A/N: guys im like 4 do you really think i can write smut lol

hahahah just kidding if you guys want me to i might just let me know if you want that ?? wouldn't be until later in the book tho

I AM SO SO SORRY FOR UPDATING SO LATE IVE BEEN MAKING HUMAN INTERACTION LATELY WHICH IS VERY RARE FOR ME SO BE PROUD

anyways here's your daily dose of sunshine

Dan

Today was the day.

After everything Y/N and I have been through within the past 2 months, I was finally going to ask her to be my girlfriend.

And I was petrified.

I kept thinking pessimistically as I tend to do often, so I had to turn to Phil for a pep talk. I didn't realize how frequently I came to him with my crisis' until now, he really was a trooper.

I explained everything to him, watching his expressions change at least 10 times within 2 minutes. I've never seen anyone except Phil act so strongly towards something before, it was a bit alarming. Oh wait, Louise.

They really were meant for each other.

"Oh my god, I think I might cry. I feel like I'm sending my child off to college." Phil wiped away the tear that he claimed he had, exaggerating sniffling noises.

"You act like I've never been in a relationship before Phil." I rolled my eyes, pursing my lips.

"Dan I hate to break it to you, but just because you high-fived Jennifer Lawrence doesn't mean anything how many times do I have to-"

"Phiiillll, please just go with it." I whined.

That high five was basically third base for me. It counts.

"Alright Danny boy how are you going to do this?" Phil smiled brightly, waiting for my plan to unravel.

"That's why I came to you, I really want to make it special you know? She deserves it." I smiled at the thought of her. What if she turns me down?

Me and Phil headed out to plan for the night until we came to an agreement, my stomach tied in knots and my heart already beating at a rapid pace. Was I actually going to go through with this?

Obviously I wanted to, but what if she broke my heart?

Or even worse, what if I broke hers?

Before I started to overthink, Phil broke my train of thought.

"Get out of here and go get her tiger!" Phil playfully punched me, the two of us laughing afterwards.

"Dear god, Phil, what would I do without you?" I shook my head, tentatively rising from my seat and walking towards her room.

I took a deep breath before knocking on her door, her face glowing immediately. I could never get over how beautiful she was.

I flashed a shy small towards her, trying to speak but was only able to let out inhuman noises. Dan you're already offending her, act normal!

"Dan you look constipated, what's up?" She laughed to ease the tension, causing me to laugh.

"No-Ugh stop making me laugh, Y/N can we please have a civilized conversation for once?" I bit my lip, looking anywhere but in her eyes. I'm totally handling this well, I think I'm a natural.

"You want to ask me out, don't you?" She leaned against the doorframe, an amused smirk playing on her lips.

Was I being that obvious?

Well, I was blubbering like an absolute dumb ass and I noticeably peered down at my shaky hands which I was previously wiping on my jeans, so yes. I was being conspicuous.

"As you can tell I don't do these things on a regular basis, cut me some slack." I let out an airy laugh, pulling her to me by her hips.

"Doesn't seem that way when you have the courage to do things like this, I want to hear the words come out of your mouth." She seemed to have gained a lot of confidence as well since yesterday and it was driving me mad.

I let go of her a little too quickly before stuffing my hands in my pockets. I shouldn't be too comfortable with her yet, I haven't even asked her out properly and we were already acting like we were together. As much as I hated distancing myself from her, I needed to behave so tonight would go perfectly. I needed it to, it was my only shot.

"Alright, Y/N would you like to go on a date with me?" I felt the heat rush to my cheeks, smiling at her uneasily.

"I'll have to check my schedule, wait there." She walked away from me as I stood in the doorway with a scowl, watching her flip through a random book she found on the dresser and scan through it with concentration.

This girl was truly going to be the death of me.

"Well it looks like you're in luck Dan Howell, I'm free tonight." She smiled warmly, resting her arms on my shoulders.

"Fantastic, I'll pick you up in 20 minutes?" I raised my eyebrows suggestively, not able to hide the smile on my face for any longer. She nodded her head briskly, letting out a squeal.

"Do you need directions to get here, it's quite complicated if you think about it and it would be a shame if you got lost."

"I think I'll manage, love. I'll be back in 20 now go change into the outfit I left out for you in the bathroom." She looked at me skeptically, an uncontrollable smile breaking out on her face as she pranced towards the bathroom.

I decided from then on to make it my privilege to make her smile (precisely at my terrible jokes) until her cheeks physically hurt and if I succeeded to do so, I'd die happy.

20 minutes soon passed and it was 8 o'clock. The nerves I had were starting to become unsettling, I had no purpose for being so anxious in the first place, but this was big for me. I actually found someone who was as much of a loser as I was.

I stood in the same place as I did 20 minutes previous, but this time with a twisting stomach and high expectations.

Y/N opened the door, glaring at me. My eyes immediately landed on mine and Phil's merch I forced her in, choking back laughter.

"Dan, this date better be fucking magical."

"I think you look quite ravishing." I held my head up high, smirking broadly.

"Yeah, yeah. Just make sure I'm home by midnight." She held out her arm for me to link onto and I gladly accepted, walking up to the car I've rented for tonight.

"I'm sorry if you were expecting a limo or a magical carriage or something, I just thought I'd make this date as realistic as possible." I laughed at how insensitive I sounded, placing my hand on top of hers.

"I didn't expect nothing less from you, all I'm waiting for now are the terrible puns that unfortunately get to me every time and the cheap champagne that tastes like pennies that we can't bring ourselves to stop drinking. It's perfect." She kissed me on the cheek as I drove off with a goofy grin on my face.

Our first stop was McDonalds because Y/N insisted on having a damn ice cream cone.

"Have you ever tried their ice cream?" She happily licked her cone, already managing to get it on her chin.

"Nope, I'm strictly a nugget person and that's it. I'm too scared to try anything else, McDonalds is so sketchy to me." I chuckled, catching a glimpse of her.

"Well face your fears, take a lick." Right after she said that we broke into hysterics, causing us to nearly swerve off of the road.

No wonder me and Phil only take a taxi.

"Alright, why the hell not." I sighed, holding my hand out for the cone.

"Dan, I'm warning you now if you somehow ruin this cone, you're buying me a lifetimes worth." She teased, passing it to me.

"Here we have a Daniel James Howell, approaching a precious cone ever so slightly." She spoke in an Australian accent, smothering her laughter.

She said that as soon as I bit into the cone, watching it fall into my lap due to the high pitched laughter coming from my lips, ice cream dribbling down my chin.

"Thanks a lot!" I barely got out, the both of us gasping for air as we laughed until our ribs hurt.

Thankfully we pulled into the location shortly after that tragedy, hurrying to brush the crushed cone off of my now ruined black jeans.

"Woah Dan, this is a little awkward." Y/N quickly glanced down as I spotted the white mark near my crotch. I feigned a laugh and playfully flipped her off as I tried to get the stain out, not having any luck. Great.

"Well now I'm making it a new fashion statement." I smiled sheepishly, holding my hand out for her.

"Looks like you're going to be spending a lot of money worth of ice cream on me." She stated as I let out a groan from the back of my throat.

"You'll get sick of it sooner or later." I swung our hands, leading her towards a small pond with a canoe awaiting us.

I watched her face light up as she took in the scenery, her eyes locked on the illuminating stars above her.

"You really planned this out, didn't you?" She turned to me with sparkling eyes and I nodded, pecking her on the lips.

"Sorry, couldn't help myself." I murmured, bashfully rubbing the back of my neck and climbing into the canoe.

We spent the night sipping on champagne that didn't taste like pennies, or at least in my opinion it didn't. She knew me better than I did, so she was probably right.

"So, why did you do all of this?" Y/N spread her arms out to gesture what was around us.

I felt my heart beat out of my chest as my breath hitched, knowing the time was coming.

"You're giving me that look again Dan, say something." She spoke after a minute of watching me try to collect the right words, shaking me slightly.

As soon as I was about to speak up, I saw a shadow in the corner of my eyes before hearing a loud hiss. We both looked at each other with fear in our eyes, screaming loudly and causing the canoe to become unstable and lean towards its side.

Before we knew it we were under water.

I popped up urgently, my face draining once I saw Y/N hasn't surfaced from the water yet.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I swam towards her immediately once she sprung up a few seconds later, confused with her hysterical laughter.

"Oh my god, this night is amazing." She met me half way, wrapping her arms around my neck and sending a shiver down my spine.

"Are you alright?" I breathed out, still shaken.

I actually wanted this portion of the date to go well, not fail completely. Of course that's never the case, though.

"Of course I'm alright, whatever that thing was nearly sent me into cardiac arrest though." She placed a hand on her chest, continuing to laugh.

Our heads snapped towards the rustling in the bushes, a raccoon popping out.

"What the hell!" Y/N hid into my chest immediately, both of our breaths shallow.

"I'm so sorry this night has been such a flop." I frowned, bringing my hand to my forehead, trying not to focus on the pesky animal. She probably wasn't even interested in me anymore at this point.

"What are you talking about, this is everything I could've asked for. I wanted to have a fun night with my favorite human in the world and do what we usually do, act like idiots together. It met my expectations perfectly." She leaned her forehead against mine, gazing into my eyes admiringly.

It's now or never.

"Lets continue to act like idiots then, be my girlfriend."