudder.

Finally, near the isolated bathrooms you spotted Dan rubbing his face. You approached him and placed a hand on his shoulder gently, turning him around.

"I don't want to talk about this right now, let's just act like nothing happened and pretend that we're fine." He spoke calmly, although his eyes were damp.

All you managed to do was nod stiffly, suddenly becoming mute.

The night ahead of you was going to be a long one.

The long, dragged out movie had nearly everyone in tears, except for you, you could rarely focus on the movie when all that was on your mind was Dan. You tried placing your hand on top of his, but he jerked his hand away a second later. In the corner of your eye you swore you saw PJ smirking.

Throughout the whole movie he glanced in your direction once.

The car ride home was suffocatingly silent, the only chatter being between Louise and Phil who were only in the car for a brief amount of time as they were starving and met up with Jack and Hazel to get dinner.

That left you and Dan, who had no interest in speaking to you. Your heart sunk at the lack of communication, wanting to make an attempt to talk to him but knew he would do most of it once you got to your flat.

"Am I not good enough for you?" Dan blurted after blankly sitting on the sofa for 10 minutes, the hurt in his voice sending a shot right through your heart.

"Of course you're good enough for me, I don't understand why you're so upset." You finally grew enough courage to touch him, only for him to reject you again and quickly rise from his seat.

"Oh I don't fucking know, probably because I'm in a competition with someone who I used to consider a best friend." Dan threw his arms up in the air, sending you a look as if you were stupid.

"Listen to how ridiculous you sound right now, I'm in a relationship with you aren't I?" You shot back sassily, getting up so you were staring deadly into his eyes.

He chuckled sarcastically, "Right, that's why whenever I'm not around you run to him?"

Your mouth parted to say something, but quickly shut it.

"See, I knew this would happen. I'm always the second choice." Dan's voice rose as your hands started to tremble, biting your lip to keep it from quivering.

Why was he making such a huge deal out of something so little, didn't he trust you?

"Don't you dare pull the victim card on me Dan, you have no idea why I was even with him!" As much as you wanted to restrain from fighting, your blood was starting to boil. He wasn't even unaware of what you went through tonight and maybe if he wasn't so paranoid all of the time, you wouldn't be arguing.

"Hm let me take a wild guess, because being romantically involved with one person just isn't satisfying you enough?" He cocked his head to the side, eyebrows raised expectantly.

"For fucks sake, no that's not why! I got bashed on by thousands of people and they kept asking me questions about Marcus. They harassed me Dan, and they kept pushing me further. Maybe if you had the fucking decency to stay by me like you promised, I wouldn't have been crying on PJ's shoulder in the first place." He stared at you with wide eyes, taken aback by your response.

"Well I am so sorry that you're sensitive and can't handle a little criticism, but PJ is always there to save the day isn't he." Dan scuffed his shoes against the floor, shaking his head to himself.

"A little criticism? Dan you are unbelievable, at least he actually has a damn soul and comforts me after being humiliated not once when you left me, but twice." You knew you had Dan right where you wanted him, he was drowning in guilt. Since he wasn't speaking up, you did again.

"How would you feel if people were burdening you with questions about how Marcus Butler took advantage of you?" Your voice was thick, barely able to get the sentence out without wanting to throw up.

"I wouldn't know, I'm shocked they didn't ask the same thing about PJ." Dan spoke blandly, his eyes fixed on the blank television screen.

That was when he went too far.

You shook your head in disgust as you launched a pillow towards him, fighting back tears.

"Get out."

Dan was now alert of what he just said, stepping towards you with a look of regret on his face.

You pushed him, nearly making him topple over.

"Get. The. Fuck. Out. Now." You whimpered, tears carelessly falling now.

Everything around you started to crumble as you watched him drag his feet across the floor, looking back at you once more with a hard face before slamming the door behind him.

What hurt the most was how he didn't even bother to fight for you.

A/N; THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR 9K READS AND 1K VOTES OH MY GOD ILY